Thursday, December 30, 2010

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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JENG JENG JENG JENGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol

But wait! Before we start, let’s first have a look at last year’s resolution and see how much I have accomplished! lol

2010 RESOLUTIONS!!!!!

  1. Be an efficient employee in PA and make everyone like working with me. (I think I accomplished this! Hehe)
  2. STOP SPENDING SO MUCH omg. (OMG did I even MAKEEEEE this resolution? I TOTALLY failed this. My gosh.)
  3. Work on helping parent(s) stop smoking. (I gave up like 3 days into the resolution. == Adults will NEVER hear you speak.)
  4. Meet guys. (TOTALLY! Winking smile)
  5. Meet hot guys. (Kind of! lol)
  6. Meet hot and nice guys. (Not bad lah… lol)
  7. Meet hot and nice guys willing to keep in touch with me. (Not bad also… lol!)
  8. Stop thinking so much about him.
  9. THINK MORE ABOUT HIM. (LOL – I succeeded! But still quite as fail because I thought about THIS other guy, which was just as bad lol)
  10. Don't cry when I get bad results for SPM. (I CRIED OMG SIA SUI x139539536 I think it was like the first time I ever cried so hard in public. lol)
  11. Keep my promises. (90%)
  12. Be more disciplined. (FAIL.)
  13. LOSE WEIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTT (lol I did lose some weight. But it doesn’t count because I didn’t lose them through efforts. They just sort of…left. lol)
  14. Fit into the shorts and tees I've been keeping since forever with the hope of finally losing enough weight to wear them!!! (SUCCEEDED!!!!!!!! 80% lol)
  15. Be grateful and be careful on what I spend. (FAIL x232483535635)
  16. HAVE NICE HAIR. (Erm. 70% I guess)
  17. Blog more often especially when I have the time! (YES!!!! Especially when I started Live Writer! Open-mouthed smile)
  18. Widen my social circle! (TOTALLY!)
  19. Be nicer to parents and show them more respect. (Erm.)
  20. Love everybody I love alittle bit more, and start loving those who I hate. (Didn’t bother to do also lol)

Now, considering I failed like about 50% of the resolutions this year, for 2011, I am going to smart up abit and only make a FEW resolutions to ensure its effectiveness. lol

So, let’s begin!

2011 RESOLUTIONS!!!!!

  1. Pay extra attention in class and do well for STPM!
  2. FULL ATTENDANCE!!!! IT’S YOUR LAST CHANCE!!!!!!
  3. Stop flirting with people you have no intention of ever being together with. :/
  4. Get over the fact that some people are going to be more popular than you, and work on your own individual ways of being well-liked!
  5. Think THOROUGHLY before doing something so that you don’t end up regretting your decisions!!!
  6. Save money OMG
  7. Lose more weight and become HOT!!!!!!!!!!!
  8. Try VERY hard to get into the Uni of my choice and don’t be lazy anymore!!!
  9. Be nicer and more helpful to all my acquaintances!!!!!
  10. Meet a nice guy willing to commit to me! Red heart

OKAY! HABIS! If got some more baru I add ok! lol

Bye!

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Silly mistakes.

Why do people make silly mistakes? And why does no one ever come out to admit that he’s done wrong, or even if he does, he’d never try to make things work like how they used to?

I remember about a few weeks ago I fell into a blunder of a misunderstanding with one of my really close friends.

The problem was simple: She thought I was insensitive; and I thought she was over-sensitive.

You know how things like this get?

Up until today, I still don’t think that what happened the other day should have earned me this lifetime conviction of the cold war she is currently giving me. What happened the other day was something purely out of my control, and if there was any other way that I could have make things turn out otherwise, I WOULD. But the fact remains that I’d run out of solutions.

And so, I took the big step, and because I really valued the friendship, I apologised to her. And I did feel sorry, for messing up the plans, even though technically I don’t think I was at fault. I was probably at fault for disappointing her, but I wasn’t at fault for causing the disappointment.

Anyway, I decided to look pass things, to make things alright, to make things normal again, and tried to forget all about this silly misunderstanding. I don’t know what is on her mind, but until today, she is still treating me as if there has been a huge wall erected between us. As if whatever happened the other day was the last straw for the intimate friendship we ever had. And that we could never go back to being close again.

I tried to remove the imaginary wall, but it was of no use. She wouldn’t let her guard down again. She wouldn’t let things go back to normal.

I don’t know what is going on in her head. If given a chance, I would really like to find out. To find out the stem of this problem, to see if what I did the other day was really what that has caused this problem between us now. Or is there some other thing that I do not know of? A mistake that I had done without being conscious?

But after thoughts and thoughts and thoughts, I figured if this is what she wants, then I should really just let her be. Yes, I miss the friendship. And it kills me to know that I was NOTHING to her, I was never a close friend, and that I was never the important person in her life like she is one in mine.

It hurts to know that someone you cared so much for, only treated you like a pile of garbage.

And what else hurts is the fact that all our mutual friends, are technically on her side of the argument. Like what I did was WRONG WRONG WRONG. And that I should be the one to wait for my apology to be accepted, instead of the one awaiting an apology.

Is this fair?

Am I really such a terrible friend? That everyone is turning their backs on me? I seriously don’t know what to think.

It makes me feel as if all the friends I’ve ever really had are not real friends at all?

I’m not going to mention names: but YOU, YOU asshole. I thought you understood me. I thought out of the many guy friends I have, you are one who will stand by my side and fight for my justice. But there you are embracing the opposing party, and ridding me from your line of friends. I’m tired of people like you. You only used me for your benefit and once you’ve won your game, you kicked me out. I wish I could fucking say this to your FACE, but really, you’re not even worth that gesture. I’m sick and tired of you and I hope you fuck off from my life.

