The more we get together, together, together, the MOREEEE we get together the merrier we'll be!!!

For your friends are my friends but my friends aren't your friends AND my friends ARE your friends...

...the MOREEE we get together the merrier we'll BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! ♥

Can't wait for CNY/Valentine's/to wear new clothes/to PASS MY DRIVING TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

♥

What is love?

How the fuck should I know?

I haven't even been in a relationship before, much less love someone (other than my relatives), so how can I even say that I am in love with someone?

That's why I am here to clear things up to STOP YOU GUYS from pestering me to reveal who HE is.

Because he is NO ONE but a friend.

Who I thought I was in love with, but now I realised I've been really wrong.

Okay, so I might get butterflies when his name is mentioned, when I happen to think of him, and especially so when I see him.

But does that mean I love him?

No, I think I just get butterflies everytime his name is mentioned because I'm afraid that he might happen to be around, and then in some weird ways find out that I have written about how much I like him in my blog.

It's crazy, this, and I don't really know how to explain it.

All this time that I say my heart beats like crazy when I see him, I thought it was because I love him.

But now I've come to realise that it's probably just because I'm scared he'd find out that I am somehow attracted to him, and it would be mighty embarrassing for me.

Because do I dream of him everynight?

No.

Do I think of him all the time?

No.

Okay, fine. Not really.

But still.

Do I imagine to live with him for the rest of my life?

Absolutely NO!

So you see, I'm probably just interested in him for a fling. A short experience. A curious experiment.

That's all.

All those shit about heartbeat racing and being in live and besotted, WRONG. DOESN'T EXIST.

Not wishful thinking either.

Okay probably, a little bit.

But still. I can state with certainty right now that I am NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM ANYMORE.

Or ever had been. I was just attracted to him (BIG DIFFERENCE).

So stop pestering me about questions involving him okay? Because I have NO FUCKING CLUE.

Why stay in contact with someone who DOESN'T EVEN WANT TO REPLY YOUR TEXT? Who doesn't even have the slightest desire to continue the friendship?

I'm over this.

Sick of it.

Chuz.

And one more time: STOP ASKING ME ABOUT HIM. PLEASE.

Bunch of hypocrites.

You know when I first started blogging, I knew nothing about blog wars, online cat-fights or word battles.

All I knew was to type, express and boast.

Seriously, that was what I thought blogging was about.

Until one day I wrote a slightly controversial post, about the problems that happened in my school between my school mates, that I realised that stuff you write in blogs could seriously conjure up alot of hatred and destroy friendships and trusts.

I deleted that post already, so don't bother looking it up.

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is, I've always been honest with what I write in my blog.

I know alot of people who already hate me, are gonna hate me even MORE now, because they've heard me say this alot of times.

And why am I saying this again?

Because it's TRUE.

I always say that I write the way I see things, and the way I believe it, and people always give me shit about how cocky and arrogant and presumptuous I am, to always think that what I believe is right.

Well, we all got our own opinions right? Opinions that are naturally formed in our heads when we analyse a particular event? So what am I doing wrong?

I always start my opinionated sentences with TO ME or I BELIEVE or IN MY OPINION, so how can anyone say that I am always writing lies and reporting stuff that are far from the truth?

So I may be WRONG in what I believe sometimes, but after the confirmation of what really is the deal, I would definitely change my mind. I would cancel out my opinions and report the TRUTH.

Isn't that how it's SUPPOSED to be? Do they expect me to have the CORRECT opinions all the time on the first go? Do you, yourself often get the truth about stuff that happens around you? Doesn't your mind FORMULATE opinions automatically too before the truth is revealed?

So how am I wrong?

I regretted that I've caused so much troubles through my brutally honest blog posts, but I just hate it when PEOPLE who are doing the SAME THING themselves, get it into their fucking brains to post stupid comments and write blog posts slamming me.

Look at it this way.

Usually when I complain in my blog about SOMEONE, I use anonymouses. I don't reveal their true names.

But do they really think I have no idea what these hypocrites post in their PRIVATE BLOGS? They slam ANYONE they hate like no other, using their REAL NAMES. And do you really think they are the only ones who have access to read that private blog?

Of course they've invited a BUNCH of their friends to read the stuff they write in there, or where's the fun of it?

So technically, if they are writing about me in their private blogs, these hypocrites are telling this bunch of friends they have about how much of a bitch I am bla bla bla...

Isn't that the same as tarnishing MY REPUTATION?

And here they go saying that the stuff I post in my PUBLIC blog is tarnishing THEIR REPUTATIONS. But I use ANONYMOUSES. How is anyone possibly going to find out who I am talking about?

Okay, so probably some of the people who know THEM, might FIGURE OUT that I am talking about them, but doesn't that just make the battle equal? A tie?

They got their bunch of friends who read about how they slam ME, and I've got a bunch of people reading about me slamming THEM.

One for one. So what are they complaining about?

It's FAIR. I do it, you do it too. What the hell are you complaining about?

Also, if these hypocrites wanna say that public blogs allow access to MORE people from all over the world to read the alleged reputation-tarnishing stuff I write about them, let me just say this again:

I use ANONYMOUS NAMES. Nobody in the world who doesn't know you at all is going to realise it's you and start JUDGING you.

