Jo-Yee says!

[SOLD] AVRIL LAVIGNE LIVE IN MALAYSIA 2012 TICKET FOR SALE! ROCK ZONE TICKET! DISCOUNTED PRICE! CHEAP! AVRIL LAVIGNE KL CONCERT TICKET FOR SALE!

2012-02-14T05:17:00.006+08:00

[SOLD!]

ANYBODY INTERESTED??!

This is a ROCKZONE (free standing) AVRIL LAVIGNE LIVE IN MALAYSIA 2012 ticket worth RM198 and I am only selling it for…

RM140!!!

Reason for selling, I got this ticket after paying RM200 for the previous Simple Plan concert. And I don’t really like Avril Lavigne so I don’t want to go to her concert. But that is all not important. What’s important is you will save…

RM58!!!

I won’t go if nobody buys it anyway so don’t waste the good old ticket ok! Buy from me if you want it! Don’t let ticket pro earn the extra RM58!!! lol

Also, PRICE IS NEGOTIABLE! If you want cheaper, let me know!

I will send ticket personally to areas in Klang – Subang but anywhere further I will send by postage. And FREE POSTAGE TOO!

Concert details :

Time : 830pm but doors open at 700pm. (since it is free standing, make sure you go there early to grab a nice spot!)
Date : 18 February 2012
Place : Stadium Merdeka, Kuala Lumpur

Nails! And some other nonsense.

2012-02-14T02:36:00.001+08:00

Hello everyone! Okay so recently I know I have been blogging alot of serious nonsense and not much girly stuff which is usually what I like to blog about, so today I will write a post about nails!

To me right, I think all girls should take good care of their nails whether you are girly or not girly. But then honestly right I think all girls should be girly. I mean, leave the manly things to the guys lah. Or if you want to be a guy then you should act 100% like a guy. Why stay in between? It is so not appealing in my opinion.

ANYWAY.

Nails are very important to me because they are on your hands. Your hands make contact most with anything that you touch in your life so isn’t it completely logic that they should always look prim and proper?

Donno why some girls don’t bother to have pretty nails. I mean they don’t necessarily have to be painted or have designs, just clean and nicely cut round or square-shaped nails are good enough right?

Today I’m going to show you one very simple way of making your nails look really pretty without having to go for nail art or anything. Something which you can DIY at home!

TADAH!

Very cute right? Looks like it costs about RM35 at some nail parlour but I did it all by myself at home!

All you need is :

Nail strengthener (light opaque pink), a beige nail polish, and a top coat (translucent pink). Bought all of them from Elianto. Prices ranging from RM5.50 – RM11.

Actually the correct way is to use the nail strengthener on a regular basis to make your nails stronger and don’t peel so much.

The base coat (which I didn’t buy) should be used to paint your nails before you apply your nail colour so that it doesn’t stain your nails so much. The top coat is then applied onto your already painted nails to protect the colour from peeling off. Or something like that.

But I kenot be bothered to buy the base coat because to me the strengthener can also be used like a base coat. Plus it strengthens nails right so it’s a 2 in 1 bonus!

You will also need :

Nail stickers! There are many designs out there which you can buy. The prices range from RM3 – 10 I guess depending on where you buy it.

I bought this at Elianto for RM9. It is quite expensive but really much cheaper than going to a nail parlour to have your nails done because with this I can use it several times.

Or if you wanna save you can buy the cheap RM3 kinds from some donnowhat shop that sells cheap things lah. Those designs are usually not so pretty so I don’t buy them.

To get these nails is really very simple.

First you need to remove your nails of any previous colours that you have used, obviously.

I think girls should always have painted nails, or at least nails which look groomed lah. It is totally unacceptable for girls to walk out of the house with chipped nails or peeled off nail polish. I just kenot stand it!

Even if it is damn tedious to always groom your nails, but to be pretty there is always a price to pay so just suck it up.

Unless you don’t want to look pretty.

What is wrong with you???????

I bought this nail polish remover from Elianto and it is grape scented.

I suggest buying nail polish remover which is unscented because IT STINKS. I HATE THE SMELL OF SCENTED NAIL POLISH REMOVER.

But in Elianto they don’t have the unscented type so I had to choose between the strawberry scented and the grape scented. The grape scented one turned out to be much more tolerable so I picked that.

Costs only RM10 btw.

I like buying Elianto stuff because they are not too expensive and at the same time, they are of quite good quality.

It is a Korean brand if I am not mistaken and everybody knows that beauty stuff that comes from Korea is always good right???

So firstly, apply the nail strengthener and then wait for it to dry.

Then apply the beige nail polish and wait for it to dry.

Then using the transparent sticker plastic thing, hover it above your nails to see if you like the sticker to be stuck there or not and then proceed to paste sticker as desired.

Then apply the top coat and wait for it to dry.

You are done.

Then CANWHORE because now you can haz pwetty nails!

So extremely simple I want to die!!!!!

So girls, do this ok! Be girly! Embrace the fact that you are a girl!

Don’t be so lazy to dress up or put make-up or nail polish. Because one day when you are old and wrinkly you will get jealous of the young girls who look cute and pretty.

Take advantage of your youth!

It is tedious but it is worth it. And once you get the hang of it, it isn’t hard anymore. It’s fun and really boosts your confidence. TRY IT.

In case you are wondering what I am holding in my previous photo, it’s my new Tamagotchi!!!

I bought it from a guy online and it only costs RM10! HAHAHAHAHA

It is damn fun to play lah!

But back story :

I bought 2 Tamas because the postage for buying 1 Tama is RM10 which makes my total RM20. But if I bought 2 Tamas, the postage is only RM5 which makes my total RM25. Wtf pay extra RM5 get one more Tama of course I will do it right lol

So I bought the pink one for me and the blue one for Salam.

First day of playing I realised that my pink Tama’s pixels on the screen were quite faded-looking and my sound was not as loud as Salam’s blue one but since it was made in China and so bloody cheap I just put up with it loh. As long as it could be played right.

But the next day I woke up, my Tama completely conked out wtf

So I texted the guy who sold me my Tama and got quite pissed when he said he didn’t supply batteries and I should go buy them myself.

I told him I did not pay for a Tama that is low in batt and/or dysfunctional. I told him I wanted another Tama but he wouldn’t come to the compromise.

He suggested I pay another RM10 and he would send me 2 more Tamas as replacement because he could not fix my Tama for me.

I asked him why I had to pay extra when the problem was because of his product and he said that he never usually got negative feedbacks from his customers.

So in the end he suggested that I sent my pink Tama back to him and he would see what was wrong with it and then he would send it back to me free-of-charge.

I told him it was very tedious for me and in the end I would still have to pay for postage to send it to him and it wasn’t fair for me.

Then he got abit pissed and said that was the best compromise he could come to.

So I told him fine I didn’t want any replacement anymore and I would play with the blue one instead. I also told him that he should check if his Tamas are functional next time before selling them.

Then he said sorry and replied that he would refund me my RM10 for my broken Tama which I think was very nice of him. So I told him it’s ok and thanks.

Then I went to buy a mini screw driver and button cell batteries with a combined nett price of RMRM12.80 and now my pink Tama is functional again!

Turns out the problem really was with the battery. But everything is fine now.

As you can see, my current pet is a penguin lol

This China Tama is not bad actually because it has many characters to choose from including alien, lion, dragon and many more.

You can also see that I have removed the reset button because it is damn stupid of the manufacturer to put the reset button so prominent there.

I would choose a pet and take good care of him and every now and then I would accidently press the stupid reset button and then I had to start all over again wtf

Couldn’t even keep it in the bag, had to hold it like an idiot all the time so stupid right.

So Salam helped me remove the button and now that doesn’t happen anymore!

I love my Tama! :3

Anyone who wants contacts of the Tama guy just tell me ok!

Just some random food photos from CNY which I haven’t blogged about even until now lol

LOU WAAA! LOU WAAA! LOL

My sister April. When she dyed her hair it was a violety red colour but it has faded to brown again LOL

A cropped photo of me because the rest of my face looks like crap.

Ok bye!!!

Here's my letter to The Editor of The Star

2012-02-08T17:03:00.001+08:00

Hi. First of all I would like to kindly ask you to review the video of which link I have provided above.

I am 20 this year and I am currently awaiting my STPM results. To some, the opinion of a young girl like me might not be worth much, but I sincerely think that what I am going to elaborate in this email is really important.

From the short explanation given with the video, we can briefly understand that a guy who attempted to steal a guard's motorcycle at Kelana Jaya Giant Hypermarket on 7/2/2012 was caught in the act. He was then brought to a room where he was violently assaulted by the guards there.

I was enraged when I saw the video! Not because of the thief who was so morally wrong for trying to steal, but because of those guards who so viciously beat the thief!

It doesn’t take a genius to realise that a GUARD who works for the security of Giant Hypermarket does not have the authority whatsoever to hit the man like that, unless of course if the thief was being violent or was fighting back. But as we can see from the video, the thief was timidly squatting there at the corner of the room, not daring to even lift his head to the guards who kept launching blow after blow at him!

Who gave the guards the right to hit the man? They should have just kept the guy locked up and then called the police. They should not have the right to hit the man like that and with such brutal attacks no less. What if the guy got a permanent injury? What if he was killed? Who gave the guards the right to beat anyone, whether or not they committed any crime (unless they were fighting back)?

This just shows how morally/authority-confused those guards are. Just because they caught the man red-handed, that doesn’t give them the right to brutally attack him like that. It is extremely underhanded and unprofessional of them to hit the man before the police arrived! And because the guards were wearing the Giant uniforms, they represent how irresponsible a big company like Giant is over issues like this. And for a case like this which involves a man’s life, it is simply unacceptable!

I hope that the authorities from Giant can take action against these guards for committing such an act of shame. And thankfully this video was shot (by some random passer-by I presume) as it can be used as evidence against those brutal guards.

I know that the thief should be prosecuted for his act of theft, but then that is another case altogether. The police should be the ones to apprehend him. He should be put through the appropriate punishment and summons but definitely not the painful ordeal he was forced to go through in that tiny room.

I actually intended to call the police to complain about this, but I am unsure if the police would hear my opinions. After all, I am only a young 20-year-old girl. But after viewing the video, I am sure you agree with my outlook too.

There are people out there, teens mostly, who think that the guards are not in any way wrong for hitting the man like that. After all, the thief was trying to steal. But I would like these people/teens to be able to distinguish one case from another as assaulting a man like that also constitutes an act of crime! And it’s a far worse one than trying to steal a motorcycle!

Violence is not the way to solve any problem and we Malaysians should understand that. If we agree and let the guards off for such a brutal act like that, then it will just allow those guards to continue to act violently in future. This might be detrimental to out society because these people who were hired to protect us are in turn so vicious! How would we be able to feel safe having these vicious people protect us?

How can we feel secure if these people were allowed to continue to be violent? In any way, we should all learn to be professional and allow the appropriate authority to handle any such case. THE ASSAULT OF A MAN SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED.

I am asking for your help as the editor of such a widely read newspaper nationwide to publish this issue as a warning to any other brutal guards out there who abuse their authority. They should be informed that they are NOT ALLOWED TO HIT ANYBODY unless they were fighting back/causing harm to other people.

I also hope that this issue will enlighten those people who blindly agree that violence should be used to control people who have committed a crime, whether or not it is necessary. This is just wrong! Violence should NEVER be the answer to anything.

I don’t know how else I can get the attention of the public regarding this issue and that is why I am asking for your help. Please note that I am not doing this for any personal gain whatsoever or even because of any ill-feeling against those who are in the video.

I am just a random girl who came across the video one day and decided to do something about it because it was so unjust!

Thanks for reading, Mr/Miss Editor. I hope you understand how oppressed I feel for having such a rage inside me but having no means to express it. I hope you can help me share this with the public.

Jo Yee

PS : I hope they respond!!!

STUPID DREAM

2012-02-08T03:07:00.004+08:00

Yesterday I had the most horrible dream ever.

It started out quite innocently, with me hanging out with Salam like usual and all.

But the funny thing is, in my dream, we are in his house. I’m pretty sure the house I dreamt of is not his house in real life, but in my dream, he stays there.

So suddenly out of the blue comes his older brother. Salam has 4 older brothers but the older brother I dreamt of is not one of them wtf

And he is damn cute lah donno who the hell that is so anyway obviously in my dream I fall in love with him wtf

Then of course he falls in love with me too so I dump Salam to be with him HAHAHAHAHA

So later that day me and Salam’s older brother (donno his name, not mentioned in my dream) go to a concert together. Cherrie, Sally and some of my other friends (who are non-existent in real life lol) tag along too.

So out of the blue, my new boyfriend disappears and I can’t find him anywhere.

I ask Sally and Cherrie if they have seen him and they point to one side of the area where my new boyfriend is dancing with a fucking hot girl wtffff

And he is holding her waist, kissing her neck etc etc wtf wtf

I start to freak out and march right to him but I can’t get close to him because there are so many people around.

So I shout at him and ask what on earth he thinks he is doing plastering his hands all over some slut when just hours ago he has said that he loves me wtf

And you know what he does after that??? You know what that douche does!?

He rolls his eyes at me and then turns away and continues to dance with that hot girl wtf wtf

I am so embarrassed and pissed at this point because I know I dumped my perfect boyfriend for this douche and now he is cheating on me with this hot girl and with me in presence too wtfffff fml

So I leave the place in anger and shame and come to this very secluded area with no taxis or buses and I don’t know how to get home because I didn’t drive there.

This is the second best part (second best because the best is yet to come) : I whip out my phone and call DUM DUM DUM you guessed it, my ex-boyfriend Salam to come and get me because I know he will never let me down and will always come to pick me up (literally) when I am at my lowest.

Then the best part is : HE AGREES!!! Even though douchey me just dumped him for his older brother all because of pure lust LOLOLOLOL

Isn’t he a great (ex) boyfriend or what!!!

So he arrives and tries to lead me to his car but DUM DUM DUM slutty me REFUSES because at that time I think that if I put in abit more effort I will be able to win his older brother back wtf wtfffffffffffffff HAHAHAHAHAHAH I am such a bitch!!!

So he sadly drives away while I go back inside to where the concert is but then it has already ended and people are streaming out through this archway which leads to the concert area.

Amidst all the people I try to spot my new boyfriend and then finally I see his gorgeous head! But to my horror in his arms is this OTHER girl who is also as hot as the previous girl he was hugging wtf and he is kissing her forehead and holding her very close to his manly body!!!

And when we cross paths he sniggers and gives me a look of disgust and then walks right past me into the crowd of people!!!

I HAVE NEVER FELT LIKE A BIGGER LOSER IN MY LIFE WTFF WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

This is so what I get for dumping my perfect boyfriend just for someone new. And though he looks quite different from Salam, they are equally as attractive loh! Donno what I was thinking in my dream LOLOLOL

SLUT.

This teaches me not to dump my boyfriend for any guy who is cute and whom I’ve met for only a few minutes lololol

So thus concludes one of my many many nonsensical dreams.

Damn I REALLY need to sleep earlier now lololol

PS : Yayang if you are reading this, I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!! I donno why this dream is so nonsense lololol but I promise you it won't happen! Not because I dowan to be caught in the same situation as in the dream, but because I love you very much and won't dump you for anyone else! Love you! Mwahhhh!

YOU!

2012-02-01T03:39:00.001+08:00

DON’T BE SO CUTE CAN OR NOT?! OMNOMNOMNOM

HOW TO GET OVER YOUR EX-BOYFRIEND

2012-01-31T17:46:00.002+08:00

I am going to come right out and say it.

During my last break-up, it was HELL. I felt so much like a loser, my self-esteem plunged and I always wondered if I could ever like anyone again.

Dramatic, naive, stupid, bla bla bla I know. But it’s normal right? Tell me one person who had just been dumped by her boyfriend but didn’t feel that way?

That’s correct. NONE. Unless she had stopped loving him from the start, didn’t really love him anyway etc etc

ANYWAY.

What I want to blog about today is despite the fact that it was my worst break-up so far, I am completely healed! And the process of my healing was also the BEST so far I’ve had!

So as the kind and thoughtful girl that I am, today I want to share with you guys :

HOW TO GET OVER YOUR EX-BOYFRIEND

1) Mourn and cry

The first week of the break-up, you are bound to feel like you want to die, that you wish that everything never happened the way it did, but GUESS WHAT. It has HAPPENED. Nothing’s gonna change that. So just mourn! And cry! Cry as much as you want! Get everything out of your system once and for all!

Don’t ever restrain from crying when you feel like it because that just makes everything even harder later on. You won’t be able to let go of him so easily if you stopped yourself from being sad over him.

Just be yourself, let your mind be upset, let your mind feel like dying and let your mind go through the effects of the break-up thoroughly. This has to happen in order for you to feel satisfied.

But NEVER ever resort to killing yourself. Because then you’re spoiling the game and your healing won’t work.

Because then you will never heal. For the rest of your memory (not life, because duh, you’re dead) you will be remembered as someone who killed yourself for a douchebag who dumped you.

So play wise! You want to win this game! You want to be healed!

Because mourning and crying sets a reminder to yourself for the rest of your life. (more on that later)

2) Find someone else

After your first week (or first few weeks) of living like the dead, it is time to start afresh! Don’t worry if it’s only your first week and you still don’t feel like starting afresh anytime. IT WILL COME SOON. Take your time! But don’t purposefully drown yourself in sorrow! Everything will come naturally! Just fall within the pace and you will be fine!

As I was saying, START AFRESH! Flirt with guys, look out for hotties, make yourself beautiful to restore your self-esteem.

Find someone who is worthy of your time and spend alot of time with him. BUT! Do not make this forceful, make sure you yourself are game to participate, or not you will just end up feeling like a user. YOU DON’T WANT THAT.

You want to be a GOOD COMPANION instead! Don’t worry that you won’t be able to have fun at all after your break up, because YOU WILL!

You just need to find the right type of guy.

Make him appreciate you! If he doesn’t, find someone else who does! Don’t worry, you WILL find someone! Just make sure you appreciate yourself first and nothing would be a problem!

If it works out between you and the guy, take him! (love is a gamble anyway but you should ALWAYS know where your stakes stand)

If it doesn’t, remain close friends, if he is worth it, he will stay, if he is not, soon enough he will disappear from your life. And nobody loses anything because everything is mutual.

Plus point : If it works out between you and the guy, you get a new boyfriend who appreciates you more! Or if it doesn’t work out, at least he helped you restore your self-esteem!

3) Keep the things he ever gave you

Contrary to popular belief, you should NOT throw away the things that your ex-boyfriend ever gave you. Especially those that you liked. Keep them! Store them!

Because they are YOURS! They show how much you are worth even to a guy who dumped you and they also serve as a reminder to yourself about the jerk you used to date but no longer pine for!

Those things will of course be painful to look at during the process of your healing, but don’t worry, at the end of everything, they will serve as good objects to help you maintain your healed condition.

Keep them where they are to remind you of the jerk who you once dated so that you will never fall for those guys again.

Same as the mourning and crying thing, they serve to remind you of how stupid you have once been for crying so much over a jerk like that. So much wasted time and tears.

And then you will become stronger as you realise you are worth much more than how the guy treated you before!

4) However, delete him from Facebook

Facebook is like a warzone. You get to see all sorts of things done by all sorts of people.

