My poor, poor ego! )=

My ego just got seriously battered about an hour ago. Mr Herbalife came and talked to me about healthy eating and he had this really awesome weighing machine that does not only weigh your mass, but also your water retension, fats, bone calcium and all that. One very interesting thing is, it got to measure my internal age too. Yes, I am 17, but apparently my body is.....

39 years old! Oh my God I am an old woman!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you so much Mr Herbalife. I know what you told me is immensely helpful for me to have a healthy life and such, but 39! That is like, DOUBLE my actual age!

And I guess in hopes to convince me to buy his product, he sort of said something along the lines of, "I bet, if you use our product, you'll look pretty. 100%."

And I was like, So you meaning to say I am not pretty la now?????????????

But of course I didn't say that. But my ego.......destroyed..... T___T

That is why I made the ultimate and totally unimaginable decision of.....

Going jogging tomorrow with Chew Kit.

DON'T LAUGH PLEASE.

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Update! Update! Update! Update!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No time ma. ):

I am very, very upset. ):

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One of my favourite Hollywood couples has split up! ): They are T.R. Knight and Mark Cornelson. I cannot believe this. I thought that they would work out despite the 16-year gap in their ages but I guess I was wrong.

T.R. Knight, 36, mentioned recently that he wanted to adopt a baby. And soon after, he and Mark broke up. ): I am not saying that their break-up has anything to do with the baby thing, but think about it.

T.R.'s 36, and it's everything right for him to adopt a child, but do you think 20-year-old Mark is ready for parenthood?

Still. I am so sad. Almost as sad as when I found out Heath Ledger passed away. ):

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

The Orphan. No, not me, the movie.

I watched The Orphan just now and let me tell you: It was freaking SCARY! I am not going to give anything away here because the movie's done with if you know the plotline from the start. So all I want to say that, it's true what the tagline of the movie says: You'll never guess her secret... Grr! Scary!

Did I tell you what sway things happened to me these few weeks? Let me start.

First, I destroyed my doorknob. Okay to be fair to ME, I SOOOOOOOOOOO did not destroy my doorknob and it is so unfair of my sister to call me a GIANT because the knob just broke on its own! One fine morning I woke up and tried to push the door open, and I found out that the knob was permanently locked. Something in there was stuck and there was no way to push it open.

So I had to bang the stupid door open with all my might like a complete moron. Luckily I slept in my Mum's room the night before, or not I would have been locked INSIDE the room and looked MORE like a moron banging on the door trying to get out.

So then I dared not click the door close anymore and for several days I had to sleep with the door open. Which made me get nightmares almost every night ok! One day I will blog about those stupid and weird nightmares.

Now for the second sway thing. My room lights totally went out after blinking annoyingly for a few days and so I had to scramble around in my room, knocking my toes onto tables and stuff every night.

How much unluckier can I get, you are wondering. No worries, I will tell you just HOW.

My Mum tried to cheer me up (Yea, right. She just felt guilty because she had promised me this for a long time and still hadn't get it done) by bringing me to choose my new bed, as I have been sleeping in very, very old beds since I moved into this house (by choice. Or not?). So I chose my super bed and was very happy that they'd be delivering it on Saturday.

Only to have the woman from the furniture store call saying that the bed was out of stock. -__- There went my dreams and thoughts of how I would redecorate my whole room with my new bed.

So why am I happy today? Oh, wait, I didn't mention that early in the post. Never mind, I'll say it here. I'M VERY HAPPY TODAY! =D

This guy I have been dating for awhile now finally asked me to be his girlfriend! =D =D =D It's a secret not even the closest ones to me know, so you better shut up.

FINE. I LIED. No guy asked me to be his girlfriend, but it DID happen in one of my dreams ok! I tell you, I get REALLY weird dreams these days. Must be because I mix with Ash too much.

Okay so, the real reason I am happy today is because Mr Electric Man came and fixed my doorknob and my room lights! =D Now my room looks really brand new and cantik! And if I have any residual luck maybe the furniture woman will call tomorrow and say that my bed's been restocked! =D Or better still, maybe Mum will actually keep her promise this time and take me to Ikea to buy a new bed!

Lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala Happy posts are so awesome to write! =D

I am so happy I actually forgot that I should be studying for-

Oh crap. SPM. 24 days. Someone kill me, please. Just kill me.

Living in the dark.

I am literally writing in the dark. The stupid single light in my room has finally burnt up after few days of blinking annoyingly.

This is by far the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. Scrambling around a dark room, squinting my eyes and looking for the correct keys to type.

From today onwards, I solemnly swear to show more compassion and sensitivity to those who have problems with their vision. They are strong people.

You cannot imagine the difficulty of living in the dark. Let's all thank Thomas Edison for his great invention.

Adioh.

It's all fine now! Awesome, awesome life! =D

I am going to summarise everything that's happened today (and yesterday) into short short sentences so that I do not bore you to death. I will differentiate everything that's happened with the colours of the words.

Pink for Ash because I love her so much.
Thanks you dear Ashley, for working out the transport thing for me to Puan Shri's house. Yes, I ended up going, anyway, because Ashley allowed me to hitch her dad's ride eventhough in total there were already about six people (including her dad) in the car. Plus me, it was seven.

I had a lot of fun seeing Ash, Janelle, Shu Ee, Tric and Mich making and playing music. I'm a very musical person. As in, anything related to music, I'm interested. Especially if it involves discovering good songs and stuff. Which I ended up doing because Ash's gang's songs are really good. I hope that they would record them into CDs and give me a copy. =D

Red for Cherrie since it's one of her favourite colours.
I don't know if I owe an apology to Cherrie, because of my previous two posts. I mean, I have never blamed her for, you know, not saving a seat for me. I was just kind of heart broken. But I related this incident to Xin Yi, Yeng and Mae Vin (they are such sweethearts. It's good to know that there are people who are happy to have you hang out with them) and Xin Yi sort of explained to me that Cherrie did try to help me get transportation when she found out I needed her ride but couldn't give me.

I mean, I know she had called Shu Ee. And Xin Yi told me that she had called HER (Xin Yi) too. So it really shows that Cherrie does care for me. And Itomaki's right, maybe it just didn't occur to Cherrie that I needed a ride and it was totally common for things like this to happen between best friends.

I was just upset, never angry. But, I just want to say sorry to Cherrie. But I am not going to take back my words that say I was betrayed, because I really did feel betrayed at that time. And I think Cherrie must have felt she had betrayed me as well, since she helped me so much in finding transportation. (:

Green for Puan Shri because, uh, it's Deepavali. =D
Puan Shri's house is really huge. I am so glad I went for the Open House because I had so much fun! Hanging out with Siew Sheng, Sally, Hui Lian, Mae Vin and Cherrie is really one of the best things in the world. They are so care-free, so genuine, and they are not the type who likes to draw all the attention to themselves. They just hang out with you for a good time, and it's really relaxing to be able to bare your soul to the outside world once in a while, not having to watch your back or hold your guard.

And oh my God, I thought Puan Shri's son was awesomely adorable and then when I found out Puan Shri had a YOUNGER DAUGHTER as well, I went crazy. Because she was the CUTEST THING EVER! She was so tiny, her voice was so adorable, and oh my God, she let me carry her around! =D I tell you, I was in heavens when I held her hand and talked to her. I don't know why, but I'm just really good with kids. I love them. =D

Yellow for the girl at Giant, as a sort of warning, or, erm, apology.
My Mum went to Giant to get a new phone recently and there was this teenage girl who worked at the booth who was really friendly to my Mum. Only, she seemed like she was trying to ignore me. I pointed to her one phone and demanded in a very polite tone to have a look at it, but she sneakily just ignored me, as if she didn't hear me say anything. So I repeated myself for the second time, and tapped the glass real hard to indicate that I WANTED TO SEE THE PHONE, but again, she completely ignored me and pretended like I wasn't even standing there!