Get it?

So leave me alone with my controversial posts and brutally honest expressions.

I never mean to TARNISH people's reputation, I only report the truth as I see it. And if my truth turns out to be wrong, I'll change it.

So until then, stop giving me shit and get the fuck outta my life.

Grrrrrr

What is the best way to lose weight?

You see, I thought committing to working at PA, standing 7 hours a day, would help me in my quest to lose weight before Chinese New Year.

But what happens instead is I gain MORE weight than when I am not working in PA, standing 7 hours a day.

Can someone tell me what kind of nonsense this is?

Is there something abnormal about my body? That even standing 7 hours doesn't help me burn fats, but instead add MORE fats to my already bursting and/or exploding figure???

Probably my weight gain is due to all the midnight supper that my mum feeds me with because quote* I'm scared that you don't eat enough mah since u stand for 7 hours woh *unquote

So you see, probably all the wan tan mee and chicken rice and loh mai gai and roti canai took their toll on me.

But I've stopped that weeks ago what!

Shouldn't I be losing weight already? I'm even STARVING myself these few days you know.

Like, I only eat a damn light dinner, and then when I go to sleep, I hear my stomach growling but I just pretend I don't hear it and force myself to sleep.

And then when I wake up the next morning, I feel damn hungry but I eat only half of what I used to eat for breakfast!

Tell me! Aren't I doing enough??!?!?!

Eating less + exercising (standing and/or running around while working in PA); isn't that like the formula to lose weight??!?!?!

What is wrong with me?????

Someone, HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know I always say...

...that I should be working happily despite the pay that I'm offered.

UPDATE!!!: KUMON vacancy already taken! Good. I don't have to think of making decisions anymore. =DDDDD

And I'm always boasting about how excited and happy I am to be working at PA.

But now I start to wonder if it's time for me to change?

You see, working at PA only gives me a maximum amount of pay of RM600 plus per month.

And besides that I get off days only rarely, and my off days are usually at weird days like a single Tuesday, or a single Thursday.

I've stuck by my job for a month now because I really have a lot of fun when I go to work. Alot of laughter, alot of challenging customers to deal with... I feel like I'm learning alot of things every single day...

Plus I'm meeting alot of new people, alot of new friends, and I feel like I have been achieving one of my 2010 resolutions bit by bit: Widen my social circle.

But I can't help but to wonder if this is the time to change?

To go after a more rewarding and relaxing job?

I mean, I'm only working now to pass my time, and to get a good rest from the hectic life of a high schooler, so shouldn't I be enjoying and resting as much as I can?

I admit, working at PA, I don't get that much rest time. Working hours are 7 per day. And only one rest day per week. Sometimes I feel like besides my working life, the rest of me is fading away.

What I'm saying is, Cherrie has been trying and trying to get me to quit my job at PA, and to come work with her at Kumon.

Because at Kumon, you only need to work three days per week. And the pay's also about RM600 plus.

And it's working with YOUR BEST FRIEND. So why aren't I taking the better offer?

Okay, let's put all these childish reasons aside, and see this from a more professional manner.

Imagine if I were to put my past jobs in my resume, which do you think the employer or whoever would be more impressed by?:

1. Part-time sales assistant at Padini Authentics
2. Teacher at KUMON Learning Centre

Obviously it's the 2nd one right?

So the question right now is this: Should I leave my current job for the Kumon one? Or should I remain in PA and continue with my happy life?

I have a very strong feeling that I'm gonna have alot of fun too working at Kumon, because I love kids, and I would have Cherrie as my colleague. But the thing is, I would miss my current colleagues alot. )=

So let's do alittle pros & cons:

Padini Authentics

Pros:

1. Meet alot of new people
2. Surrounded by clothes
3. First job, thus builds alot of memories
4. Fun
5. Exciting because dealing with the public
6. In a shopping mall
7. Convenient to buy clothes (because get to know almost all stock available)
8. Quite good pay

Cons:

1. Limited rest days
2. UNFIXED rest days
3. Not so impressive on resumes
4. Limited pay
5. Cannot work with Cherrie
6. Expensive lunch/dinner everyday
7. Working hours till very late

Kumon

Pros:

1. ALOT of rest days
2. FIXED rest days
3. Quite good pay
4. Get to interact with children!
5. Get to work with Cherrie!
6. Easy, relaxing...
7. Good on resume!
8. Not so strict
9. Cheaper variety of food, because not inside shopping malls
10. NEAR OSAKA (BEST JAPANESE RESTAURANT EVER)

Cons:

1. Have to leave my current happy PA life
2. Have to leave my current colleagues
3. Not so challenging because only have to deal with kids
4. Won't learn as much as I'm learning in PA
5. Would be quite boring (but then, with Cherrie around, IMPOSSIBLE!)
6. Not surrounded by clothes

Oh my God... HOW TO CHOOSE??!??!?!?!

I need to think this over. Gosh.

Maybe I'll go discuss this with Syafiq. I have a feeling he's gonna be a very good advisor on the subject.

Chuz.