You can see the way they live their lives, whether or not they are happy, or sad, or fucked up.

THIS IS VITAL! Because you do NOT want to see your ex all happy and glad that he has broken up with you. You want to WIN the game. You want to live like he is REGRETFUL that he ever let you go. Whether it’s true or not, it doesn’t matter. As long as you don’t expose yourself to the truth, you can pretty much create your OWN truth.

If you are happy, then allow your profile to be seen by the public. Because you know what? HE WILL COME AND CHECK OUT YOUR PROFILE.

Show him how happy you are. Rub it in his face that his departure meant so little to you. Make sure he KNOWS that he is the regretful one.

But if you are very upset, then keep your profile private. Don’t let him know that you are suffering. Keep him in the dark. That will torture him.

However, make sure you don’t go to his profile to check out about him even after you have deleted him. But that would be really hard because we ourselves want to know if the break up affected HIM! Believe me, I did that SO many times I cried everytime I did that.

So if worse comes to worst and you can’t stop yourself from visiting his profile even after you deleted him, BLOCK him from Facebook altogether.

This prevents you from ever being able to stalk him again. And everything will become easier because you don’t know the truth.

But don’t forget the same theory, if you are happy, public-able your profile. If you are sad, make your profile private.

Because he WILL, WITHOUT FAIL, try stalking you from other people’s profile. He won’t be able to stop himself. Guys have this natural need of dominance to know that they have a huge effect on girls. So he will definitely try to find out.

That said, there is no need to delete his friends from your Facebook, because you need to allow him a subtle way to continue to feel like the loser who stalks his ex-girlfriend.

5) Admit out loud that he was a jerk

It may seem hard to call someone you used to love so much a jerk but just do it!

If you have no intentions of ever being together with him again, don’t worry about the insults! PILE THEM UP.

If a guy can hurt you that way, convince yourself that he is not worth a second chance. This is where the mourning and crying come in handy.

If you ever get back together with the jerk who dumped you, you are opening yourself to the possibility that you WILL go through the same shit (maybe even worse) again when he dumps you. All the mourning and crying and feeling like dying. Is it worth it?

If he can hurt you once, he can hurt you twice. Don’t give him a chance! There are many more guys out there who is worthy of you.

I believe that someone who loves you will try all he can to maintain a relationship with you. There is just no excuse for a break up except that he doesn’t really love you.

Need to study, family objection, no money etc ALL BULLSHIT. If the guy wants you, he will brave through EVERYTHING to be with you.

Once you admit to yourself that you have wasted your time with him, it will gradually become easier to let him go.

After all, who needs a jerk in their life?

***

If you manage to accomplish all that, CONGRATULATIONS, you are HEALED!

And what’s even better is you will never let a guy hurt you like that again because you know better now.

To me, if a guy can hurt you so much and for so long, then he is not worth a second chance at all. Don’t let yourself down. Hold your head up and believe in yourself. Don’t ever sell yourself short!

Someday, somewhere, someone who truly loves you will appear. Meanwhile, have all the fun you can!

One easy way to convince yourself that you should not be treated badly is reminding yourself about your mum.

Your mum loves you the way you are and you know she always will. Would she be happy if her own precious daughter allows herself to be treated badly by another guy? You have self-worth because your mum has self-worth. She gave birth to you and shared you with the world. She wants the whole world to love you like she does. She did not give birth to you so that you can be hurt.

Appreciate those little facts. We all have self-worth. Those who abuse us have no right to hurt us in anyway.

So buck up and make sure nobody ever hurts you again!

Hope this helped you/you enjoyed! BYE BYE!

P/S : I FORGOT TO MENTION! After all those steps and you have finally healed, your ex-boyfriend will DEFINITELY, WITHOUT FAIL text you one day out of the blue! He will pretend that he is being friendly, when in actual fact, he wants to know how you are doing! He wants to find out if you are still affected! Don’t fall for his cheap lies and ways!

DO NOT ignore his friendly messages because if you do, it means that you are still affected by him that you kenot even manage to have any contact with him. The correct way is to text him indifferently. Make him feel like he is nothing to you. This will make him go crazy!

Soon enough, after more of these indifferent messages, he will suddenly become ANGRY! And VIOLENT! Because he kenot take it that you have completely got over him! So there, that shows you what kind of a jerk he is capable of being. You will feel GRATEFUL that you didn’t give in to his pretentious ways.

And then you will live happily ever after knowing that you will/can never be hurt again.

P/S 2 : So that means DON’T delete his number from your phone! Because you want to be able to know when he texts/calls you. AH! Talking about calls, NEVER ANSWER! Because we can fake indifference through text but it’s abit trickier through calls. So just ignore his calls EVERYTIME and text him back after that, making an excuse about how you were busy etc etc

P/S 3 : And NEVER agree to go out with him again. Even with friends, or alone, whatever. NEVER. Because then it would be even HARDER to fake indifference. And you are letting him win by allowing him to find out how you are currently doing.

P/S 4 : Except of course if you guys have been friends a long time before you got together and the friendship can still remain normal even after break up and if you have many CLOSE mutual friends, then most of the tips I gave won’t work. LOL But other than that my tips are FAB.

Lao eh……………

2012-01-30T03:25:00.002+08:00

This CNY I am damn pissed.

First let me show you guys a current photo of me. Ok to be fair, I shall post an ugly and fat photo of me so that you guys can see me in my actual form :

Okay fine I don’t have any fat photos of me because I deleted them all so this is one that looks quite close to being as fat as I actually am.

My arms are HUGE and my face is DAMN CHUBBY. In real life, I am probably 5 times even fatter.

So anyway, innocent me with probably arms the size of your average thigh (exaggeration) was strutting around in my spaghetti strapped purple dress all happy to see all my relatives together (which rarely happens).

I like and hate CNY for the same reason : I get to meet all my relatives at the same place.

I like it because I can see how much they’ve changed and to just see everyone having a good time together but I also hate it because it means I have to be fake and act as if I am very interested in their lives and ask them about it, which I am usually not. Like, seriously, if it doesn’t concern me, I don’t give a shit.

So anyway, I was at the table having lunch and I was really trying to watch my diet because I don’t want to be more fat than I am now but suddenly, my uncle appeared right beside me.

He came and then saw that I was eating and immediately made the comment “WAH! So fat already still eat so much ahhhhhhhh…hahaha!”

I was like WTF.

First of all, my bowl was only like a quarter full and I only had like one veggie and some rice inside. Second of all, I very fat meh that you need to comment such a thing to my face?! Thirdly, even IF I am fat, FAT NO NEED TO EAT AH CHAO CHEE BYE

That was my LUNCH for god’s sake and seeing that I woke up quite late that day, it was my first meal of the day leh. First meal also kenot eat, then forever no need to eat is it?

What the fuck man.

Even if you really think that I am really fat and shouldn’t be eating just keep your mouth shut lah! Do I look like the type who would immediately stop eating just because you said something like that? You supermodel ah that I need to accept beauty advices from you?! KNN

I know that you might think I am taking this too seriously, that he might be joking etc but come on lah, isn’t there at least a bit of truth in every joke? And EVEN if he was joking, was it nice of him to say such hurtful words to my face?

AND I WASN’T EVEN EATING ALOT LOH GODAMMIT.

And I am not even done. Later that day, I went to ANOTHER uncle’s house and it was already HOURS past my lunch time. So practically it was almost time for dinner but not quite there yet.

So as a NORMAL HUMAN BEING with a fully functional digestive system, isn’t it NATURAL that I would get at least a little bit hungry by that time?

Of course I went to the kitchen to find some food, and same as my lunch, I only took VERY LITTLE FOOD, little as in probably 4 bites?

I was innocently eating, just to fill my stomach and suddenly my OTHER uncle came and said the EXACT SAME SENTENCE TO ME “WAH! So fat already still eat so much ahhhhhhhh…hahaha!”

WTF WTF WTFFFFFFFFFF CAN’T I EAT IN PEACE?!

So this time I got damn pissed off and I said to his face “ALOT MEH. If like this also kenot eat then I forever no need to eat lah right?” And then he pretended to be busy with something else and ignored me.

DAMN PISSED OFF LAH. I VERY FAT MEH?! Fine I agree I am not skinny and I am not even of average size, I AM BIG AND BULKY. But does that give you the right to hurt my feelings that way?

Everything also kenot everything also fat AS IF YOU ARE VERY THIN AND GORGEOUS.

Can I like go to your face and be like “WAHHHH so ugly already still smoke?”

Can I say that? Because smoking makes you a HUNDRED times uglier than you already are. But can I say that to your face? How about “WAHHHHH so stupid already still want to talk nonsense and act smart in front of people?”

CAN I SAY THAT TO YOU?!?!??!?!

SO ANGRY LAH!!!

And that is not even enough, I went to my cousin’s BBQ party the other day and I met one cousin whom I had not seen for quite awhile.

So we were talking and my sister randomly asked him what type of girls would be considered pretty to him.

And so with his usual foul mouth he said “Anyone who is thinner than my sister consider pretty already lah…hahahaha!” And I already thought that he was fucking mean. Yes, his sister was a bit chubby but DEFINITELY NOT FAT.

But the nerve of that bastard, right after he said that you know what he said to me? He turned to me and went, “Hahaha…you lose already lah like that…hahaha!”

WTF KNN I may not be thin but overall I think I look less chubby than his sister, but probably because I am BIG and TALL that I appear to be much fatter than her. Even so, SHOULD HE HAVE THE RIGHT TO SAY THAT TO MY FACE?

KNN SAY THAT I AM FAT AND UGLY AT THE SAME TIME WHO DOES HE FUCKING THINK HE IS?!

Then I said to him, “You damn bad lah…hahaha.” Like everyone else, I added the “hahaha” to sound less offensive but the whole night after that I was damn regretful lah! I should have been like, “HAHAHA fat but luckily not as ugly as YOU!” and quickly walk away before he retorted. KNN FUCKING PISSED OFF.

WHY ARE GUYS THSE DAYS SO BLOODY TACTLESS AND EGOISTIC?!

THEY THINK THEY ARE SO PERFECT MEH THAT THEY HAVE THE RIGHT TO CRITICISE OTHERS?!

Even if they do think that some people are not pretty what makes them think that it is okay to say it out loud RIGHT at the person’s face?!

Fucking assholes!!! And worst of all, they are not even lookers themselves!!!

My cousin is fucking disgusting and he is NOT EVEN THIN HIMSELF. If I was as mean as he is, I would have said that he was ugly and fat all the time right at his face too! BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT I THINK OF HIM KNNCCB

Why are people so full of themselves? Do they really think that they themselves are flawless? Who gives them the right to hurt someone’s feelings LET ALONE A GIRL’S FEELINGS like that?

I was so affected by this but I didn’t know who I could complain to. If I complained to my mum or sister they would have been all, “But it’s true what.” TRUE YOUR FUCKING ASS LAH. Would you like it if I said such things to you? Would you accept them willingly? Won’t you be hurt too?

So I told Salam about this and I even cried because I couldn’t understand what was so wrong with me that everyone had to put me down like that. Am I really THAT ugly? Am I really SO fat?

Salam said those people are assholes and I am just beautiful the way I am. I know he is my boyfriend and he SHOULD say that I am beautiful just to pacify me and it could very well not be his honest opinion but you know what?

I KNOW he means what he said and I AGREE. I am beautiful in my own way and I don’t give a shit if you think otherwise. Just don’t be fucking tactless as to say it to my face to hurt me like that. I have feelings too fuckers.

And to further prove my point here are my weight and height and BMI. I don’t usually share this with people but I no longer give a shit.

WEIGHT : 73 kg
HEIGHT : 172 cm
BMI : 24.7

For you brainless assholes out there, 18.5–24.9 is considered fucking NORMAL weight (25 and above is overweight - obese). Woohoo guess what? I AM NORMAL. SO FUCK OFF.

I know I am precariously at the brink of almost being overweight but even so, my BMI is fucking accurate right? I never said I was thin. But I am DEFINITELY not overweight. I may look fat to your bloody eyes but guess what, I AM HEALTHY. And that is good enough for me.

Yes, I would love to lose a few more pounds, but that is up to ME to decide, NOT YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES.

So next time keep your fucking opinions to yourselves. Unless you are a supermodel or whoever with certified beauty, don’t come barking up my tree about how I should eat less or whatever to become less fat/ugly.

ESPECIALLY WHEN ALL OF YOU ARE FUCK UGLY YOURSELVES.

PS : And I also found out my asshole cousin got dumped by his girlfriend recently, so serves him right man! Even though I knew it was bound to happen, with a mouth as foul as his. GEEZ.

PART 3 : ONLINE CLOTHES FOR SALE. CUTE CLOTHES SALE. BRAND NEW. ONLINE BLOG SALE. NICE CLOTHES. CHEAP PRICES!

2012-01-20T15:24:00.001+08:00

You can check out Part 1 HERE and Part 2 HERE.

For this batch, I only ship to Klang Parade ok! :) But don't hesitate to tell me your location, I'll see if I can make it (NEAR KLANG PARADE AREAS ONLY)!

UPDATE! : DUE TO UNEXPECTED HIGH DEMAND FOR THE ITEMS, I'M MAKING EVERYTHING A FIRST PAY, FIRST SERVED BASIS! THANK YOU!!!

UPDATE #2! : TO BE FAIR, IF THE ITEM(S) HAVE MORE THAN ONE BUYER AT THE SAME TIME, I WILL START A BID SO THAT THE ITEM(S) GO TO THE HIGHEST BIDDER, FAIR AND SQUARE! THANK YOU!!!

#18 Floral romper

Bought at : RM30
Selling at : RM20
♥ Free size (fits S, M)
♥ Worn only ONCE!

#19 Floral top (with lace detail)

Bought at : RM30
Selling at : RM15
♥ Free size (fits S, M)
♥ Worn only ONCE!

#20 Yellow dress/long top (with knitted detail)

Bought at : RM25
Selling at : RM15
♥ Free size (fits S, M)
♥ Worn only TWICE!

#21 Stripes dress

Bought from Taiwan
Bought at : RM30
Selling at : RM20
♥ Free size (fits S, M)
♥ Worn only ONCE!

#22 Floral dress (with lace detail)

Bought from Nichii
Bought at : RM70
Selling at : RM50
♥ Size S (fits S, M)
♥ Worn only TWICE!

#23 Grey dress (with stud detail)

Bought at : RM40
Selling at : RM25
♥ Free size (fits S, M)
♥ Worn only ONCE!

#24 Printed cropped cardigan

Bought at : RM25
Selling at : RM15
♥ Free size (fits S, M)
♥ Worn less than 5 times!

#25 Floral dress

Bought from Cotton On
Bought at : RM65
Selling at : RM40
♥ Size S (fits S, M)
♥ Never worn before!

#26 Floral top

Bought from P & Co.
Bought at : RM50
Selling at : RM30
♥ Size M (fits S, M, L)
♥ Worn only ONCE!

#27 Dress with denim bottom (with denim bow)

Bought at : RM25
Selling at : RM15
♥ Free size (fits S, M)
♥ Never worn before!

Anybody interested just post comments or post at the chatbox on the right ok! Sending me an email (joey_joeldavid@yahoo.com) would be fine too! THANK YOU!

PS : This batch of clothes belong to my cousin, so if you are interested, I will give you her contact details ok? THANK YOU!

I feel that I am very selfish sometimes.

2012-01-18T13:49:00.005+08:00

Today is my boyfriend’s birthday. About a week ago, I’d already planned to spend his birthday with him. He says his family doesn’t do birthdays much, so I thought I would try to brighten things up and make him a birthday that he wouldn’t forget.

But suddenly (though if I was honest, I’d say I actually expected it), his mom called and told him to go back to his hometown in Kelantan because his dad was feeling unwell (though Salam reports that his dad is thankfully fine, currently) yesterday. And so all my birthday plans would have to be postponed.

I was damn sad lah.

And then after he’d reached home, he told me about his plans to cook chicken chop for his family and I could really tell that he was genuinely happy and excited to be home.

I mean, after all, they are his closest companions.

Somehow, that hurt me. I mean, I know I am not supposed to be so selfish that I wanted him to feel upset that he could not be with me just because I was feeling sad too, but I just couldn’t help it. I was angry that he could still enjoy himself despite the fact that all our plans had been ruined.

Apart from that, I was also upset that he’d just arrived home but he had already planned to cook for his family.

It got me thinking, how come he had never offered to cook for me before? I mean, he has cooked for me before, but it is always after my demands and requests.

And most of the time, I am the one who cooks for him and everything.

It somehow made me feel as if he actually doesn’t enjoy being with me and his family definitely brings him more happiness than anyone else could ever do.

But how is that wrong though? His family has known him for his entire life. And me? I only popped out 6 months ago. Who am I to compare?

I just felt really sad and angry at myself at the same time, because I knew I should be happy. I know I should not get angry.

But I can’t control these emotions, can I?

And then it got me thinking…..

Would I marry a man who loves his family more than me?

Someone who, if his mother and I were drowning in the ocean and if he doesn’t save one of us, both would die and he could only save one person, and he chooses his mother?

I posted this on Facebook and many people said that of course they would choose their mother, I was stupid for asking the question, they don’t think there’s anything wrong by saving his mother bla bla bla.

But to me, yes, saving his mother would be the right choice. Because she was the one who raised him to who he is today.

But supposing this DOES happen to me, and I have to marry a guy who will forever choose his family over me?

Someone whom I have decided to spend my entire life with, but doesn’t put me first in his life, but second, or third depending on how many family members he has?

You guys think that it is very easy to answer, that I am being selfish, but I guess that is because you have never been in love.

For now, the most love you feel is for your family, because you haven’t found someone you truly love yet. You haven’t found someone you are willing to give up your life for.

So your opinions all do not matter to me.

I am not saying that I would want the man to say that he would save me. Because then I would also resent him for loving someone whom he had met outside, and choosing her over someone whom he was raised by.

I was just looking for a man who would answer that he would not allow that to happen, or that he would try his hardest to save both, or that he would not under any circumstance sacrifice one over another.

That is true love to me.

But I guess those people who answered me by saying that they would definitely save their mother over their wife are just really naive and immature. Not that that is a bad thing, because everybody takes time to grow and to fall in love. They will understand what I mean one day.

Back to my point. Sadly though, I think Salam is the type who would save his mother over me.

I can’t confirm for sure, but I just have a vague feeling that he is that type of guy.

I mean, it is a good thing, to be appreciative of your mother, the one who raised you and who is related to you in blood.

But is that good for me?

Should I marry a guy who I know will never put me first in his life? Someone who will always choose others over me?

Would I want to live my life with someone who doesn’t love me the most?

I don’t even know if this is a valid concern.

But I do know that these problems will arise one day (it has already happened, though, as illustrated by the fact that once his mother demanded, he immediately drove back to Kelantan, even though I already have plans with him), I am just not sure if I would be happy to be treated second best by the man I love my entire life.

And even now, he would NEVER choose me over his family.

I know I’m not supposed to be upset or angry or jealous, but I just can’t help it.

I mean, if it were me, I would balance things out between family and friends.

But is it unfair for me to demand the same from my boyfriend?

I don’t know. I just don’t want to be hurt, that’s all.

