Why am I doing this?

So that I can put my hair up in a ponytail without feeling self-conscious of how big my face would look.

So that I can fit into skinny jeans without having to worry if my butt looks like a squashed weasel inside my pants.

So that I can wear cropped tops without the muffin tops.

So that I will ~never be called fat ever again in my life.

So that I can wear bodycon dresses without feeling like a giant dumpling.

So that I can wear high-waisted shorts and feel cute in it instead of feeling like a fatty with logs for legs.

So that when I wear pants, my long legs would be the focus of attention instead of my ginormous butt.

So that I can always look beautiful, whether in clothes or sans, in front of my boyfriend.

So that I can freely, worry-freely, order and purchase clothes online without the fear that I may not fit in them.

So that my tag size can be 36 as it looks best for my height.

So that I can fit into my boyfriend's tee and have it look like a boyfriend tee rather than my own tee.

So that I can finally go off diets for the rest of my life.

So that I can finally feel happy and content with being me.