So naturally, I was BOILING MAD at that time and I just kept GLARING at her. I mean, I have never got so angry at someone as much as I did at her before. I mean, I really, really, honestly felt like strangling her. So then she went on talking to my Mum very friendly, and totally ignoring my presence. When my Mum agreed to get the phone (W910i. Gorgeous) I shouted at that stupid bitch and said, "CAN'T I LOOK AT THE FREAKING PHONE?" Of course I said this in Cantonese, and that is in English, the best translation of what I said to that girl that I could come up with. I think I said something like, "Oi mai gor jek din wah, oi tai erm dak ga?!" And I was shouting at her, really.

For the first time in my blogging history, I am not even exaggerating. I seriously was so mad. I shouted at her and was glaring at her like I was trying to kill her with my eyes or something.

So I think she got scared or something, (everyone else around the booth was staring at me glaring at her) and she quickly took out the phone and handed it to me. To which I just SNATCHED the phone from her hands and looked away. Seriously, I SNATCHED the phone from her hands, like, real hard. I was that mad.

So then for the rest of the time I was there, she didn't dare look me in the eye. Stupid woman.

But then after that I realised maybe she ignored me because she didn't hear me, seeing as how I have flu and my hearing is kind of bad at the moment (on account of it being all stuck because of flu). Maybe I spoke too softly (as I do when I have flu because my ears are stuck so I have bad judgement of how loud my voice would sound when I speak. So to avoid embarrassment, I speak softly) and she didn't hear me? And so my shouting at her is really just my fault?

But she was somewhat avoiding my gaze right at the beginning ok! Don't know what's her fucking problem. Stupid woman. Usually I don't shout back at people who have angered me but this time, I didn't know why I blew up in her face.

Was it because of her lala gold hair? Or her disgustingly long fingernails?

Randoms.
Chew Kit told me today that his auntie was in pain and so he called for ambulance. And seeing as how ambulances always race for life on the road (literally), you can imagine my horror when Chew Kit related to me that the fucking ambulance arrived TWO HOURS after it'd been called. TWO FUCKING HOURS.

How irresponsible can you get??????? ALOT OF THINGS COULD HAVE HAPPENED IN TWO HOURS. People would have DIED. I could even finish an Add Math paper in TWO HOURS. Aren't ambulances supposed to be there for the patient as fast as possible? Seeing as how they get all the privileges on the road? How irresponsible! I am so angry I could bite someone's head off! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I like talking to Jeff online because he is very funny. I like talking to my sister online too because since now she lives in Penang, I kind of miss her alot. Only that she rarely replies my IMs and texts. GRRRR APRIL TAN HAN YEE. WHY YOU DIDN'T REPLY TEXT. Grrrr

Okay, I guess that's enough for one very fruitful and occasional day(s). I guess they aren't short short sentences (HAHA) but at least you read till here, right. Thank you! =D

Adioh!

I'll save a seat for you.

I am so emotional over this that it inspired me to write a song. And let me tell you, I get inspired all the time, but when I'm really inspired, that's the only time I'll ever finish a song.

I'll Save a Seat for You (You laugh all you can. It just came to my mind, okay?)

Remember how we would walk into school,
Your hand in mine while I was watching over you,
The world looked on with envious smiles,
They hadn't seen such a great pair in a while,

We would be together all the time,
But no matter what they said, your hands were in mine,
We swore that this was how it was gonna end,
You got my back, your trust was in my hand,

We knew what we had, they would never get,
We felt sorry and guilty, but that was just too bad,

Chorus
But what's happened to us now? It's not the same,
Why have things changed? No, I'm still the same,
Why did you go, I want to know,
Because I thought we were true, but you said we were through,
Why have you changed my dear, dear friend,
Did I do something wrong that made you misunderstand,
Come on, we'll work it through,
I'll be right here for you,
So when you look back,
I'll save a seat for you.

I remember how we used to hide behind the door,
And laugh at our teacher when he came walking in,
From his shoes to the comb he had at his at his back,
Now to know it's all gone, it's just so sad...

I thought you knew what we had, they'll never get,
So why don't you want it, was it all so bad?

Chorus

This seat right here is reserved for you,
No one else should replace it, they can't do,
We're not me and you, we are us two,
All that matters is if you will come back...

Chorus x2

I'll save a seat for you,
It's a promise made for you.