Apart from all that, I know that Salam does love me very much. I just hope I wouldn’t have to feel like this.

PART 2 : ONLINE CLOTHES FOR SALE. CUTE CLOTHES SALE. BRAND NEW. ONLINE BLOG SALE. NICE CLOTHES. CHEAP PRICES!

2012-01-16T22:51:00.009+08:00

You can check out Part 1 HERE.

Also, I preferably only ship to Klang areas ok! :) But don't hesitate to tell me your location, I'll see if I can make it!

UPDATE! : DUE TO UNEXPECTED HIGH DEMAND FOR THE ITEMS, I'M MAKING EVERYTHING A FIRST PAY, FIRST SERVED BASIS! THANK YOU!!!

UPDATE #2! : TO BE FAIR, IF THE ITEM(S) HAVE MORE THAN ONE BUYER AT THE SAME TIME, I WILL START A BID SO THAT THE ITEM(S) GO TO THE HIGHEST BIDDER, FAIR AND SQUARE! THANK YOU!!!

(SOLD) #8 Dark blue denim jacket

Bought at : RM129
Selling at : RM40 (SOLD)
♥ Size XL (fits M, L, XL)
♥ Worn only TWICE!
♥ Very, very awesome!

(SOLD) #9 Floral dress with zipper

Bought at : RM25
Selling at : RM15 (SOLD)
♥ Free size! (fits S, M)
♥ Worn only TWICE!
♥ Good quality!

(SOLD) #10 Grey dress (with lace detail)

Bought at : RM79
Selling at : RM28 (SOLD)
Bought from Padini Authentics
♥ Size L (fits S, M, L)
♥ Worn less than 5 times!
♥ Great quality!

(SOLD) #11 Floral fleece dress/long top

Bought at : RM30
Selling at : RM20 (SOLD)
♥ Free size! (fits S, M, L)
♥ Never worn before!
♥ Awesome quality!

(SOLD) #12 Polka dot dress/long top (with knitted detail) <BLUE>

Bought at : RM25
Selling at : RM15 (SOLD)
♥ Free size! (fits S, M, L)
♥ Worn only TWICE!
♥ Good quality!

(SOLD) #13 Polka dot dress/long top (with knitted detail) <GREY>

Bought at : ~~RM25~~ RM14.90 (Thanks to a reader who found this. Lol, sorry, I really forgot! The BLUE one above though is the one that is RM25. Sorry for the mistake guys! Anyhow, it's still in good condition! And I already explained to my buyer! She's ok with it!)
Selling at : ~~RM15~~ RM10 (SOLD)
♥ Free size! (fits S, M, L)
♥ Worn only 3 times!
♥ Good quality!

Can be worn like this!

#14 Hot pink dress (plunging V-neck)

Bought at : RM30
Selling at : RM20
♥ Free size! (fits S, M, L)
♥ Worn only 3 times!
♥ Good quality!

(SOLD) #15 Grey printed tee (with stud detail)

Bought at : RM35
Selling at : RM20 (SOLD)
♥ Free S (fits S, M)
♥ Worn only 3 times!
♥ Good quality!

#16 White tee (with stitched on detail)

Bought at : RM39
Selling at : RM15
Bought from Giordano
♥ Size S (fits S, M)
♥ Worn only 3 times!
♥ Good quality!

#17 Light denim mini skirt

Bought at : RM40
Selling at : RM25
Bought from Brands Outlet
♥ Size 8 (fits M, L)
♥ Worn less than 5 times!
♥ Awesome quality!

Anybody interested just post comments or post at the chatbox on the right ok! Sending me an email (joey_joeldavid@yahoo.com) would be fine too! THANK YOU!

ONLINE CLOTHES FOR SALE. CUTE CLOTHES SALE. BRAND NEW. ONLINE BLOG SALE. NICE CLOTHES. CHEAP PRICES!

2012-01-14T01:21:00.009+08:00

Okay I guess my title has enough tag words to bring any online shoppers here! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

CHECK IT OUT! I bought these clothes, some worn once, some brand new but I'm selling at only a fraction of its original price. Reason for selling : I just simply can't/don't wear them anymore! (I only sell my clothes which are still in PERFECT CONDITION, so don't worry!)

Also, I preferably only ship to Klang areas ok! :) But don't hesitate to tell me your location, I'll see if I can make it!

UPDATE! : DUE TO UNEXPECTED HIGH DEMAND FOR THE ITEMS, I'M MAKING EVERYTHING A FIRST PAY, FIRST SERVED BASIS! THANK YOU!!!

UPDATE #2! : TO BE FAIR, IF THE ITEM(S) HAVE MORE THAN ONE BUYER AT THE SAME TIME, I WILL START A BID SO THAT THE ITEM(S) GO TO THE HIGHEST BIDDER, FAIR AND SQUARE! THANK YOU!!!

(SOLD) #1 White lace cropped jacket (with hood!)

Bought at : RM33
Selling at : RM20 (SOLD)
♥ Free size! (fits S, M)
♥ Never worn before!
♥ Awesome quality!

#2 Colourful stripes cropped cardigan

Bought at : RM25
Selling at : RM15
♥ Free size! (fits S, M, L)
♥ Never worn before!
♥ Good quality!

#3 Blue stripes dress (with pockets!)

Bought at : RM50
Selling at : RM25
♥ Bought from Brands Outlet
♥ Size M (fits S, M)
♥ Worn only ONCE!
♥ Good quality!

#4 Black lace mini skirt

Bought at : RM59
Selling at : RM25
♥ Bought from Kitschen
♥ Size L (fits M, L)
♥ Never worn before!
♥ Awesome quality!

#5 Pale blue dress

Bought at : RM69
Selling at : RM30
♥ Bought from Nichii
♥ Size L (fits L, XL)
♥ Never worn before!
♥ Awesome quality!

(SOLD) #6 Blue & white cute Sailor Dress

Bought at : RM25
Selling at : RM15 (SOLD)
♥ Free size! (fits S, M, L)
♥ Worn only ONCE!

Can be worn like this! UBER CUTE!

(SOLD) #7 Sheer floral dress/long top

Bought at : RM30
Selling at : RM15 (SOLD)
♥ Free size! (fits S, M, L)
♥ Worn only ONCE!
♥ Good quality!

That’s all for now! I will update with more clothes soon!

Anybody interested just post comments or post at the chatbox on the right ok! Sending me an email (joey_joeldavid@yahoo.com) would be fine too! THANK YOU!

I’ve never understood.

2012-01-13T15:18:00.002+08:00

How come I don’t believe in the existence of God?

How come some people can put their whole mind and soul into a religion?

Why can’t I share the same faith as them and why won’t my mind believe that God does exist?

I wouldn’t want to indulge in blind faith, just to conform to social norms. I want to be able to believe in the existence of God with all my heart. But I just can’t.

Why?

There are too many loopholes and pressing questions about religions.

Especially God. In Islam, some say that when we are granted “hidayah” (guidance) we will be able to believe in God. We will understand his leads. We will fill him in our hearts.

But how come I’ve never gotten any hidayah? (I mean not only in Islam, but other religions as well)

If we are all meant to believe in God Almighty, how come he doesn’t CREATE me as someone who believes in him? Why am I created as such that I can’t believe in supernatural stuff?

And some say we have to work hard to find hidayah. But how about those who have worked hard, but slowly only succumbed to blind faith and not sincere beliefs? I am sure there are people like this.

How about those who tried hard to believe in God, but have never succeeded?

And to say that God chooses his people, then how come he doesn’t choose me?

If God has already chosen his selected clan of people, why did he even bother to create me?

He creates me as a being that denies his existence, and then punishes me for not believing in him? Isn’t that a bit pointless and unfair?

I just don’t understand how it works. It baffles me. I’m asking all these questions because if I WERE to be granted hidayah one day, I would not hesitate to join its religion.

And doesn’t that prove that I am sincere enough to want to be able to understand God?

But how come until now I haven’t got any hidayah?

Am I not the chosen one? My teacher has told me before that God actually chooses his people. So does that mean that God has overlooked me? Am I excluded? If yes, then why punish me in the end? It is not my intention to disbelieve him. I am just created this way.

And also, if things were to be like this, why create me in the first place just to punish me later when I die?

I’ve read religious books about the olden days (when religions just started) where there had been natural disasters casted upon those clans who denied the existence of God and refused to follow its religion. But if God is the one who created us and made us who we are, why did he punish those people for not believing in him?

It was God’s decision, wasn’t it?

So doesn’t that SLIGHTLY mean that humans MIGHT not be created by God?

The one thing that I cannot tolerate is, we always thank God for the good happenings, but we never blame him for the bad things that occur.

For example, if everything that happens on Earth is decided by God, then how come he allowed the Tsunami disaster in 2004 to happen?

If ALL of those who were perished were not religious, then I can understand. But the thing is, I’m sure there WERE some religious people who were killed in the disaster too. So what was the point in causing the Tsunami?

Isn’t that just unfair? Why did he allow those who believe in him to die as well?

Doesn’t that just mean that everything that happens on Earth is NOT necessarily decided by God? I mean, how can he be so cruel?

Another question is this : Is our every action decided by God?

Or do we have free will?

Look at it this way:

You are a religious person. You stand by the sidewalk. You intend to cross the street. You start to walk but at the last minute, you don’t because you stop to check your watch. Suddenly, a collision between two buses occurs right in front of you. If you hadn’t stop to check your watch, you would have been hit by the two buses and be killed instantly.

But because you didn’t cross the street at that precise time, you are safe. And then you immediately start to thank God for making you check your watch and looking over you from above to prevent you from crossing the road. Because of God, you stand to live till this day.

Thus, you agree that God controls your actions. So, there is no free will.

Then how about this?

You cheat in an exam, you rob people, you rape people and you hurt people. Are your actions ALSO controlled by God then?

Of course your answer would be NO. So all the good things are by God, but the bad things are suddenly your own free will? Is that logic?

And if God doesn’t want us to sin, how come he ALLOWS us to sin in the first place?

I’m so perplexed by all this.

Is all so……….wrong and false.

So does God actually exist? I don’t think so.

For me, I will just remain a disbeliever of God unless/until there are solid reasons or at least some faith in me to believe in the existence of God.

I won’t blindly abide by blind faith. I need to have a clear understanding. And so far, I haven’t found any.

That’s why I’m confused by all religious people.

Don’t they have questions like these too? Or are they just blindly following their faith? Why don’t they have any confusions or at least inquiries? Why are they so sure about their religion when it is clear that there are so many loopholes and doubts?

So don’t blame me if I don’t believe in your religion. It is not my fault that everything sounds so doubtful.

And really, try answering my questions. I have many more other inquiries about religions too, so accept the challenge to answer them and prove that your religion is RIGHT.

If you have so much passion towards it, I would also love to see the reasons behind your beliefs.

PS : And how about the fact that we always claim that God decides when we are going to die? If that is so, why don’t we just walk into streets without checking for oncoming cars? Why don’t we just consume poison all we want and not bother about our health since to remain alive is not under our control anyway? Why don’t we just stab ourselves or jump from buildings? Why are we constantly trying to stay alive when we believe that our deaths are decided by God anyway? If you think that you will only die when God permits you to, then I challenge you to walk into the pathway of an oncoming giant truck going at a speed of 160 km/h. Then we’ll see if you get killed instantly.

Or is your walking into its pathway controlled by God too? So does it mean God DOES want you to die in that gruesome way even though you believe in him sincerely? Can you find an answer to that? I doubt it.

WAH!

2012-01-13T00:01:00.001+08:00

How long has it been since I’ve last blogged? I don’t even remember. I only know it’s damn long ago…

Super long until my laptop is all chapped up and mouldy already.

Dowan la…paiseh to show you all the photo of my laptop…not nice one…

What? You insist? Ok la ok la I show you all. But must promise not to laugh ok?
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MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HOW NICE IS THAT?!

I just reskinned my laptop! AND IT IS NOW IN LEOPARD PRINT!!!!!!!!!!!

And that thing on the keyboard is my phone. WHICH I HAVE ALSO STUCK ON THE SAME LEOPARD PRINT FABRIC.

And the best thing? I bought the whole piece of fabric (there is still some leftover) for only………RM2.50!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AWESOME OR NOT! LOVES LOVES LOVES!

Dowan to tell you all where I got the fabric. Later all of you also copy my style KENOT! lololol ok ok just ask me if you want to know ok? If my mood is good I will tell you where ok! HEHEHEHEHE

Ok so the reason I am blogging today is because I want to talk about one of my “friends”. Let’s call him X.

X is very annoying. Even though I don’t hang out with him much, but we still sometimes talk on Facebook.

I mean, we used to be quite close, before he went to college lah, but ever since he entered his stupid college, he changed into this very stuck up and self-centred bastard.

EVERY TIME we talk, he will boast about himself or about his friends.

Sometimes, he even leeches off other people’s (his friends lah) stuff to boast. For example, he attended this friend’s awesome yacht party, and he boasted about it to the world as if HE was the one who hosted the party. SHIT.

Like that is not enough, every time he chats with people, especially online, he will WITHOUT FAIL say WHATEVER he is saying in a very annoyingly condescending tone. It is as if he believes that everyone is BENEATH him. Except his “awesome” college friends of course. PUI!

I donno why he has to be so arrogant and self-centred, and why can’t he watch his stupid mouth?

For example there was one incident, my cousin recently just got his haircut. It was a crew cut.

COINCIDENTALLY, this stupid bastard also had a crew cut. LONG TIME AGO. So naturally, my cousin had NO IDEA or at least any sort of memory that the bastard had had a crew cut.

But the nerve of the bastard, he went over to my cousin and proudly announced that my cousin had copied him and got the cut. WTF?

He said he was joking of course, but YEAH RIGHT. He is SO the type who thinks that he can easily influence others and that everybody loooooooves to copy his “awesome" style, when in reality we are all talking bad about him behind his back.

Even during hangout sessions, he TRIES EVERYTIME WITHOUT FAIL to monopolise the conversation, making every topic about him. I AM SICK OF IT.

So are my other friends. That’s why nowadays, whenever he is around, we just ignore him. Even when he starts on about what stupid party so-and-so had, we just pretend that we didn’t hear him and continue to leave him out of the circle. Gosh.

And what makes me sad is that he wasn’t like this before. He was still nice and normal and I could get along with him quite well last time. UNTIL HE ENTERED THE STUPID COLLEGE AND SUCCUMBED TO PEER PRESSURE.

Even until now, he doesn’t realise that he is being annoying and everybody hates him. Or maybe he does realise but he is too big-headed to acknowledge it.

EVERYTIME he comments on my statuses, I get annoyed. Because he is CONSTANTLY condescending and acting as if he is so smart and that others can’t live up to his intelligence. PUI!

My SPM results? Better than his by TRIPLE. My co-curricular activities? 100% better than his. And he has the nerve to look down on me (or others)?!

FUCK YOU BASTARD.

As if it is not enough that he keeps trying to put on a facade like he is this awesome stylo guy. HELLO. NOBODY BOTHERS ABOUT WHAT YOU PUT ON OR NOT BECAUSE THEY ALL SUCK.

And he ALWAYS thinks that whatever he does is the right thing and LOVES to advise people on EVERY SINGLE MATTER as if he is very well-versed about said topics. When in reality, whatever he contributes to the conversation is NOT taken into account because NOBODY CARES.

And he is such a hypocrite as well. He tries SO HARD to act as if he is of upper class that when somebody only JOKES about about him being otherwise, he would fire up and try to defend himself with long lengthy paragraphs that nobody in the world is interested to read.

GOSH. SO ANNOYING.

What I would like to say to him is SHUT THE FUCK UP.

Nobody likes you. And admit it, you do feel out of place and ignored nowadays. And it ISN’T other people’s fault, it is YOUR OWN. So can you please go check the mirror before you go barking at others?

Geez. Sometimes I am embarrassed to even be of acquaintance to you.

PHEW.

OKAY. DONE.

Now I feel SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH BETTER.

And if you are thinking why I am writing this in my blog and not saying this straight to his face, it is because we will often meet in future occasions so I don’t want to publicly strain my relationship with him. It would make things too awkward for me. ~~Even though~~ ESPECIALLY SINCE I am only reporting the truth.

Besides, he is not worth the effort.

I hope he reads this and realises it is HIM I am bashing about and starts to change his ways if he ever wants to be part of the group again. Because trust me, if he remains the way he is, he is just going to be pushed further and further out of the circle of friends and soon, he won’t be able to return.

Before I sign off,

GUESS WHO’S GOING TO SIMPLE PLAN’S CONCERT THIS SATURDAY!?!?!??!?!?

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gotta go brush up on Simple Plan songs now before the show! BYE BYE!!!

PS : I FORGOT TO MENTION! The bastard also likes to act and appear as if he has had ALOT of sex/blowjobs/WHATEVER sexual stuff before when in reality, EVERYBODY KNOWS he is COMPLETELY A LOSER VIRGIN BECAUSE NOBODY IS EVEN INTERESTED TO BE FUCKED BY HIM!!!! Isn’t that just freaking gross?! Not about being fucked by him (though, now that I mention, that TOO) but that he ACTUALLY thinks that it is COOL to be sexually active (not with your own partner)?! Because as far as I know, he doesn’t even HAVE a girlfriend. NO, he HASN’T EVER have a girlfriend before. GEEZ. Makes me cringe!

Weird.

2012-01-03T04:14:00.002+08:00

Today I am very depressed.

Apart from the fact that I just cut my hair and I hate it, there is also the fact that I kenot seem to diet.

I just kenot stop snacking.

I just kenot stop eating sweet stuff.

And that is resulted on the fact that I kenot seem to find any nice clothes for CNY. Because I have become TOO FAT.

Yes, I can fit in clothes. But what is even the point when I look so horribly like a hippopotamus in them?!

And oh yes. I forgot to complain about my financial status.

I AM BROKE.

It is the festive season and I am supposed to be enjoying and buying new clothes but I kenot seem to get in the mood.

That is because when I do find clothes which are halfway decent, I don’t have money to buy them.

How about the fact that there are these weird insect bites which are slowly taking over my body?

I swear I am all scarred right now. And the worst part is I have no idea where all these bites came from.

Actually, that isn’t the worst part. The worst is the fact that they are so bloody itchy (pun; you will get it at the end of the sentence) that more often than not I would scratch the hell outta my skin until it becomes all lacerated and bloody. (There. Pun. Btw, not intended)

And besides all of that, I kenot seem to garner my vocabulary skills to come up with more varied phrases in this blog post.

All I seem to use is “I kenot seem” (4 times now) and “the fact that” (5 times) because I am too bloody (THIS TOO! 3 times now!) BORING to think up any interesting ways to form my sentences.

So you can see why I am so depressed.

I was quite satisfied with the way my hair looked before I went cuckoo and layered it, and that was also pushing because I wasn’t ENTIRELY jazzed by the way my hair usually frizzed and stood blandly on my head before I layered it.

That is because before this, my hair was just abit past the in between process of growing longer after a shocking short haircut. So it was looking pretty decent.

I had a bob cut before this. Then I decided to let it grow out. (So that explains the process of letting my growing longer after a shocking short haircut.)

About 5 months before my hair was long enough to look gorgeous, it was hanging just on my shoulders and they kept curling like the world was theirs and made me look so freaking OLD.

Finally, they grew out to be long enough to look passably hot and only about 2 months of enjoying my returned confidence, STUPID me went and LAYERED IT.

And now it’s back to its disgusting wavy and frizzy state.

FML.

About my body weight?

I have been on holiday since mid December of last year.

So that technically means I have been binging and lazing at home doing nothing for two weeks now. So, the weight started to PILE UP.

And now I look like a freaking elephant.

FML.

MONEY?

None to spend. But so much to buy.

FML.

FML FML FML.

UGLY HAIR, UGLY BODY, UGLY BANK ACCOUNT.

NO WONDER I AM DEPRESSED.

I even at one point got so frustrated that I promised my boyfriend that I would TRY DIETING WITH ALL MY MIGHT to look like Sora Aoi later so that it is me he fantasizes about when he masturbates in future instead of some cute Japanese porn star.

This is quite disturbing.

Is he technically cheating on me?

Well if that counts for cheating then I must have cheated on him SO MANY TIMES with SO MANY HOT MEN.

I shall not mention whom for want of protecting your respect and judgement of me.

But I guess the fact that (6th time!) I practically just gave away the secret that I do fantasize about guys already warped your mind beyond repair.

FML

And also, I am so sorry for the mindfuck when you accidentally imagined me masturbating.

I guess you did not imagine it until I mentioned it in the previous sentence so I am sorry again.

GOODBYE. (before I say more catastrophic things.)

How to make banana and oreo crumble spring rolls! :D

2012-01-02T01:32:00.001+08:00

I saw this recipe on AFC once and I decided to try it because it looked so simple!

So when I first made it, I paired it with vanilla ice-cream.

It was really really good!

So I decided to make them for my friends to try and they loved them too! Hehehehe…

So now I’m going to show you how I make these spring rolls and I bet after you see how easy they are to make, you’d be itching to try making them yourself too!

Firstly, you have to get hold of these few items.

Oreo.

Bananas.

Spring roll skins. (you can get them from supermarkets near the frozen section)

A container. (preferably pink! )

Firstly, peel the bananas and cut them roughly into small pieces like this.

Then put your oreos in a bag and crush them up by slightly hitting them with your hammer.

Be sure when your crush the oreo that you still leave some chunks.

This is to ensure that you can still taste them in the spring roll later as opposed to only tasting chocolate powder lol

Pour the oreo crumble into the bowl of chopped up bananas and mix well.

Make sure that the bananas do not become to gushy and smooth because you will still want to be able to taste (and bite) the banana chunks in the spring roll later.

Slowly peel the spring roll skins one by one.

Wrap about 3/4 of a teaspoon of the filling with the spring roll skin as above.

You will end up with a pointy end.

Dap a bit of water onto the pointed end with your finger and then it will stick to the body of the roll as above.

Make as many as you can with the filling you and store them neatly into a container.

Finish everything and you will end up with these!

Deep fry them in medium heat and YOU ARE DONE!

TA-DAHHHH!

(those blackened edges on some of the rolls are the result of a too powerful fire HEHE but mostly they are just oreo-stains)

THEY WERE A HIT!

You can replace the filling with peaches, apples, oranges or any fruit you like if you don’t like banana!

You can also replace the oreo with normal biscuits or peanut butter crackers or anything else!

The choice is yours so be creative and just do it the way as you like it!

I hope you will enjoy this mini dessert; so easy to make yet so satisfying!

Have fun in the kitchen!

Happy New Year!

2012-01-01T04:05:00.001+08:00

2011 was such a dramatic year.

So many things happened. Happiness. Tears.

I remember at the beginning of last year I was very optimistically looking forward to my last year of school life.

I promised myself to achieve full attendance. I did. Puan Ding was surprised but she was proud of me.

I fell in love. I let myself go crazy. I got hurt.

I thought that by loving someone truly, everything will be a breeze. I was wrong.

It didn’t work.

I also fell out with the one I thought was my best friend.

I met new people. I matured.

I scored well for my exams. I was awarded for my hard work.

I got chosen to take part in the 2011 Independence Day celebration. I saw new things, new paths, new people.

I found what I’ve been looking for since a long time ago.

I finally discovered love. True love.

And the best part? I’m still me.

I’m still the big sized girl you knew before.

I still have a big heart, a loud voice, a happy presence.

I look forward to 2012.

Because now I have Salam with me. I can’t wait to spend the year with him.

2011 wasn’t exactly nice to me. I ventured into things hoping to achieve a good outcome, but most things turned out the opposite.

I guess I just have to surmise that 2011 was a year of experiment for me.

Because now I know better. I’ve fallen, been beaten to the ground, but now I’m a stronger me.

Everything will be fine now. The storm has passed, the sun will be up soon.

Come 2012, I won’t be hurt anymore.

Because if any of you dare to try, Salam will first kick your ass.

Happy New Year!

To a new beginning of unachieved resolutions and broken rules.

Love those who love you and leave those who hurt you!

Have a great year ahead!

I DYED MY HAIR!

2011-12-24T05:37:00.002+08:00

As most of you know, I have finished my STPM!

And that means I have finally finished my school life and so right now I am finally free to dye my hair to any colour I want!!!

I actually wanted to dye my hair right before Chinese New Year because then I’d be super gorgeous for CNY and that also gives me time to save some money for the dye. I think for my hair, dyeing it would cause maybe RM150-200?

So you see can see why I would need the time to save money before I actually go to the saloon.

But then one day I was randomly walking around Jusco after dinner with baby and my mum at Igentis and I came to Sasa and saw this :

I forgot where I heard about this brand from, maybe Cheesie? But I searched her blog for the post about this and I can’t find it anywhere. D:

UPDATE! : Yeng told me that the blogger who blogged about this is actually Chuckei! :D

So anyway, the cool thing about this hair dye is that you just use it like shampoo!

I mean, instead of spreading it on your hair strand by strand, or like, bunch by bunch, you just kind of apply the foam to your hair like you normally do when you wash your hair in the shower!

See the photos and you will understand what I am trying to say.

Upon opening the box, I found these.

Carefully reading the instructions.

The good thing about Japanese stuff is that their instructions and descriptions are goddamn efficient and accurate.

I mean, if you have any pressing questions about that product, chances are you are going to find the answers in the instruction sheet/box.

For example, I was foaming my hair and suddenly I wondered if the foam did not stay on my hair, what would happen?

Would that affect the results?

As the manufacturer, I am sure you are just going to assume that the consumer would obediently foam the hair as said in the instructions and not bother about anything else right?

But that is not true!

You have to stand in the consumer’s point of view and see what kind of questions might arise!

And true enough, I searched the instruction sheet and found a line which said : A while after drying the foam may disappear but this would not affect results.

YES! Question answered! So then I wouldn’t try so hard or worry too much to get foam back on my hair right?

Prepare mixture.

Put on gloves!

And baby sits there being cute but not helping. D:

Squeeze the bottle.

FOAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Carefully apply onto hair. Like you are washing it with conditioner, make sure your hair is not tangled!

At this point I politely asked baby if he could help me apply foam to the back of my hair because I couldn’t for the life of me see the back of my head wtf and he obliged.

He had to wrap his hands with plastic bags HAHAHAHAHA

And he also took charge of the camera because I wanted to blog about it! Hehe!

Almost there…

DONE!!!

I know lah I look like alien but don’t care lah!!! This is the only (passably) decent photo I have with the foam all on top of my head!!!

So after all that I had to wait for 30 minutes before washing it all off.

And while we waited, we watched………………..

THE BIG BANG THEORY!

Our whole universe was in a hot dense state, but nearly fourteen billion years ago expansion started WAIT!

We had ice-cream while we watched! Hehe. Must post photos of baby because he looks so CUTEEEEEEEEEE!!!

After ice-cream, we sat watching BBT like this, him kissing my Tau Foo Fah hand lol

And fast forward to after I have washed my hair and applied the moisturiser…………………………….

TA-DAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not bad right?

Without flash it looks much darker though. :c

Still, I love the colour! But only the top part of my head is efficiently coloured, the bottom part is still quite black.

But I think it’s because the bottom part of my hair is actually the rebonded part and is therefore quite dry making it harder to absorb the colour?

Could be.

ANYWAY, how do I look?!

The moisturiser that came with the hair dye really makes my hair feel so much softer, I wonder if I can buy it from anywhere?

My hair before.

My hair now.

I love it! And Liese costs RM33 by the way.

I really do think that I suit brown hair better. What do you guys think?

I know nobody can run from making mistakes.

2011-12-24T04:34:00.004+08:00

But then sometimes I wonder if those mistakes we have allegedly made are considered “mistakes” by EVERY single person.

Because don’t most people have different opinions?

Sometimes when we are thrown in the face with issues or uproars that we find ridiculous, we tend to quietly give our own thoughts and opinions about those issues and start wondering why people are making such a big fuss about it.

But if I look at it from another person’s point of view, he might find that the issue we deem petty something he’s very passionate about, something that interferes with his beliefs and life’s principles. So is the fact that he is making such a big deal out of it really something “ridiculous”, or simply just misunderstood by others who don’t feel the same way?

I am not trying to bring up any recent arguments or more like, disagreements I had with one of my close friends. It is just that what happened between us the other day is a perfect example of what I am trying to explain in this blog post.

Over the years I have faced alot of problems with expressing my opinions, simply because we live in a community where all races blend together, and since even people of the same race have many disagreements and arguments, what more among those who come from different religious backgrounds?

Recently, one of my friends has surfaced an issue about a gay couple getting married. In their religion, it is considered wrong, shameful and certainly unacceptable at any level. If I was being truly analytical, I think most, if not all religions also have the same belief, and that is that gay marriage is considered a sin.

But what I’m trying to express here is not about whose religion is the better one, I’m just trying to prove that not everyone lives by religion.

In my point of view, I haven’t a religion that I really understand, or feel passionate about. And at 19 years old, I just don’t think that I have reached the point where I think I can commit to anything (whether a relationship or a religion) 100%. I am still making choices, feeling the waters, discovering new answers and new paths.

So why would I want to casually pick a religion that I don’t really believe in, just because it is the norm to do so?

In my life, I do not deny the existence of God, nor do I confirm it. Because it is my belief that we as humans are never going to be able to discover the truth of our creators.

And since I have no solid foundation to cast my beliefs in any religion, why should I do so?

I have the right to express my rights as a non-religious being, as do those who are tied to their religion. They are not wrong for fighting for their religion, but neither am I for wanting to fight for what I believe in.

I think that gay marriage is as simple as any other marriages between heterosexual couples. It is not that I am trying to appear open-minded, or modern, or smart, it is just that I couldn’t be bothered to determine what is right or wrong in something that will clearly post no harm to humanity.

If it was war, or issues which put lives at stake, then yes, I agree that those involved should be stopped. I can understand if people are condemning it.

But a MARRIAGE? A celebration of two perfectly normal human beings who love each other? Why trifle with such trivialities?

So why is everyone being so uptight about a marriage between two men? Aren’t there more pressing issues in the world that are causing much more harm? How about rape? Murder? War?

Why complain about a MARRIAGE?

I just can’t be bothered. Seriously, just leave them alone. Because people may have different priorities. Not everyone puts religion first in their lives. Not everyone has the same beliefs.

And even if I don’t put religion first, that doesn’t make my opinion or existence less significant than yours. I am not less smart than you. I just have a different mindset.

So please put aside or at least change your opinions about people who don’t take religions seriously as people who are beneath you. We are just DIFFERENT.

It is the same as how I view you as a person.

You have your beliefs, and so I have no rights no judge you or to condemn you. I understand where you come from.

All I’m asking is for you to tone down your condescending attitude with those who do not necessarily share the same beliefs as you.

I am not wrong, to you, I may be, but to me, I am not.

I don’t think you are wrong either.

So that brings back to my whole point about this blog post: What exactly IS wrong or right?

If you can’t prove it, then my idea is to just ignore it. Why fight an uncertain battle? Why waste your energy and time spreading animosity and hate? What good does that do you?

That’s why I don’t understand if we should ever express our views. We can never please everyone. Every move you make, you will step on someone’s tail.

When we don’t speak out, we are deemed unopinionated and passive and therefore are of no use to humanity.

But if we do speak out, we might offend some members and be deemed immature and loud-mouthed and are therefore of no use to humanity either.

You just can’t win!

You might say that if I really believe in something, I should be allowed to speak about it, just as you did with your gay marriage uproar.

But can you imagine if I posted anything about how your religion sometimes represses our rights as humans and that most of your members have asked those who are not from the same religion to GO TO HELL simply because we don’t share the same views/opinions/beliefs?

What would happen to me? I could be sent to jail!

And how about the fact that there are videos out there where your religion has claimed that other religions are ridiculous and untrue but NO ACTIONS have been taken against those idiots?

Can you imagine any other religion making the same video condemning YOUR religion? It would cause an UPROAR! And the news would be full of that issue and those people would be sent to JAIL almost instantaneously!

So is this a double standard?

Why are we so passionate about things that we see on the Internet? And not about those that happen in our OWN LIVES instead?

My suggestion is, if your opinion is not going to in any way make any differences to the situation, then just shut up and leave it alone.

Don’t spread the nonsense.

I voiced out my opinions the other day because I hoped to change your mind about what should be spread and what should not. And hopefully you would realise that there are some things that you don’t have to SHARE IN FACEBOOK.

I wanted to show you that not everyone shares the same beliefs and if you are tactful enough, you’d not post it EVERYWHERE.

And then maybe you can keep your opinions to yourself because you might offend those people around you.

Because you know what? I have gay friends. And they are GREAT PEOPLE.

And it hurts to see that you deem them to be beneath you.

So anyway, this post is not directed to anyone in particular. I just hope that those of you who read this would try and understand OTHERS who DON’T NECESSARILY SHARE THE SAME BELIEFS AS YOU and to please just respect them as normal human beings if they are not doing anything that may harm others.

Gay marriage : harms no one. Cyber-bullying : major injury. So think about it.

Not just gay couples or anything like that. Even me. I may not believe in your religion, but that doesn’t mean you can view me as someone who should be placed beneath you. Simple as that.

You guys out there, show some respect, leave things alone, just take care of your own lives. Leave everyone else’s ALONE.

And after this, I just can’t bothered. I’ll leave you ALONE, as you should do with others.

I did a make-up video!

2011-12-21T02:27:00.002+08:00

So I did a make-up video in the middle of a MAMAK STALL where everybody was staring at me like crazy lolololol

It was fun though! :D

And in between shots you can see Mr Selvam the mamak stall owner looking at me all weirdly while he packed food for his customers lol

Hope you have as much fun watching it as I did making it! :D

Just watched Ombak Rindu!

2011-12-08T03:56:00.002+08:00

Years ago when I was still in Form2 or Form3 I have already read Ombak Rindu because Alaf 21 novels was all the craze back then.

It was a good book, portraying a young village girl who gets sold into a night club and then meets this rich bad boy who later falls in love with her and then soon, she falls for him too. You know those very cliched storylines?

It’s a moderately good read because the author uses very carefree words and sentences in her writing and also makes the effort to inject humour in the right places along the love storylines.

It is done in such a way -

Okay why am I using such formal sentences to review the book? I donno. Book reviews are usually very formal stuff no meh?

Whatever so review done because anything else said would be spoilers. Yes. The book is that simple.

Okay so I HAD this book okay. I BOUGHT this fucking book. But then I lent it to donno who and that donno who has not returned me my book even until now and so I am forced to conclude that I have lost it forever.

So when I discovered that Ombak Rindu was going to be made into a movie of course I got super excited and angry at the same time!!!

Because it is my habit to always try to finish reading a book right before I watch the movie adaptation of it because then I can critic the movie right on the spot when I watch it and appear superior to the rest of the crowd!!!

I did that with Harry Potter and it felt AWESOME.

But this time, I couldn’t do it!!! Because I had no book!

So when I watched the movie, my mind was totally blank! Like, seriously the only things I remotely remembered about the book was that Hariz and Izza were the main characters.

The rest I have zero idea. SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

…

Okay so Maya Karin played Izza which I don’t find suitable because she just doesn’t have that soft, gentle, petite, quiet, introverted, demure kind of look Izza is supposed to have!

I mean, look at her!

She is too HOT to play Izza. Izza is not supposed to look HOT, she is supposed to look demure and nice.

Not HOT like that ok! Okay in the movie Maya Karin didn’t look so hot but STILL! She did not accurately portray Izza’s village-girl character and that’s such a shame!

But her acting was not bad though, I’d give her that.

And next on there is HARIZ. And in my honest opinion, they picked the perfect man to play him!

AARON AZIZ!

He is SO HOT. LOOK AT HIM. I am sweating just looking at him.

And ok so there were parts where he didn’t quite play Hariz properly because Hariz was supposed to be arrogant and manly. At times Aaron Aziz was a tad bit too nice and even if he WAS being arrogant it looked kind of forced, and so that was not so good.

But the fact that he is SO HOT totally makes up for all mistakes in the movie. And plus points too because Hariz IS supposed to look hot.

All in all, I feel that this movie was kind of draggy (2 hours) and then there weren’t really any parts that gutted me intensely, so I still think the book was much better (to my memory lah).

But I may be bias because I remember back then when everybody was all hyped up with Ombak Rindu, my actual favourite novel was Bicara Hati.

Yup. This book is the BOMB.

I didn’t buy this book, but I can assure you that it is much, much better than Ombak Rindu!

Okay lah I guess it’s only my opinion since the general public seems to think that Ombak Rindu is much better.

But Bicara Hati was such a good read, I remember! Because in novels like this, the main female character will always be the demure, quiet girl who gets thrust into the scenario of a bad boy’s world but in Bicara Hati (this is to the best of my memory only lah, because trust me I also only remember tiny bits of this story) the main female character is a bad-ass strong-willed chick who doesn’t tolerate getting pushed around!

I don’t remember her name in the story though (you can go Google it) but I really preferred this book over Ombak Rindu back then.

I think the reason I love this novel so much is because there is one part of the story that has been permanently embedded in my brain which I can’t get rid of. And I can’t tell you here or not I would spoil the book for you!

It is an awesome read for those who want to try! If I ever see it anywhere again, I would totally buy it!

Sadly, like the cash in my bank, the books seem to have vaporised into thin air, never to be seen again.

***

Okay time for random photos!

MUG CAKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I recently learned a recipe from the internet to bake cakes using the microwave oven for only 1 – 2 minutes max!

Yes, you read that right, MICROWAVE oven for 1 – 2 MINUTES MAX!

It’s AWESOME!

Simply add :

1/4 cup self-raising flour
1/5 cup sugar
1 egg
2 tablespoon cocoa powder (chocolate)/1 teaspoon vanilla extract (vanilla)
2 tablespoon milk
1 tablespoon (any) vege oil
1 - 1 and a half minute in microwave oven

DONE! It’s so easy and tastes quite good too!

Just look at that chocolatey goodness!

(Okay so, eventhough that photo of my mug cake looks fantabulously appetising, I still feel compelled to confess the truth that that particular mug cake tasted like SHIT. And the reason for that is while I was busy stirring the batter, I discovered that it was a little short of sugar so I proceeded to add about half a teaspoon of sugar into it.)

(Baked the thing in the microwave oven for a minute and it came out looking glorious like that in the photo. But after tasting it I almost died because to my horror it tasted FUCKING salty and immediately made me realise that I had mistakenly added SALT and not SUGAR into the batter just now.)

(FUCK MY LIFE. And that was a GOOD BATCH TOO. What a waste of cocoa powder (expensive ok!) and egg (because in my household we are always short of eggs wtf). \

(Okay story ends.)

(But the other cakes I made was good so don’t worry!)

(My girly table!)

(Bored one day and missed Sailoormoon so I decided to draw all 5 of them! )

(Why am I still typing in brackets?)

??????

Ok whatever that’s all for today BYE!

I just finished all the writing papers!

2011-12-01T21:11:00.001+08:00

First day of my holidays (for 2 weeks, my last two objective STPM papers resume then) and my mum has started asking me to cook dinner! ><

Lucky for me I love cooking!

But not so lucky for her because I HATE washing up. So don’t expect I’d be cooking alot of the time lol only occasionally!

Interesting story for the day:

1. Mum asks to cook cabbage.

2. Chops awesome cabbage into perfect chunks.

3. Chops garlic into perfect cubes.

4. Chops cili padi in perfect bits.

5. Prepares prawns in perfect bowl.

6. Heats oil up in perfect pan.

7. Sautees ingredients in perfect consistency.

8. Time to season food.

9. Holds cup of salt above pan.

10. Taps in good amount.

11. Prepares to replace cup of salt on shelf.

12. CUP OF SALT SLIPS OFF HAND.

13. CACTHES CUP OF SALT BEFORE IT HITS PAN.

14. CRIES because discovers staggering amount on salt on top of perfectly cooked cabbage.

FML.

WHY AM I SO CARELESS CURSE YOU STUPID SLIPPERY CUP OF SALT.

So I scooped off the salt using a spoon, and then added like a gallon of water to kind of soak the cabbages off the salt and then I strained off the water.

STILL SALTY FML. So I repeated this process for like 3 times and then added a little sugar to change the saltiness into a better tasting sauce.

Added water. Done.

I placed all the cabbages onto a plate WITHOUT any of the sauce and thankfully, they still taste passable with a hint of salt at the back of your tongue. Urgh.

Hopefully mum doesn’t realise! ><

Ok story done.

Updates! More specifically, photo updates because I know you are lazy and only like to see photos!

First off, cute photo of me of course!

Bought this cute (rein)deer tee from Cotton On (in light of Christmas spirit!) for only RM15! Love the pale beige colour of the tee on my pale skin!

I took like 2 MONTHS to get back my pale skin after getting too tanned during the Malaysia Day thing practice ok! So I am allowed to boast!

Bought this really adorable phone casing with hearts as holes!

CUTE DOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

Almost as cute as:

MY NOM NOM

Who likes to do weird faces LOL

But is still just as cute!

He folded paper hearts for me in multi colours!

SO PRETTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bought the awesomest sets of bracelets from Cotton On!

Turqoise, black and white! 3 sets for only RM10. STEAL!

Had too much time on my hands one day. lol

More like, I was supposed to be studying but I was going to take any excuse to put off doing it so I did this to entertain YOU! LOL

In case you can’t see what’s so special about it, it’s a photo of me with make-up on the right side of my face, and none on the right side of my face LOL

CUTE RIGHT!

MAKE UP FOREVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

In case you are wondering what colour contacts I was wearing in the previous photo, it’s PINK!

Love them although I would love them to be a little more pinkish as opposed to brown. But it’s still pretty!

Tried centre parting! LOL

But failed because I need to straighten my hair first.

What did I say about taking any excuse to put off studying?

Nom nom and me!

AND DONE!

More updates soon ok!

BYE! Love you guys!

2011-11-24T23:16:00.002+08:00

I just wrote something which struck a core deep within me.

My boyfriend and I were talking about life and death. And I suddenly thought of this :

I won't do something that I don't want to do.
I like to live freely.
Even if this means in my afterlife I have to pay the consequences, I think it is worth it.
Rather than living my life now unhappily and being unsure of what awaits me when I die, I'd rather choose to be happy now, and be punished later.
Because if it turns out that there is no after life, then at least I have lived happily.
And if it turns out there IS after life and I will be punished then, the answer is still the same :
at least I have lived happily.

Peace out yo.

I must be psychic.

2011-11-18T02:31:00.003+08:00

2 years ago when I was still dumb and innocent, I wrote a very cringe-worthy post on the type of boyfriend that I would consider perfect.

http://joeyjoeldavid.blogspot.com/2009/03/perfect-boyfriend-d.html

Reading back, I felt abit revolted by my childishness but I forgive myself because I was only 17 back then and haven’t even graduated high school.

But scrolling through the post I found something really odd. And it is that, as naive as I was back then, those traits I wanted in a boyfriend back then, pretty much are still the same as those that I want today!

And even more magical is the fact that my boyfriend Salam seems to pass each point with flying colours!

BABY!!!

Let’s take a brief recap and analysis! (bolded font is extract from the old blog post)

FAMILY-ORIENTED

I've never thought about this before but then I realise I really want a guy who cares for his family. One who does go out with his parents for shopping or anniversary dinners and all without rolling his eyes in disgust and then proceeds to stuffing his PSP into his pocket and then leaves the house grunting the whole journey. To me, if a guy knows how to treat his family well, and even enjoys their company, then you know he is BOUND to be one guy who will treat YOU right.

If there is one guy you want me to name who should win the gold medal for being the most family-oriented, it is Salam. I am serious.

He comes from a very good family, where all his siblings are very close to each other and also to their parents. They would always go for dinner together when they have the chance, they would go out as a family whenever they can (just recently the whole family went to see fireflies together at Kuala Selangor! So cute!) and they joke together and have chit-chats that last throughout the night.

I’ve never known a guy of his tender years (20 years old) to be so family-oriented before. All guys I know these days are mostly walking buds of testosterone and victims of peer pressure because all they care about are girls and what makes you cool or not cool.

But Salam is not like that. He doesn’t really succumb to peer pressure (if I say he is 100% not intimidated by peer pressure I would be lying, but mostly he isn’t) and he knows what is right, what should be done and he doesn’t do stuff just to appear cool like most boys these days do. Urgh.

And so, point one, check!

DOESN'T SHOUT OR TALK LOUDLY

(unless of course it's something he's really excited about and he's got no control over how loud he may sound, that's excusable)

I really despise people, especially guys who talk VERY LOUDLY or shout when they're trying to make a statement or when they're angry. That, I really cannot tolerate. For example, let's say this guy mentions something about the weather and then his girlfriend couldn't catch what he said and she goes, What? and then he shouts back, THE WEATHER!!! I really cannot tolerate someone who speaks loudly, instead of taking the mature path of explaining things in a diplomatic and peaceful manner.

And what's worse than that? A guy who goes, WHY NOT? when you tell them not to be loud. God, I just hate guys like that. So, long story short: I hate guys who raise their voices at their girlfriends. Period.

Aha! Another spot on characteristic that Salam has!

I have NEVER in my capacity as his friend or girlfriend ever heard him raise his voice. Not at other people, not at me.

It is not that he is not manly enough, believe me, when he gets angry, it intimidates me even, haha, but he is just not used to shouting or raising his voice at people.

That’s one of the things I like most about him. He is very respectful towards other people and he doesn’t jump to conclusion nor does he resort to violence to solve a problem. He is very patient and understanding.

So, point two, check!

HAS MONEY

Sorry but this is the painful truth. I love money. Money makes everyone happy. Don't you deny. And so of course I like guys who have money. Even if the money's from his mum or dad, as long as he saves some and isn't completely broke when he needs to spend money, I'm fine with it. Okay so this doesn't mean I hate poor people la. I just hate people who don't make the effort to generate money or when they do generate money, they don't make it a point to save them. All they do is just spend spend spend spend. Yuck.

This doesn’t imply that Salam is very rich. I don’t know if he is rich or not (maybe his mum and dad got mounts and mounts of cash hidden I don’t know about), but from what I know, he’s family is doing quite well.

And Salam isn’t the type of guy who only knows how to spend money without leaving any to be saved. He does spend money on things that he likes, but he knows just how much to spend and how much to save. I like that about him because it proves that he is very responsible.

So point three, check!

BUYS/MAKES/GIVES ME RANDOM THINGS

Yes this is vitally important too. Because nothing is more genuine in love than a partner who wants to make you happy 24/7. I'm serious. This is not about money and I am not a materialistic girl thank you very much (or maybe I am :P). If you couldn't bother to think up something that makes me happy, I am not going to want to date you. Sorry.

Proof of point 1 : He recently gave me a GIGANTIC BEAR when I complained that I have nothing in my house that I could hug to sleep whenever he isn’t around.

It is THAT big. :3

Proof of point 2 : He recently also made many many colourful paper hearts for me just because I said I loved paper hearts and would love to have a variety of them in all sorts of colours!

SHO PRETTY! ><

Proof of point 3 : He recently also gave me an anklet when I randomly mentioned to him that mine had broken! (how did he remember??!)

Proof of point 4 : He sends me pictures of red roses in Facebook EVERY SINGLE DAY WITHOUT FAIL just because I love red roses!

Proof of point 5 : He always gives me bouquets of red roses just because I ask for them!

The first bouquet of roses he ever gave me. :3

Proof of point 6 : On our first ever date, apart from giving me a bouquet of red roses, he also gave me a really cute rose-shaped multi-coloured LED thing which flashes all sorts of colours when turned on! This is one thing that I REALLY REALLY LOVE! ><

Proof of point 7 : I could go on and on and on but I am scared that I would bore you to death so let’s just stop here ok!

Point four, check!

TAKES EDUCATION SERIOUSLY

Seriously man, this should be on the TOP of the list. I really really really cannot tolerate people who do not take education seriously. People who always flunk their papers simply because they are too LAZY to study. I hate people like this I am sorry. I want someone who's intelligent and more importantly, who WANTS to be intelligent. A combination of both is of course the best la. :P :P :P Yes I admit that I only want to be smart so that I can showcase my pride and show off to people that I CAN DO IT. What is wrong with that? With my pride and dignity I am definitely going to be privileged with more opportunities and chances and that is the ONLY way people in the world are going to take me seriously. So that is what I am striving for. Besides, aren't I at least better than those who just sit by the corner complaining about life and not doing anything to make a difference? Pathetic.

He is a JPA scholar after scoring 9As for his SPM and is currently studying aerospace engineering in UIA. He takes his education seriously! Even more so than I do lol

But I’m happy!

Point five, checkity check check!

DOES NOT PARTY

Enough said. Well actually not, cos then you will think that I don't like guys who celebrate their own birthdays. So okay, what I mean by PARTY is, going out till the wee hours of the night, going clubbing or to cybernets, guys who think only of dancing and having fun and that's about all that revolves in their lives. I cannot tolerate people who have no goals in their lives. Serious. I like a guy who goes home at reasonable hours and even if he does stay up late, he's doing it at HOME or at a friend's place and not out and about partying and/or racing cars illegally. I want a nice, clean guy (who listens to his parents. What? Parents give the best advices okay. No I am not being sarcastic. Seriously, they do - I AM NOT BEING SARCASTIC!!!), but of course not those boring types okay.

He doesn’t smoke, drink or do drugs, obviously. Nor merempit OBVIOUSLY. He sleeps at decent hours most of the time (MOST of the time hahahaha) and even when he stays up late he is at home. And he really listens to his parents and that is important because that shows he knows how to respect them.

And he is by far NOT boring because he does the most romantic things for me, bring me to the best places, talks about the funniest things and just, ah, I just can’t ask for more! :3

He took me to the beach on our first date because I’ve been complaining since forever about wanting to go to a beach!!!

Point six, check!

HOT

Okay so that is not entirely true because I don't really mind looks but of course if you are hideously deformed and I cannot tolerate staring at your face for more than 3 seconds, then I won't choose you la. Save pain ma. :P But honestly, I don't mind if the guy's no Johnny Depp or David Desrosiers (though of course if he is, it's a BONUS! :D) as long as he Makes An Effort to look nice. That's all I want. Just try to look nice. No, no, want to try to look nice. It has to come from inside and not because I say so. But of course I also want a guy who's taller than I am, and at least doesn't look like an ant when standing next to me. I want a guy who appears to be able to protect me. (heck not only appear but actually ABLE to protect me)

I guess these photos are enough to illustrate the fact that he really cares about his looks and is superbly cute!

But he isn’t taller than me though, we’re about the same height. But he doesn’t look like an ant beside me LOL so it’s all ok!

But I am trying to get him to eat more so that he can gain more weight and make me look thinner lol but his metabolism rate is too high! He eats like a horse but doesn’t gain weight at all. ==

And he is capable of protecting me too! I can tell you all at length about how protective he is but let’s skip that part first because it will be coming up in the next point!

So for now, point seven, check!

PROTECTIVE

Yessssssssssssssssssssssssssss. This is the most awesome part man. I want a protective man. THAT IS ALL I WANT. (plus all those other stuff I mentioned above :P) I want a guy who shouts at dogs that bark at me (since he isn't raising his voice at me, it's fine), a guy who grabs my hand tightly when crossing roads, a guy who doesn't allow me to sit near fountains in case I fall off, a guy who holds my handbag for me (not to mention ignoring the stigma of holding a WOMAN's handbag! SUPER ROMANTIC :D :D :D) because he doesn't want my hand to feel too tired of holding it, gets all worried when I don't text back (and not annoyed) and and and, well you get the point la. I don't care if he's over-protective over stupid and weird stuff I LIKE IT. :D :D :D But of course his intentions have to be because he cares very deeply for me and not because he wants to appear manly and the dominant one in the relationship.

Hehe. He is very protective. One point, he has since forbidden me to go out to mamaks at night after the incident where Cherrie got her handbag snatched near Berkeley Corner the other day.

He does hold my hand really tightly when crossing roads, he would hold my stuff for me when they are really heavy, or should I say, he doesn’t allow me to hold anything besides my handbag when we are out together == , and he is always telling me to take care and telling me how worried and bad he feels for not being able to be there with me all the time to protect me. :3

Hihi where to find a sweeter boyfriend? The answer : NEVERLAND. Muahahahahhaha!!!

And so point eight, check!

LISTENS TO ME

Listening is very important to me. When someone listens to you, it means that he/she cares for you. And that is very important. Even if you're rambling about what stupid incident that happened in your day or whatever, if he is willing to just listen and give appropriate comments at appropriate times, you know he is one man who's definitely worth your love. I seriously cannot tolerate guys who talk excessively about themselves. Like how they hurt their leg during this baseball game, or how they drove from KL to Klang and then back to KL again in just one minute, yadda yadda yadda.

I'm not saying that guys must always listen to girls when they talk and that girls don't have to bother to listen to what guys have to say, it's just, when you really care about someone, you will politely wait until she's finished talking before you proceed to talking about yourself right? I mean, when the girl wants you to listen and she shows no signs of wanting to stop, even though she's run out of things to say, then for the love of God, ask la some questions so that she can talk somemore. It shows that you really care you know. (plus of course us girls will extend the same courtesy to guys if we really care about them) (: But of course, same as the dressing up detail, the guy needs to want (this is love) to do this, and not just because he has to (this is not love). See the difference?

We always have the best conversations with each other that lasts for hours because we just fit so well together. Talking to him is a breeze because we never run out of things to say!

And even though he is a much quieter guy than I am, he still contributes his part to the conversation so comfortably.

Even in silence together we don’t feel awkward, it is almost relaxing because it feels as if we just understand each other so well and words are just unnecessary in moments like that. :3

BABY WAI ARE YOU SHO KIUT!!! ><

Last point, CHECK!!!!!!!!!!

He fits EVERY SINGLE POINT OMG I AM SO EXCITED!!!!! ><

I donno what good I have ever done in this life or my past life that made me deserve a boyfriend like Salam but I am eternally grateful to have him!!!

And look what I wrote at the end of the old blog post :

This is a freaking long post but I feel really satisfied with what I've written because well, I believe that the guy I choose to be with in future will be exactly like that.

AM I PSYCHIC OR AM I PSYCHIC?!

True, before Salam there were a couple of unsatisfactory boys, but Salam is the most serious boyfriend I have so far and he fits all the points I’ve mentioned!

This is all so true, it’s making my spine tingle! I am not sure if I will be able to go to sleep tonight because I am just so amazed! ><

And this was my cousin Audrey’s comment after she read my old post :

Audrey : I think it's prolly easier to find my dream guy (with my list of requirements) than to find yours. 8D

All I have to say is I guess you’re wrong! HIHIHIHIHIHI I AM SO HAPPY I’M ABOUT TO BURST! Can’t wait for Salam to read this!!!

I love you sayang. You’re awesome!

I wrote a song!

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For my beloved boyfriend of course!

Kamu

Enjoy! :D

Carl’s Junior with boyfriend!

2011-11-12T03:11:00.002+08:00

Can I honestly say that sometimes I feel that it is so weird that I have a boyfriend?

I mean, just 2 years ago I never even imagined what it would be like to have a regular boyfriend. All I had experienced was just random phone calls or frequent texts with some guys.

But doing the whole girlfriend thing, I really never thought of it for real.

And for me, being a girlfriend is not just being someone’s special someone or whatever. It is kind of like a responsibility. There are all these new rules in your life. New responsibilities, new worries, new paths, new personality even.

Not that it’s a bad thing, it’s just. I guess you have to be ready for it.

Like, suddenly you have someone you worry about all the time, suddenly you have someone you want to contact all the time, suddenly you have all these new urges to make the guy happy eg: make him food, fold his laundry, brush his hair, make sure he eats, buy him clothes etc etc

Or is that just me?

Well I guess those are what make a good girlfriend. I mean, if you have no desire or urge to do those things for the guy you claim to love, then it’s just pretty much telling that you only need him for his company, and are not ready to take up any responsibilities?

I guess it depends on relationships. With Salam, I do feel that way, and that’s the way our relationship goes.

I’ve had a relationship where me and the guy only used each other for companionship before. I mean, I wanted to do those things for him, like to be a good responsible girlfriend, but he just didn’t seem interested.

Being naive I thought that was just his way of relationship and I should just accept it as it was. Soon I realised it was because he didn’t really love me. :/

ANYWAY.

What I want to post about today is a casual day out with my boyfriend to CARL’S JUNIOR because I was craving for their awesome burger!!!!

We went to the nearest Carl’s Junior to my place and it was at Sunway Pyramid!

Sunny day so must wear shades!

He was wearing my shades because he lost his!

(only to find it later under the backseat of his car lol)

When the boyfriend drives, the girlfriend has to snap photos and be VAIN!

And of course take cute photos of the boyfriend too!

And we arrived! Finding parking in Sunway Pyramid on a SATURDAY was HELL. But luckily we found a lovely couple who pointed us to their parking spot just a few minutes after we arrived and so we got their spot!

AND WE ARRIVED AT CARL’S JUNIOR!!!

FOOD ARRIVED!

I know CJ is a bit expensive but it is actually not!

I mean if you calculate it per size it is actually about the same prize as McD. But DOUBLE the deliciousness so I suggest that you save two trips to McD for one trip to CJ and I assure you that you will die a happy burger eater.

See how huge the burger is in comparison to the size of my hand? So much better than measly mini McD burgers. D:

You can actually share a regular set with a friend (provided both of you are not mega eaters lah) and it would be just enough! Comes with awesome thick rustic fries and the drinks are refillable too! (And not only coke! They have all sorts of soft drinks and tea and coffee too!)

And then when you split the bill it would be cheap for the both of you!

OM NOM NOM NOM

I don’t remember the name of the burger but it has a super f delicious beef patty with chicken bacon and crunchy deep fried onion rings!

The combination created fireworks in my mouth. *___*

Nonsense boyfriend doing nonsense thing eg: balancing a fry between his burger and his lips. ==

DELICIOUS! lol

Must do cute face because we are both cute!

Nonsense boyfriend doing nonsense face lol

TOO CUTE!

IT WAS FUN!

I tried very very hard to finish the whole burger but I just couldn’t finish the last two bites so I forced him to finish it for me lol

I'm pretty sure he liked it too because those burgers were AWESOME SHITZ.

TRUST ME! GO TRY IF YOU HAVEN’T. (if you ever need a partner CALL ME!!!)

***

After CJ we went to my ultimate favourite store and that is DAISO!

I bought a tong for deep frying in LIGHT BLUE COLOUR wtf because boyfriend made me buy it. :c

Here is the story. I wanted to get the pink one obviously, but it was short. The light blue one was longer but it had run out of pink colour. I wanted to get the short pink one ANYWAY because it was PINK but boyfriend said KENOT. It is too short. It will allow the oil from deep fry to splatter on your hand when you use it because it is near. Get the long one.

So I sadly agreed to get the long but ugly light blue one. :c

END.

But I was quite happy also because he didn’t want me to get hurt. Hehe. And also the light blue one is not ugly lah, just pink is nicer.

I bought other nonsense from DAISO too (I couldn’t resist lah! Everything only cost RM5 each leh!!!) but I can’t remember what they were.

And one more good news!

Cheryl just recently reported to me that a DAISO recently opened in Aeon Bukit Tinggi!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! >< I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!! I CAN’T WAIT TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

First I asked for Cotton On. WISH FULFILLED!

Then I asked for Tutti Fruttie. WISH FULFILLED AGAIN!!

Then I asked for DAISO. WISH FUFILLED AGAIN AGAIN!!!

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU TO WHOEVER MADE MY WISHES COME TRUE!!!

But I got one more last wish

Gong Cha. Pretty please?

Last obligatory big ass photo of boyfriend!

And also, one big ass photo of me too as a sort of teaser for the Halloween post!

Ya lah I know lah in the previous post I promised the next post would be the Halloween post but I am very occupied with my boyfriend recently so I must post about him first LOL

Soon I will post about Halloween ok! (not much to post about also actually. Just want to show off my photos only HAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

Ok BYE!

Why you shooooo kiiiiiuuuuttttttttttttttt?

2011-11-08T00:21:00.001+08:00

Played with my friend Geetha’s Domo! :3

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SO ADORABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can’t stop making these cute hearts!

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Super cute!

I know I should be studying…..

2011-11-01T18:12:00.004+08:00

…but here I am blogging.

STPM is in 3 weeks but it is like I don’t even care. Maybe it’s because I’ve been through the fear and drama before sitting for an important exam during SPM and now STPM doesn’t even faze me.

Which is bad because I so have to get 4.0 in order to satisfy myself this time around. For SPM I aimed for maybe 6-7 As? And I performed better even though I didn’t really study.

But this time I really want to get straight As for my STPM because I know I can do it. I want to do it. I want to make Mummy and Daddy proud because they put so much hope in me.

And I am studying. Just that, I am taking a break right now.

My head is cracking from all the stuff that needs to be jammed into my brain from the Business textbook. Business Studies suck. I’d rather suck ~~dick~~ something else.

ANYWAY.

I am not here to talk about my nonsensical life, but of course to post photos of my recently refurnished room! (as if photos of my recently refurnished room is not part of my nonsensical life but that is beside the point! :D)

Okay so I only like shifted 2 pieces of furniture but I changed the bed sheets and added some accessories ok! It counts!

TA DAH!

I bought my solid pink bed sheet for a ghastly RM40 but I NO HAZ REGRETS MAN. So gorgeous!

I didn’t have a study table before this but my mum also refurnished her room the other day and decided she didn’t want the study table anymore so she gave it to me!

And now I have one! Which I’ve used to place my laptop anyway so don’t be hoping for any studying to be getting done in this room yo! LOL

The table on the left used to be at the spot where my study table is now, but I shifted it to the middle part of my room! (because I don’t have any more space in my tiny room ==)

There that’s what I call my make-up table. I’ve got toners and moisturisers and cotton pads and panty liners and packet tissue and wet tissue and all sorts of girly nonsense in that pink basket on the left.

In the right white basket are my girly hair scrunchies, hair clips, hair pins, perfumes, accessories (you can see a tiny tiered drawer thing in there and I use each compartment to keep my earrings and rings! lol), shaver, and stuff.

And this shot shows my study table and my bed and my GIGANTIC teddy and other soft toys that people (boys) gave to me.

On my study table you can see my laptop, my water bottle, phone and the soft board which I use to pin up nonsense which I might lose if I don’t pin them up there lol and also my schedules and to-do list.

And this is my room at its latest!

You will notice that my teddy bear and my soft toys have been moved to the other side of the bed and their spot has been replaced with a devil’s tuning fork which is formally known as a blivet or a poiuyt (believe me, I googled it) because I recently bought it for Halloween! (speaking of which, next post : Halloween post!)

It’s not so much of a poiuyt or blivet actually, since it isn’t an impossible pronged widget.

Blivet is supposed to be an impossible 3 pronged widget which appears to have 3 prongs at one angle and then mysteriously only appears to have 2 prongs at a different angle.

It is all due to optical illusions basically and so I have generously placed the link about blivets here for your ultimate pleasure as an example of the nonsensical things that I discover whenever I am too proud/doubtful to ask other fellow humans about something and thus resort to my virtual friend Google for help.

It is quite interesting and worth the read because before this when I was still unsure of what the devil’s widget was called, I witnessed a person getting an embarrassing laugh from the crowd when she mentioned that the thing the devil carries was called a fork.

I am shy too admit that I also called it the fork before I knew its rightful name so I am ultimately thankful that I was not asked of it before Google told me.

Phew.

Things that I forgot to mention also include my cute pink flower-shaped rug on the floor, my glow-in-the-dark dinosaurs on my wall!!!!, my recently wallpapered soft board which has now turned into a glowing pink as opposed to its previous boring brown (thank you for scrolling back up to check LOL) and my pink cushion on my otherwise boring black chair. (and thank you again. HAHAHA)

And so I guess that’s all!

I LOVE MY ROOM SO MUCH! I am so going to miss it when I go to any university to study in future.

This is seriously making me reconsider my adamant choice of wanting to study in Johor because it would make it so difficult for me to come back to Klang to stay in my room!

SIGH.

So many decisions to make!

And the most important one that I have to make now is to STOP BLOGGING AND GET TO STUDYING BUSINESS.

Alright alright. I will go now.

See you guys again!

THANK YOU FOR READING BYE!

PS : If you are wondering where on earth I found so many cute pink stuff to decorate my room then the answer is DAISO. And they only cost RM5 each! COOL NOTZ. I LOVE DAISO!!!!!!!!!!! (can be found in Sunway Pyramid (lowest floor), One Utama, The Curve, Sungei Wang, Pavilion, among others)

PS 2 : My friend Jeff called the blivet a TRIDENT which OMG was exactly the word I was looking for to name the fork LOL but I thought the word's only used for Kings or some Gods or something?

I’m pretty sure…..

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…that when you see a bouquet of roses as the first photo, you automatically know what this post is going to be about!!!!!!!!!

And that is of course…………………………. : My beloved boyfriend!

Now don’t say I didn’t warn you okay lol

I’m posting this specially for Atika because we are both very interested in each other’s love life so while she is posting about hers in her blog, I of course also have to post about my boyfriend in mine right?

I think about a few weeks ago, I did a very cute and wifey thing for my sayang.

I…………………….cooked him an entire Chinese lunch.

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

Okay I know you are laughing right now but my warning is………DON’T.

Because I am quite good at cooking ok!!! Don’t be so bad lah!!! :c

So I cooked him three dishes, one chicken dish, one veggie and one omelette.

I even made him dessert! :3 spring roll thingy I learnt from AFC! HAHAHAHAHA

***

HERE WE GO!

GETTING THE INGREDIENTS READY!

Because I was too busy dissecting the chicken (like a noob) and getting all the other stuff ready, I got baby to help me chop the onions and garlic and wash the veggies.

I kind of felt bad having him work together with me in the kitchen because he was the guest after all.

But then I lost all my guilt when he confessed his secret passion and that is he actually loves chopping stuff in the kitchen and he always helps his mum (Mama) do it lol

Then I asked if Mama ever complained about his chopping skills he said no because Mama needs all the help she can get in the kitchen being the only woman in the house having 5 sons. Hahahahahahahahaaa…..so cute!

I’m not bad ok!

TADAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3 dishes DONE! AM I COOL OR AM I COOL??!?!???

I made Chinese style ayam masak kicap with abit of honey;

Not too bad right? It was quite delicious ok!

Blanched kailan with fried garlic and oyster sauce;

Praise me for not over frying my garlic till it turns black thank you very much! You think very easy to deep fry garlic aaaaaaaaa

And green squash and onion omelette!

Simple but nice! But I admit I could have done better with the seasoning because it was abit bland. :c

So………now for the moment of truth.

TASTING TIME!

I was so excited I could barely eat. I kept looking at him to see if he was eating the food and if he was making any weird faces when he chewed them and so finally I couldn’t take it, I asked him :

Baby nice or not??????

And he says………………

“Not bad lah.”

KUA KUA KUA KUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Sim tia only people cook so san fu. :c

But then baby has always been quite a picky eater and the only food that he really really likes is cooked by Mama. :c

Later he said that everything was quite delicious but I know I can never beat Mama in feeding him!!!

BUT NEVER MIND! I SHALL STRIVE TO BE BETTER BABY! :3

After cleaning up all the dishes I proceeded to making the dessert which was something I learnt to do in a show called Instant Chef in AFC lol

I donno what it’s called but I’m calling it deep fried banana and oreo crumble spring roll because it is essentially banana and oreo all crumbled up and wrapped with spring roll skins and then deep fried LOL

Baby taught me to stick the ends of the spring roll together with abit of water to prevent the filling from dropping out during the deep frying process lol!

Baby iz good cookz tooooo!

Served piping hot with constrasting ice cold vanilla ice-cream! :3

DELICIOUS! I IZ GENIUS!

I made a huge tupperware of these for my classmates too just days ago and they loved them! SUCCESS!

And that concludes my very eventful day with my beloved boyfriend.

***

Next up is a very cute and short story about WHO ELSE MY BOYFRIEND LAH LALALALALALALALALAAAA

Firstly, a huge ass photo of him trying to be cute and being ABSOLUTELY SUCCESSFUL AT IT! ><

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH WAI SO KIUT ONE!!!!

I saw this Tshirt from Centro one day and I thought how cute it is so I bought it for him!

And thankfully it fits him so well! White looks so good on you baby!

(And also because baby always talk alot of bull shit LOLOLOLOLOLOL ok I’m kidding. Baby’s bullshit is LOVE to me because you make me laugh! TEE HEE)

Okay now on to the short story.

I was getting ready to go out you know, with Salam and so I told him to wait for me. And when I was done with all my clothes and make-up, I walked into my room to witness the absolutely funny scenario of……………….

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THIS.

He was kneeling in front of my full-length mirror using my PINK hair straightening iron and straightening his hair!!!!!!!!

The moment I saw that I immediately burst out laughing HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

Where got boyfriend so kiut one????? So ai sui! HAHAHAHAHA

“What? Kenot straighten my hair one meh?”

And because he was so cute, I asked him to stand right up and let me snap a picture of him to see if I can capture his cuteness in PHOTO!

MISSION SUCCESSFUL.

Lol! Bye!

Love.

2011-10-22T14:16:00.001+08:00

I was supposed to blog about this tomorrow but there is a certain impatient someone who never fails to ask if his photos are posted whenever I update my blog so today, I’ve decided to dedicate an entire post to him!

SAYANG!!!

Let’s talk about our VERY VERY VERY first date.

He came all the way down to Klang from Gombak and guess what he brought with him…?

A BOUQUET OF ROSES!!! He knew that red roses were my favourite type of flowers and he got me them!!!

And they were soooooooooooooooo pretty I almost died. T_____T

Then he came to pick me up from my house!

It was actually quite funny because on the way to my house he kind of overshoot and went all the way to town and got lost and had to stop by at Mydin for me to come get him. LOL

After he picked me up, our very first stop was…..

Pantai Morib!

I guess people who know me know that I have been complaining non-stop about how I would love to have a date at a beach or not even a date just a normal outing at the beach to feel the sea breeze and sandy ground but it was always so hard to plan for a day where everybody could make it.

Plus I don’t even know where the nearest beach was located near my place so it was quite impossible for me to drive there on my own.

And then came Salam who made all my dreams come true!!!

And can I say, Morib beach was even better than I had expected?

There were mini stalls around where people could get food or souvenirs and it was all very clean and nice!

I had mi hailam (not so good) and he had nasi goreng seafood I think. Heheheheheeee…

We also had VERY VERY good nyonya fish!

And udang goreng pedas or something like that. It was quite delicious too!

And because I am such a anti-hassle girl I said I was scared to eat prawns as I didn’t want my hands to smell of prawns and/or to get my clothes stained with prawn sauce! LOL

So………………. HE PEELED THE PRAWNS FOR ME HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA

I always feel like such a spoilt princess when I am with him.

VEGE! Not so good because quite wilted. Look at the amount of food just both of us ate LOL

The only sad thing is we didn’t get to walk on the beach front near the waters because it was in day time and the water was quite surut lol and so to walk all the way to the waters was too far and the sand was all lumpy and muddy and I didn’t bring the correct shoes! HAHA FAIL

Here on after I had no more photos of places because we headed off to Ikea at Damansara to shop for pink furniture lol and also The Curve for random shopping and so I was too busy looking at things to remember to snap any photos. HAHA!

We didn’t get anything from both places though but we managed to catch JOHNNY ENGLISH REBORN at Cineleisure!

The movie was GOOD! Because Rowan Atkinson is forever the funniest socially-awkward person on screen. LOL

After that, we headed off to Uptown at Shah Alam because I wanted to get BUNNY EAR PHONE CASING for my new RM250 Samsung phone as my RM900 Vivaz Pro got stolen. :c

And whenever I am with Salam, good things seem to happen to me! I got the cutest bunny ear phone casing in a cute purple colour!

The best part is, I finally got my BLING BLING/DIAMOND screen protector that I’ve been wanting for so long! Although you can’t really see any bling bling in the photo, but I assure you, it is very SHINY!

For my Vivaz Pro, it was hard to find the correct bling bling screen guard because they usually don’t have one that fits the screen of my phone.

But for this Samsung phone, any Blackberry screen guard could fit the screen so imagine my joy when I found one in Uptown!

But it was a little bit pricey at RM20 for such a small piece of plastic but I wanted it sooooooooooooooooooooooooo badly.

And so like the champion that he is, Salam said that he would get it for me and NOW I HAVE IT!!!!!!!

I feel kind of bad to use his money for something that I myself want, but then I was abit tight on cash that time so I decided I would repay him in future by buying him clothes and other boyfriend stuff. lol

BUT IT JUST SHOWS HOW MUCH HE CARED TO MAKE ME HAPPY AND THAT’S MOST IMPORTANT TO ME!!!

In Uptown, baby bought a very cute green Tshirt too! He asked me if I wanted to get the exact same one but in female cutting but I refused because I figured I don’t usually wear Tshirts. Hehe.

(PS: I also found out that my bling bling screen guard is actually of very good quality because it is quite thick and the bling bling is very scattered and abundant than compared to some others which I’ve seen before so I guess the RM20 has its credit)

For dinner (more like supper) I brought him to Berkeley Corner because I wanted to show him/he wanted to know the type of place I usually hang out at for mamaking. Hehe.

But I guess I won’t be going there any time in the near future anymore because Cherrie recently got robbed when we were there and so Salam forbade me from going there anymore at night. :c

But where got people go mamak in the day one??????

***

The next time we went out, he brought me to another place which I’ve been wanting to go for a very long time already : AQUARIA at KLCC!

He at first wanted to bring me to the Suria KLCC Garden and when he found out I wanted to go to Aquaria, he said Of course we can go there sayang. lol

Alot of people say the he looks quite chinese.

I always remind him to drink lots and lots of water because water is good for health!

And boys will ALWAYS need someone to remind them to take care of their health and other petty things because their brains are just not programmed to remember such things. lol

I guess that is why boys need girlfriends hahahaha

While we were walking around KLCC I casually mentioned that I saw a very nice commercial on TV about the new Magnum ice-cream and how much I wanted to eat it…………

So we went to get one each!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had the normal one while he had the almond encrusted one. AWESOME!

The chocolate coating outside is actually Belgian chocolate by the way!

After KLCC we went to Times Square to shop around because since we were in KL I thought might as well make the most of it. Hehe

We had a very awesome day that day. Well, actually, I ALWAYS have the most awesome day with him. :3

ALSO……..

He recently cut his hair and……………………………..

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA CUTE OR NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can someone please help me convince him that he looks so much cuter in short hair?

I still got loads to post about him but I’ll save them for another day!

BYE!

LOVE YOU SAYANG! (enough photos of your face or not sayang? lol)

GRADUATION ROBE PHOTO SHOOT DAY!

2011-10-21T21:31:00.002+08:00

I challenge you to come up with a more interesting title. Thanks.

Now. It has been a tradition for many many years in Bukit Kuda for the graduating to class to get 2 hours each at the end of the school year to prance around school snapping photos with our graduation robes on!

I guess the school wants us to have lots of photos to remember the school by or like to put the photos in our scrapbooks or something. lol

So a few days ago, me and my Form 6 friends had alot of fun running around the school taking siao photos and acting like kids!

Remember I mentioned in the previous post that I will be posting the photos that are snapped using Susan’s AWESOME camera so here they are!

AND BEHOLD because they are GORGEOUS!

The shots at the stairs are my favourites!

Look at all of us trying to pull off the emo look but Kanaga (in white without the robes) unashamedly posing for the camera with a seductive smile lol

And the second photo we all tried to look old by pulling the skin of our faces down LOL

As usual, it was customary to have JUMP SHOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And with successful jump shots there have to be FAILED jump shots too. LOL

Me thick-skinnedly posing with Encik Azhar’s BIG BIKE. LOL

Me and Susan sexually harrassing Nadia. LOL

The perfect formal lined-up shot! LOVE THIS!

Of course there has to be a big ass shot of me doing a dumb pose too. lol

Another stairs shot! We were pinching each other’s cheeks!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

And because I don’t have Susan’s awesome camera, my loyal companion is only my cute roughly bling-ed out Lumix. IT’S CUTE THOUGH.

CUTE GROUP SHOT! :3

And then we returned the robes and went back to class. That’s Puan Normala our Economics teacher!

After that we just kind of sat around in class playing with Susan’s camera because seriously I am OBSESSED with her camera!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It produces such clear and popping photos and all of which make my skin look so soft like marshmallow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Susan was fascinated by the pinkness of all my stuff so she started snapping photos of me with them lol

And of course I more than WELCOMED her because her camera ALWAYS makes me look so GOD DAMN CUTE. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAAAA!!!!!!

DROWN IN PINKNESS ALL OF YOU MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAA

Pink glue pink puncher pink mechanical pencil pink pencil case pink eraser pink mechanical eraser pink sharpener pink ruler pink scissors pink notepad pink watch pink phone!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA

You wanna know what I was typing away in my pink phone? :3

And look what I got back for a reply :

With more hearts! TEE HEE!

It was a very joyous day that day! I LOVE MY FORM 6 FAMILY and I’m going to miss them so much when we finish Form 6 later!

And of course I love the guy who never fails to make me happy everyday : Wan Mohd Salamullah.

PS : REMINDER! ALL SHOTS TAKEN BY SUSAN’s AWESOME CAMERA YO! LOVEZ IT.

Form 6 Graduation 2011!

2011-10-21T01:29:00.004+08:00

Just recently attended my Form 6 graduation lunch at Goldcourse Hotel last 15 of October 2011! And since I was also a former Bukit Kuda student from Form 1 till Form 5, this was actually my SECOND graduation lunch (my first being my Form 5 graduation)!

Funny that even though I’ve attended such graduation ceremony by the same organising committee just two years before, but everything this year felt so different!

It was fun!

Maybe it was because I attended this lunch with my Form 6 family who I’ve grown to be so attached to because we are such a small group! Hanging out with them just makes me feel all homey and comfortable. :3

Of course with every blog post it has to start with my big ass photo as such! :

I bought this leopard print dress for only RM25 specially for this event because we typically weren’t allowed to wear anything that was above our knees. And since I had no dresses that were longer that my knees I needed to urgently go shop for one!

Before heading to Goldcourse, Pei Wen, Pei Theng, Wei Qing and I decided to stop for Bah Kut Teh breakfast first because we were told that our buffet lunch was only going to start at 1130am!

And we had to arrive there by 730am! How to tahan with empty stomach for so long?!

Om nom nom bah kut teh lol

And we arrive!

Somehow the setting looks kind of old school-ish so I played with the colours of the photo and produced this lol

Must take mirror shot before we enter obviously.

Right after we registered, we had to change into our graduation robes because we were the first class to go up on stage that day!

Ta-dah! Class of ~~1990~~ 2011 sorry. LOL

PHOTOS TIME!

And finally, food was served! Okay it was a buffet so technically we served ourselves.

Got murtabak got karipap got ayam goreng got nasi minyak got bihun goreng got kari jiken OM NOM NOM

Got laksa too! And assorted cakes and puddings!

But the sad thing was, before we even got to finish our food, we had to rush over to the changing room to change back into our graduation robes for a photo shoot session.

The graduation robe is black, with red and blue stripes! :3

And then when we came back to finally devour our food, WE DISCOVERED IT WAS ALL GONE. :C

Then we found out that the waiters thought we had finished eating so they cleared the plates. I didn't even get the chance to eat karipap. :c

And oh yes I forgot to tell you guys about how I uncovered the most awesome camera ever! And like the stupid chap that I am, I forgot to find out the name of the model but I can assure you that it is the best camera EVER!

And by that of course I mean because it takes AWESOME camwhore shots HAHAHAHAHAHA

Every single shot of my face taken by this camera is like super gorgeous and it’s as if it can’t go wrong?!

LOL I so want to get this when I have money!!!

LOVE IT! I’ll post the camwhore/normal shots of me using this camera in a separate post okay because the photos are with Susan! I think she kinda beh tahan with me because I keep using her camera to camwhore and eating up all her battery hihi

ENCIK ISHAK!

And that is my face whenever I see him LOL

After food and photo session, finally the graduation event ended!

And I went downstairs to find…………………………………

(sorry photo fail because I didn’t have time to snap the dramatic moment of my reaction when I saw him downstairs waiting for me lol)

(that’s a photo of him all dressed up just for me and erm eating a Double GCB lol)

Mr. Wan Mohd Salamullah waiting for me by his car holding a bouquet of………………

SURPRISE ROSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How can you not be in love with this guy?

He does all the little things just to make me happy! Everybody around me gushes about him to me saying how much of a perfect boyfriend he is, so you know, anyone who is saying shit about our relationship :

HATERS GONNA HATE. TEE HEE.

And that concludes a very eventful and romantic graduation day.

BYE!

Wow.

2011-10-11T23:26:00.002+08:00

I guess this is more of a clarification post than an actual post with updates.

I haven’t updated my blog in what more than a month?

And that is because I have been trying to live my life indifferently and trying very hard not to think about Fifi anymore.

It’s only been a while since we’ve broken up, but sometimes it just feels like to me as if it’s been so long. Maybe it’s because we don’t contact each other anymore. Even till now.

Funny because before this when I was still with him, I did think that I would last with him, but at moments I did kind of imagine what we would be like if we broke up.

And I couldn’t imagine just being normal friends with him because I loved him so much at that time. He was everything to me.

But now that I think about it, I can’t understand why I was so in love with him when he did so little for me.

We were at times happy, but if compared to the relationship that others have, or the relationships I have/have had with others, my happy moments with him were so little. So limited. So restricted.

But I want to respect the relationship we had, however short it had been. And from now on, I really don’t want to talk about that anymore.

And also, we are no longer in contact with each other because I choose not to be his friend. And I’m happy with this arrangement.

I don’t think I will ever be able to accept the way things have been for us – how it ended, so I’m just going to let him be and just try to not think about him anymore.

Because for once in my life, finally, I can really be certain that I no longer want him back. Yes, of course I still love him – the kind of love I have for him is just too extraordinary to be forgotten – but I would never want him back as a boyfriend or even a friend.

Because I don’t trust that he wouldn’t put me through the same type of pain again. So I’d rather prevent that from happening by cutting off contact with him than to take the risk and cure my heart if he does hurt me again.

But I won’t go so far as to say that he’s done wrong to me, I guess we just don’t have the same goals, or wants in life. I guess the best is to just move on with our lives and put the relationship we had before as a kind of experience/memory.

And done.

Next part will of course be about Wan Mohd. Salamullah bin Wan Saudi.

Yes, everyone judges me. Everyone is talking behind my back. Everyone is saying I’m not true to love. Everyone is saying that I’m playing with feelings. Everyone is saying that I am not serious.

And seriously, I’m just too tired and exhausted to try and defend myself from all those hostiles accusations.

Bottom line is, I don’t give a shit what you guys think. This is my life. These emotions are mine. I feel them. You don’t.

I feel so awful that I have to be embarrassed about the fact that Salam is my boyfriend just because I just broke up with Fifi. Especially since Salam has been such a sweetheart to me even before we got together. Even until now he still makes me feel so cared for.

He is just the type of guy that everyone will fall easily in love with.

But to the outside world, because I claimed I was so heart-broken, I shouldn’t have been able to move on so easily.

And because of that, it is obvious that my relationship with Salam now is just a rebound relationship. That I am not serious.

You know what is serious? This: SERIOUSLY, shut the fuck up.

What I felt during the month of break up was horrible. I don’t think you guys have ever been in MY position, and you guys will never be, so stop judging. Salam was a friend of me, even when I was with Fifi, even during the break up, even after the break up.

Yes we weren’t close at all before this, but somehow during my heartbreak, which was probably the darkest time of my life that I have ever experienced, he cheered me up. He tried to make me forget about my sadness even without consciously knowing it. And it worked too, which surprised me.

I can’t really explain how we even got to being together, but what I can say is, he makes me happy.

And because he’s been so nice and sincere with me, it hurts me when you guys try to make it seem as if I’m not serious with him. As if to me this relationship is a joke.

Fuck off.

Being with him makes me realise how stupid I was to endure the kind of one-sided relationship I had with Fifi. Salam makes me feel appreciated. Something I rarely felt when I was with Fifi. And that just makes me sad because I really did love Fifi and I don’t want anything bad to go to his name.

But how I can start to love someone when I’ve just broken up with another person, that is something I can’t understand.

And really, I just don’t want to address that. I just want to leave it at that. I don’t want to think about it.

Salam says it would be much better if we just stop analysing things, so long as these things do not affect us.

And I agree with that.

And that is why I seriously never talked in detail about the start of my relationship with Salam with anyone before.

I just don’t think anyone would understand how I felt or even feel right now.

What’s most important is, Salam trusts me, and believes in me.

He knows how much I loved Fifi, how heart broken I was, how painful it was for me.

And he also knows that it was only a while ago that I’ve felt like that. It’s only been a couple months since I ended my relationship with Fifi.

But he accepts that about me, and trusts that I love him too. Which is all that matters.

All you judgemental people out there can just shut the fuck up.

I guess people who really love me for me, people who really know me deep down inside, will understand this from my point of view.

They know that I’m not the type of girl who just jumps into a relationship without thinking much about love. They know that I am a serious relationship type of girl.

But I guess if you do think that I’m the cheap type, it’s just that you don’t know me well enough. And I don’t really give a damn about what you think.

I don’t have to explain to anyone, nor do I have to prove anyone right/wrong.

I’m being me, I’m loved, and I’m happy. And that’s just enough for me.

2011-08-26T23:24:00.001+08:00

This is the last message he sent to me as my boyfriend. If you notice it, this is dated 15 June 2011.

Three days later, 18 June 2011, he broke up with me.

I’ve never quite understood what is going on his mind.

Or what WAS going on in his mind in the three days before he broke up with me.

How could he send such a sweet message to me one morning and then break up with me three days later?

What happened in those three days?

These are things that I would really like to know.

15 June 2011 was Wednesday. That Friday, 17 June 2011, he came back from Pahang.

And he didn’t even inform me. I was still his girlfriend that time and I just couldn’t believe he could hide something like this from me.

If I was such a nuisance, such a burden to him, that when he came back to Klang he didn’t even want to meet me, to the extent that he tried to hide this from me, WHY DIDN’T HE BREAK UP WITH ME EARLIER?

Why still send such sweet messages to me?

I seriously didn’t know what was going on his mind.

Even until today I am still confused.

I gave him so much, I sacrificed so much for him, I did so much for him. And he could hurt me like that without feeling guilty.

I got angry that he tried to hide the fact that he had come home from me, and I threw a tantrum. And the next day, 18 June 2011, he changed his relationship status back to single.

As if I was the one who was wrong in this whole thing.

I don’t think I did anything wrong. How could he be so cruel? Why did he try to bolster my ego and then decide to grind it under his heel like I was worth nothing?

How could he do that to me, after all we’d been through? After all this time?

Thinking back thoroughly of the way he treated me, I realise that he had done so much to hurt me and just so little to make me happy.

But why am I still so attached to him?

Why can’t I let him go?

I want to return his things to him. I seriously want to. But I just don’t understand why till this day I still cry everytime I think about that.

Everytime I am at the verge of bringing his things to be returned to him, I put the package back on the shelf. Because I’m just so hurt. I’m just so scared.

I’m so scared of what the outcome would be. I am so afraid that this is not only gonna be the end of our relationship, but also our friendship, or whatever ship we have.

I’m so scared to let him go.

Why?

Is he worth it? My brain says NO, but my heart cries and yearns for him.

2011-08-24T21:42:00.002+08:00

It has been so long since I have updated. I don’t even know what is going on in my life right now.

I don’t believe that I have completely got over the break up, but at least I am not crying anymore.

I was desperately looking for a closure just a week before, but I was still thinking about him, I was still hoping.

But one day I went to his Facebook profile and I found out that he seems to be in some kind of mission to get this girl.

And he is showing signs that he is after this girl who is from his university.

And the way he purposely posted all these statuses was just hurting me. Over and over.

And so that fateful day, I removed him from my friends list and I hid my wall from him.

I just couldn’t take the pain anymore.

Surprisingly, deleting him made me feel better. I found that I no longer spent so much time thinking about him, and for the first time since the break up, I could actually fathom the fact that our relationship was finally over and done with.

A week had past and I almost convinced myself that I was going to send his things back to him. That I didn’t want them anymore.

But just three days ago he called me.

He asked about me and talked to me like we were great friends.

Why did he have to call just as I was about to forget him? Why did he have to suddenly appear again?

And yesterday, he texted me.

He told me, albeit jokingly, that he misses me, and asks if I was thinking about him.

He also mentioned about my ‘boyfriend’ which I don’t actually have currently, as if he was trying to get me to admit if I HAD a boyfriend or not.

He casually also mentioned that he appreciated me, and that it was just me who didn’t understand.

And finally, he asked me to go Raya visiting with him this year as he wants to show me where he lives.

And I’m thinking, WHY?

Why is he doing this? After all this time. After all the things he has done to me. After all the things he has said to me.

WHY?

I talked about this to one of my friends and he said that maybe Fifi and I have never really come to a closure.

Maybe he still cares for me and he is just confused as to whether he wants to be with me or not.

Maybe he just wants freedom.

Maybe he just doesn’t want to be tied to a relationship.

Or.

Maybe he is just playing me to boost his ego. To prove that he still has an effect on me.

I almost broke down last night when I realised this.

Why do I have to be the one to be hurt? If I cannot get to be with Fifi, why won’t he just disappear or stop hurting me?

If I do get to be with him one day, why can’t it happen now, so that I wouldn’t have to suffer like this?

I thought I found a closure just days before, but just a casual appearance of him and all my confidence went downhill.

And suddenly I realised I didn’t want to return his things to him anymore.

When are things going to start to look up for me?

Haven’t I hurt enough?

Muhammad Hafifi Abdul Majid, what do you want actually…?

Love & Despair

2011-08-11T16:09:00.001+08:00

You start out being so in love,

But things turn different as days go by,

Suddenly from hugs and kisses,

You just walk away without goodbyes.

Is it worth it to cry and cry,

When he doesn’t really care?

To drown yourself in hopeless dreams,

And to live life with despair?

You say you would start to learn and cope,

But these things aren’t real,

Sooner or later you’ll break and cry,

Cos no one bothers how you feel.

But who cares if these tears are worth it,

They won’t stop on command anyway,

It’s much more satisfying to wallow in grief,

Than to pretend to be okay.

Why is love such a hard thing to procure,

And yet even harder to maintain?

Can’t we all just get along,

And appreciate what we have gained?

I’m lying low, I’m feeling down,

And I don’t know what else to do,

Because my heart protests, my mind rejects,

But the one I want is still you.

2011-08-06T03:33:00.003+08:00

I am not a very nice girl. I never said I was. I never said I was innocent. I never said I wasn’t wild.

It has been more than 2 months, and I still feel very broken inside.

And the fact that I am hanging out so excessively with this bunch of guys that I’ve only newly met, is a form of way for me to distract myself from the pain I still feel.

I still love him very much. I don’t know why he affects me so much when I know he doesn’t really love me anyway.

He did care for me at one point of the relationship, but right now, I feel like he no longer cares about me.

How can you love someone who hurts you so much?

To pretend that all this isn’t happening, I have been hanging out with one of my guy friends alot. He is very nice to me and recently, he confessed to me. :/

I can’t say I don’t like him, but I just don’t like him that way yet.

My heart still belongs to the one before. It has always been with him. Even though he left me, my heart never left him.

So right now I am just basking in the glory of having someone new being so infatuated with me.

I wonder why I fell in love so easily with Fifi when I realise now that he didn’t really do much to get me in the first place.

I know during our relationship he has done alot of sweet things for me, but at the beginning, he wasn’t as caring and loving as my current guy friend is now.

It is all so weird.

I guess I am just still keeping hope that Fifi would one day come back to me and that is why I don’t want to get into any further relationship with anyone.

Because I have the feeling that I would fall very easily in love with my current guy friend if I just let myself.

But I’m still holding hope for Fifi. And I'm really not ready for anything like that with someone else yet.

So I guess we’ll just take more time.

More time to get to know each other.

More time for me to consider if Fifi is ever going to come back.

More time for me to either become more in love with Fifi or gradually fall out of love for him.

More time for me and my guy friend to see if we’ll ever really work out for each other.

We all need time.

And I still love you very much Fifi.

I don’t care if you don’t want to hear it.

HARRO!

2011-07-24T15:46:00.002+08:00

I know pun gong ju very long never post anything already and I have been complaining non-stop about how my life sucks right...

But now things are hopefully getting better already so I decided I want to try doing all the things I used to love doing again and not only focus mainly on my erm, boyfriend. lol

  Because now we've officially called it quits and I am back on the market again! And no I am not exactly happy with this arrangement, but I am just glad that things have finally been resolved because seriously the past month of doubt, uncertainties and pain has been horrible.  

I am just glad we have talked things over and of course I still love him like super awesome much. lol And with that said, I'm really not interested in getting into any relationship anytime soon (unless it's with him of course :3) so I am going to concentrate all my time on FLIRTING WITH PEOPLE LOLOLLLOLOLOL

  Okay kidding I am going to concentrate my time on friends, family, school and my hobbies loh. Hehe ok bye!

2011-07-22T20:34:00.001+08:00

I’m sorry for not updating for such a long time.

My life is so fucked up right now that I can’t even think of anything good to write about it.

And I really don’t feel like talking about the shit that is my life now.

Photo to compensate. I used to be happy. But now I no longer am.

2011-06-27T21:21:00.005+08:00

Omg.

Today we went to school in a strangely cold weather. I mean, we were so used to the scorching heat of the recent days that the cold and windy morning came as quite a surprise to us.

So in BM class, everyone was like practically restraining hard from falling asleep.

But there was this person in class who just like, popped her head on the table top and slept.

I mean, how disrespectful can you get?

The teacher was just standing there in front of her, teaching as usual and she had the courtesy to just sleep with her head resting on her arm.

And then while the class went on, I am pretty sure she kind of started snoring too, RIGHT IN CLASS.

And as if that isn’t bad enough, she started DROOLING.

OMG.

She drooled on and on, but apparently, she did not notice that Niagara Falls was coming out of her slightly agape mouth.

It was horrible!!! The saliva came down like not drop by drop, but it was kind of in a flow!!!

YUCK!!!

As she was sleeping so soundly, the teacher, being the kind and thoughtful teacher she is always known to be, just let her sleep peacefully until class ended.

But about 5 mins before the bell rang, that lazy pig woke up with a jolt and looked around blurrily as if angry because someone had disrupted her sleep.

She took a few seconds to regain her composure and that was when she realised that her arm was kind of drenched in her own saliva.

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

I mean, it was wet and you could clearly see the stains and patches of the water on her sleeve wtf?!

Fuck disgusting can!!!

And then she quickly wiped off the saliva on her arm with her skirt and pretended that everything was normal!

Gosh and it was saliva goddammit. It must have emanated some stinky smell too.

So when the bell finally rang, she gathered her things and walked out of class as if nothing was out of the blue.

I’m quite sure many people saw her drooling while she slept and noticed the saliva flood that came down her arm too.

And I swear this whole account is 100% true and I did not make anything up.

How embarrassing!

And you know what’s even more embarrassing?

That person was me.

FML.

2011-06-25T02:22:00.004+08:00

I really miss Fifi.

And I can't tell this to him, or even post this in Facebook because then he'd see it.

And so I can only post this in my blog.

It is so hard to have to refrain from writing or expressing what I really feel inside.

It is even harder when I have to hide that every night when I am in bed, my mind flashes back to all the memories we've ever had together and I can't help but to cry myself to sleep.

And it is the hardest when I have to pretend to be okay and pretend as if everything is alright when I'm around people.

I wonder if he misses me too, and if he even thinks about me sometimes?

What is on his mind?

What is he thinking?

Where is this going to end?

Where are we taking this?

I guess these are things that I will never find out...

Tidak ke mana,
Akan kucari,
Rasa cinta yang pernah kumiliki...
Janji setia, sehidup semati,
Hanya waktu yang memisahkan kita...
Namun semua,
Telah berakhir...untukku...

Harus kuakui, sampai detik ini,
Tak akan kulupa,
Kisah cinta kita,
Abadi untukmu,
Yang kuukir indah...namamu...

:'(

COLOURS!

2011-06-25T01:43:00.007+08:00

I actually have something very interesting to post but I promised Wani that we will both do a twin post today in our blogs about colours to make-up for that fact that we haven’t updated our blogs in such a long time lol.

So this is Wani’s blog.

Today in PP (Business) class Cik Chew told us about how there are actually colours which represent certain personalities of people and so she kind of evaluated each of our personalities and guessed our favourite colours.

She got some of the girls’ favourite colours right and she guessed mine very correctly too! (PINK) lol

So I went online to search for the colour personality thing, and this is what I found! :

From : http://www.shvoong.com/social-sciences/psychology/1593795-colour-personality/

BLACK : Demand a calm environment, free of conflict and disagreement. Prefer natural to artificial. Capable of being comfortable in conditions that would bother others. Not easily disconcerted. Enjoy attention, but are unsure of how to handle it.

At one point of my life, I used to like black alot, and I guess I still do, but only in certain things, but I don’t really find this explanation correct. I mean, first of all, when I was a fan of black colour, I was kind of in the punk rock phase (don’t judge!!! It happens to everyone!!! Don’t deny!!!) and I kind of liked drama and chaos and everything. So I don’t really get the free of conflict and disagreements part. But the last sentence is quite accurate because I did like attention (still do actually lol) and was more often than not quite unsure of how to handle it (unfortunately, still am too fml)

BLUE : Enjoy a peaceful environment in which to relax and appreciate life. Have a refined sense of beauty. Capable of persisting against all odds when determined to reach a goal. Intent on establishing a personal attitudinal framework within goal accomplishment.

Never liked blue. Bleargh.

BROWN : Natural and easy-going, prefer a calm environment. Attracted to the outdoors. Have a refined sense of beauty. Rather conservative with well-ordered mind, not attracted to the bizarre. Not entertained by fads or styles, comfortable with current value system.

Cherrie really likes brown currently but really??? Prefer a calm environment??? I don’t think so lol but she IS attracted to the outdoors, has a refined sense of beauty and the following following statements. So I guess this is quite right.

GRAY : Enjoy a calm environment. Easy-going and original, will try anything once. Gentle, relaxed, and self-assured; capable of being everyone’s friend. Have an eye for the aesthetic a good team player. Constantly reappraising own situation though might appear as self-possessed.

GREEN : Very strong-willed and determined, can accomplish much when left alone and undisturbed. Easy-going and original, capable of relaxing and enjoying the finer things in life. Have an eye for art. Diligent and persevere in life.

PURPLE : Very spontaneous; have a quick and original mind that knows no boundaries. Comparatively conservative and appreciate beautiful surroundings, especially in nature. Relaxed and self-assured. A good team player. Have unique, unusual tastes, but quite comfortable among more conservative peers.

RED : Possess incredible will-power, capable of overcoming obstacles that would stop others. Enjoy a pleasant and colourful environment. Capable of bursts of high energy spontaneity, though generally more "laid back". Energetic and interested in many areas of life. Capable of accomplishment when consciously focused and persistent.

YELLOW : An original and powerful thinker, capable of overcoming great obstacles. Easy-going and enjoy the finer things in life, with an eye for art. Calm and relaxed, often the one who try not to "rock the boat". Love to search for new ideas, methods and styles; can be very productive when focused on a course of action.

(kenot use yellow font la later you kenot read)

Very interesting right??? So did you choose your colour and read about your matching personality?

Was it correct?

But I only have one question for this thing though : WHERE’S THE PINK COLOUR PERSONALITY???

2011-06-21T19:40:00.004+08:00

I texted him about a million I love yous.

And he’s written back saying the same thing, but with the additional message that he still thinks it might be better for us to take a break, as he needs the liberty to sort out his life before he makes another commitment again.

I said I would support him no matter what decisions he makes, but what he doesn’t know is how much I am actually hurting.

Or maybe he does know this, and he isn’t backing down from his decision because he has already made up his mind.

Maybe I am not as important to him as he is to me.

But that’s fine… Not everyone puts their boyfriend above herself like I do.

I cannot believe the amount of tears that I have produced these few days.

It is as if I have never cried before in my entire life. I have been crying every single day since Saturday, and each crying session lasts for about 20 minutes and each day I cry about 7 times.

I know right? How weak the human race is.

Or maybe it’s just me.

The fact is, I love him very much. And I never thought that a day would come when we would have to split up.

I have envisioned our relationship past many anniversaries; that’s how confident I was about this relationship, even with all the arguments and disagreements.

The thing is, even though he isn’t very attached to me, he’d always been very possessive and firm about this relationship.

That’s why when the topic of splitting up came up, I broke down.

I know he needs time, and I am willing to give him that.

But I just want him to realise how much I really do love him, and how much he actually loves me too.

And that we could work out if we would just try again.

Very eventful and photo-worthy days…

2011-06-11T03:30:00.002+08:00

…but sadly I DID NOT TAKE ANY PHOTOS! Sorry! :X

But I am still going to tell you about them so don’t worry ok! I swear they’ll be about 20% as interesting as if I had taken photos.

20% also enough la right??? Right???

1) COULD NOT SLEEP LAST NIGHT

I don’t know what is wrong with me. I mean, my average sleeping time this whole 2 weeks of holidays is what, 430am? and so yesterday I tried to go to bed early (by early I mean like 4am lol) but I just couldn’t fall asleep!!! fml

My eyes were very tired and like, hurting, especially the bottom part of my eyes, so I dismissed that as finally feeling sleepy before 430am.

So I went to bed, turned off the lights and everything, but my brain just would not shut off. ==

As opposed to if I usually like went to bed at 430am, even without my eyes feeling all sleepy, I would still be conked out in 5 mins flat.

So then I tried to figure what I did and what I drank and then I remembered I had woken up at 230pm that day and continued a short nap from 4-630pm lol

No wonder my brain would not shut off. But what did it have to do with my eyes getting all tired and painful?

Hmm…

2) I MISS MY BOYFRIEND

We had a fight prior to his going back to the stupid Hutan (UiTM Jengka) which was the biggest fight we’ve ever had.

And it was also one of the most terrible and crazy experiences of my life which included me sitting out at the balcony at like 2am because I just needed to breathe (because I couldn’t stop crying), staying out by the playground all alone till 430am and my mum had to come and try to get me to go home because she was fuck worried both for my safety and mental state and also me encountering a homeless stranger sleeping on one of the benches in the playground O.O

But then the thing with me and Fifi is, we don’t like to argue, so sometimes we’d just look past what that has happened and things would go back to normal.

And so that was what happened and now things are as good as they can be.

But I really, really miss him and how come it feels like I haven’t seen him for so long? It feels like I haven’t had his hand in mine for a very long time already. And I know he misses me too, so PLEASEEEE hurry up and come homeeee T____T

3) PLUMBER FIXED BROKEN PIPE

He came and started drilling all noisily at like 2pm and disturbed my peaceful sleep. Zzz

But thank God he came! I swear if I had to stand around worrying if water would splash out from the pipe again, I would die.

And at one point my Mum knocked on the door and told me she was going to leave the house for a moment to go to the ATM to get money to pay the plumber and said if I heard any weird commotion outside I should go and check out and made sure the plumber did not leave with our stuff. (you never know)

So I grumpily said ok and went back to bed.

But amidst the drilling and everything, the noisiness suddenly stopped for about 5 mins and then after that continued as normal. I figured maybe the plumber went for a pee or something and so I just comfortably went back to sleep.

And when I woke up, my Mum was just back and the plumber was gone.

And I suddenly looked to the sofa and discovered that my LAPTOP WAS GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I clearly remembered that I had left it on the sofa last night but WHERE WAS IT NOW??!??!

I looked around like a crazy person and a million things were running through my mine like the plumber took it!!! Omg do I have like personal stuff in them like photos of me and my boyfriend???? What am I going to do??? Where am I going to get the money to get a new laptop??? WHO IS THAT GUY I AM GOING TO TRACK HIM DOWN! and then I turned to my Mum to ask her if she had seen my laptop and then suddenly it hit me :

To go check in my sister’s room and true enough I found my laptop lying prettily on my sis’s bed. And that is because apparently my Mum was even more paranoid than me and had hidden my laptop in my sis’s room even before the plumber came. LOL

And then I felt bad in the end because we are not supposed to think the worst of everyone and just because even though sometimes we might want some things which are expensive which are lying around which are so easily to be taken, that does not automatically make us thieves right?

I mean, everyone might want expensive things, but not everyone is a thief.

4) MUMMY TAPAO-ED CRAB!

Because she was to go for a seafood dinner with her friends and I didn’t want to tag along because what WOULD I have to talk to them about and it would be super awkward and I couldn’t be assed to get up and do my make-up so when she asked me if I would like anything, I said CRABS because fml I’ve been watching CRABS on AFC so many times and never got to eat it.

So Mum tapao-ed 1kg of crab home which was the minimum amount she had to order and I FINISHED THAT 1KG OF CRAB ALL ON MY OWN. O.O

I know I am siao and crazy and whatever lah I also kenot believe I ate so much CRAB! O.O

But they were so good!!! KAM HEONG AND FRESH AND JUICY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ~~would eat them again now if there were more crabs!!!~~

5) HANG OUT WITH CHERRIE AND SALLY TOMORROW!

I am so excited! We are going to 88 for BBQ steamboat at Bukit Tinggi then after that we will go to Aeon to check out if Cotton On is open yet and if it isn’t we can berpiket around lol and then after that we will meet up with Mae Vin and Xin Yi who unfortunately can’t join us for the dinner because they have a wedding dinner to attend!

Of their old school mate! Who is our age! O.O

And I am 19.

Isn’t that so scary? I mean, I’ve heard these stories from when my sis was 19 but now I’m at that age where these things are happening to people of my age!

It’s so scary to have to shoulder the burden of having a baby when I still feel like a baby at my current age wtf

Imagine how she must feel. I mean, considering she is smart enough to have used a condom and this pregnancy is just an accident lah.

If she isn’t (smart enough to use a condom) then erm I don’t feel as much respect or sympathy for you hor, because CONDOMS! Use them if you want to have sex with your boyfriend lah zzz

If don’t want to use condom or can’t get access to condoms then just have foreplay or like make out lah, why go all the way??? Well, now you have to suffer the consequences. :/

Okay back to the topic at hand, after we meet Xin Yi and Mae Vin, depending on the time, we will either go to Tutti Frutti or mamak!

And then at night after sending Sally home, Cherrie, Xin Yi and Mae Vin will stay overnight at my house and the next morning we will go swimming!

Oh, wait, I just remembered, Cherrie changed the plan and said, mamak first then the next day after swimming only go for Tutti Frutti!

GOOD THINKING! I kenot wait!

Sorry I wasted your time reading all this nonsense lol but thank you anyway!

BYE!

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

2011-06-10T17:56:00.001+08:00

Hello guys! I know have been updating very frequently these days *applause applause*

But today does not count as an update but just a very self-centred post which consists of………………….

A DISGUSTING ARRAY OF PHOTOS OF ME!

Okay so my photos are not disgusting, but the fact that I am posting this whole streak of them kind of is.

But I don’t care.

I work very hard to put on the right clothes and right make-up everyday and so I deserve to have an entire blog post with my photos!

Now I picked out the photos that I think I look best in and since they are arranged according to the time they were taken, I can see how much I have changed over time!

This is the latest one of course, as you can see from the very pretentious way I sweep all my hair to one side of my face to depict sexiness or something lol

I realise that my photos with Tutti Fruitti always turn out pretty cute!

Or in shades.

Before clubbing.

Told you!

Or when my face is like half missing from the photo lol

This looks cute even with minimal make-up

Tutti Fruitti makes me cute!

Ghost.

Super duper act cute with practice-clubbing make-up lol

Now, I used to think that this photo is very nice but now that I look at it I feel like wtf it’s fuck ugly but I’m putting it up anyway because for some reason Fifi seems to like this photo very much and always has it as his phone’s wallpaper O.o

But of course if he is infatuated with me (even when I’m looking my worst) that makes me feel very loved!

This is also another photo which looked much better months ago and to me looks super horrible now but Fifi seems to also like it O.o

Does this mean he likes the way I look before (ugly) better? T_____T

Act cool and I love my red nails.

And I’m putting this photo up because it is the photo in Fifi’s wallet and everytime he opens it to take out his IC or money or whatever this is the face he sees so this face has to be immortalised in a blog post to preserve it’s importance lololllolololol

Why am I so nonsense lol

Anyway I hope you enjoy

1) lusting/complimenting/fapping (KIDDING!) over my photos if you think I am kind of cute *act humble

2) complaining/bitching about me if you think I am very ugly and self-centred lol

BYE!

PS : The photos resolution in this post is relatively smaller than usual because I think seeing my face so big so many times also will make anyone puke so I’m saving you from that lollolollol

Have you guys seen this?

2011-06-10T00:42:00.003+08:00

I saw this on E! just now but I didn't manage to wait till I heard the guy sing, but then I saw that someone posted this on Facebook so I watched it!

What blew me away was not Sung Bong's incredible singing talent, and he IS incredibly talented, but the fact that - get this guys - he started living ALONE since he was five!

HELLO! FIVE YEARS OLD GUYS! Can you believe it?

He was left at the orphanage when he was 3, and because he suffered abuse there, he ran away from the orphanage when he was 5. O.O

He survived by selling gums or energy drinks on the street and slept in public toilets and stairs for about 10 years!

Can you process that? Can you believe this incredible kid?

Can you even remember how you were when you were 5? Did you even know how to shower on your own? Let alone live and work to earn money for food?

And besides everything, can you believe he did all the without having any parental or adult guidance?

He lived like that for about 10 years, he suffered and learned everything on his own.

And he even managed to go to school, I don't know how he did that, but he did.

And imagine living outside for so long, and there's no one there to teach you anything, or even how to speak, and he is still able to speak so coherently and have manners?

And you think YOUR life is hard?

And he even sings so well!

He really showed me a new light on what suffering really means. Seriously!

He makes me cower in shame because I keep complaining about the pettiest things. *embarrassed

I hope he wins Korea's Got Talent and be the great singer he so aspires to be!

Way to go Sung Bong! I SUPPORT YOU! Caiyok caiyok!!!

MY HOUSE IS FLOODED!

2011-06-10T00:25:00.004+08:00

Okay I know I keep saying that and I keep erm exaggerating lol

But my house did get flooded!!!

Okay let me tell you guys the story.

We were just home from Ahyi’s (my aunt) house after having super yummy mi hun ge dinner, and so I was just lounging around watching TV.

And while I was watching Masterchef Australia and they were about to announce the winning team for the team challenge, suddenly I heard some super loud splashing sound coming from the kitchen??? (The kitchen in my house, not the Masterchef kitchen lol)

It was drizzling outside just now, and I thought the splashing was because it suddenly changed into heavy rain.

But it was weird because the sound only came from THAT part of the kitchen and not anywhere else???

So I went into the kitchen to find out what was wrong and to my horror WATER WAS SPLASHING DOWN FROM A HOLE IN THE PIPE!!!

THE HOLE!

Obviously in this photo the water had stopped splashing down but I swear before that it was TERRIBLE!

It was splashing like freaking Niagra Falls and I panicked and so I just removed everything in the laundry part and got pails to kind of collect the water to prevent the place from being flooded!

TOO LATE!

THE LAUNDRY PART OF MY HOUSE WAS ALREADY FLOODED ANYWAY. O.O

So I looked for the little hole where water goes down, and to my horror (again) I discovered that the hole was situated right UNDER where the water was splashing down which meant if I wanted to open the cover of the hole I HAD TO BE UNDER THE SPLASHING WATER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Which explains this :

FML x400000 (put star because my face very ugly lol)

I WAS DRENCHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What’s worse :

LOOK AT THE WATER THAT SPLASHED ONTO MY HAIR!!!!!!!

ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Murky, brownish, dirty horrible water which I didn’t (still don’t) even know originated from where!!!!!!

FML x5000000

Can you believe that water on your hair???

And I just washed my hair before going out to my aunt’s for crying out loud!

And because she discovered that the water was so disgusting, my sister stood around not wanting to near the water!

And so I had to be the one to get in contact with the EW water and to prevent it from flooding the whole house!!!

Which means :

MORE WATER ON MY HAIR AND CLOTHES AND BODY FML x6000

The only three useful things she did was :

1) Call Mum to come home right away

2) Keep laughing at me because I was so wet

3) Point out that I had a friend who suffered the same fate as me too :

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH

Poor feather duster was drenched too HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

So cute!!! Like a dog or cat or some furry pet just after bath…

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA omg I can’t stop laughing LOLLOLLOLOLL

Not cute meh? lol

Okay, so luckily the water kind of became less strong after that and stopped entirely for the night or imagine the suffering we would have had to endure to keep the house from being flooded. ==

Phew! What a day.

I was so scared when the water started pouring that right after I put all the pails and opened the hole on the floor for water to flow out that I immediately called Fifi for comfort.

BUT HE DIDN’T ANSWER HIS PHONE! t______t

Cos he was at gym!!!

Eeeeeessshhhhhh. But thankfully when I tried to call my friend Pojie to complain, he was there to answer and make fun of me. ==

He asked if I was the one who bit the pipe broken all seriously because he said I am a dinosaur!!! RAWRRRRR

Can’t wait for the plumber to quickly come and fix the pipe! (he couldn’t come today because according to my sis he balik kampung lol)

***

BABY RYAN!

Super awesome Big Apple donut!

TIP : Heat up your donut in the microwave oven for like 15 sec if it has been in the fridge and about 10 sec if it’s in room temperature and enjoy the most awesome gooey and soft and delicious donut you have ever tasted in your life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good supper! Fuji apple and green apple!

Got a sad story to tell.

I was like in the bathroom, showering and erm shaving and I accidentally shaved my nail!!!

And there was this huge scratch on my pretty painted nails and it kept snagging on my hair when I was trying to wash my hair!!!

So I got super angry and like peeled the whole thing off my finger!!! O.O

Okay, so only the top part came off but I still had to wash off the nail colour to save it.

See the white thing on my ring finger?

My pretty nail became so ugly.

Luckily now I painted it a very pretty pale pink and it looks fine!

Though the tip of it is still like chipped and ugly.

(see the part where it’s chipped and uneven? )

Last photo before I sign off!

Okay cheat one got another photo :

LET YOU VOMIT BEFORE YOU GO! HAHAHAHAHHAAAAHAHAHAH