And now, I don’t even know what I want anymore. Should I just continue to live like this, to let her wallow in her own hatred towards me, or should I step up the game and make better efforts to make things normal between us again?

But haven’t I tried enough? While she is doing NOTHING? Or is this friendship really done for?

Or does she not want the friendship back?

You know what. I think it’s only me who’s pining for the former kinship we used to have. And aren’t I stupid, when all this time, it isn’t I, who has not done enough, but only, she, for not wanting the past back?

I’m done trying you know. I really am. And now it’s your turn to prove that you’d fight for this friendship back. IF you even want this friendship back.

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On another note: I tried shisha the other day and it was awesome. I know it’s dangerous and everything and I probably shouldn’t rave about it here, but it’s so darn good. Here’s a sexy photo of me doing shisha.

And you know, I discovered something the other day: it’s actually fucking sexy to see boys do shisha. Arrrrrrrrrrr! Angry smile

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Bye.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

MA LA STEAMBOAT! + 101 BOULEVARD :DDDD

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Nyuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! Red heart The other day my sis and I went for dinner with Yan Yan, Lup Tuck and Wei Shez at a place in Puchong to eat MA LA STEAMBOAT!!!!!!!! Open-mouthed smile

Yesh yesh the name is very fascinating SO IS THE PHOTO but too bad I didn’t really enjoy the Ma La soup. :/

To me, it was a bit weird loh the taste. It was spicy and hot, but it was not that that made me dislike it. Its hotness and spiciness was tolerable, but it was the weird taste from the spice that they used in the soup that made me gag practically everytime I bit on it. Blekkkkkkkk Confused smile

But the Tom Yam soup was gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood! I added alot of spring onions and fried onions into the soup and it became very sweet, perfect for my liking. Hehe

Apart from good food, there was good company too, because we weren’t in too big a group, and everyone could just talk comfortably around each other. Open-mouthed smile

It was a veryyyyy enjoyable dinner, and satisfying too! Because for the all-you-can-eat food, we only paid like RM29 in total with drinks too! Winking smile

It was AWESOME!

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PROOOOOF! lol

After that, we went for second round to yumcha at a hang out place with lots of bistros and bars called 101 BOULEVARD!

We settled down at a sort of bistro called Vive la Vida or something and I kind of like the place! Open-mouthed smile

For one, the music they played was quite good, and the environment was just nice for yumcha. Not too quiet, and not too noisy that you have to shout across the table to talk to the person opposite you. lol

We had alot of fun snapping photos too! Rolling on the floor laughing

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Wei Shez, Yan Yan and April. Hehe

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The four girls! LOLLOLLOLLOLL

Yan Yan, Me, Wei Shez and April. Red heart

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I wore my awesome shit heels for the first time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Mine are the light blue ones. Hee hee)

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GOSSIPING!!!! lol

Lup Tuck and April. And Wei Shez and Yan Yan at the back, apparently in a very heated conversation about dunno what. lol

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Yan Yan, weird-looking April and Lup Tuck!

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Wei Shez and I. LOLLOLLOLLOLL

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April, me and Tuck. Open-mouthed smile

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Dunno laugh what leh April and Lup Tuck lol

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Snap snap snap what snap ha!!! lol

Wei Shez, Yan Yan and I (looking horribly weird but fascinatingly cute at the same time Winking smile)

After we sat for awhile camwhoring like siao, Curian, Samuel and Jason came to join us. Hehe

We went back after that at about, 2-ish? Forgot liao lah haha

But it was a very enjoyable day and I can’t wait to have more of these outings with them! Red heart

NAH! Last photo for you!

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Let you ownself decide whether I drink alcohol or not. Winking smile

BYE!

Monday, December 20, 2010

Do i LOOK LiKE dah PEter CHao?! >:D

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Lol. Okay. My entire post today has got nothing to do with Peter Chao except, you know, my shades in the above photo lol

I had the weirdest dream yesterday.

I dreamt that I died. Like not only me, but my mum, sis and a bunch of this random people too. I think we were going on this trip in the bus with a bunch of people, and somehow the bus crashed or something, and we all died. :/

Funny thing is, just about a day ago, a bus in Cameron Highlands also crashed!!! Omg and there were 26 casualties I think. Why so coincidental one!!! Scared die me!

Anyway, in my dream, we were on our way to where dead people would go I guess. It was really weird, because in my dream, I knew that I’d died, and I kind of thought about how weird it was that I was finally going to feel what death felt like…

We were gathered at this hall or something and we made up two lines. Each line of people was stood in front of this huge pipe which was hanging from the ceiling. In a few moments, person by person was climbing up these ropes that were hanging from the pipes and with incredible strength, they pulled themselves up the pipes and disappeared into wherever the pipe would lead them to.

Soon, it was my turn. Disappointed smile

I went to stand below the pipe and looked up, as if to see if I can make out where it would soon lead me to. But I only saw darkness. So with incredible strength, that even in my dream I knew I would never possess, I hoisted myself up those ropes and let the pipe suck me in.

Suddenly, after being squeezed through the pipe, and it really felt like I squeezed through it, because the opening of the pipe was really too small to fit any human in, I found myself exit the pipe, and I was lay down on some soft fluffy material. I tried to open my eyes but I couldn’t, but through my closed lids, I knew that I was in a very bright place, with very strong rays of sunlight shining on my face.

It gave me the impression that I was lying amongst clouds. Freezing

There were voices all around me speaking to me, but I couldn’t make out what they were saying.

A few moments later, I drifted away to this other new place, which was pitch black, but still I couldn’t open my eyes. This place was much colder and chillier without the warmth from the Sun. I still couldn’t open my eyes, but behind my lids, I imagined this place to be very dusty and windy, and still, I heard the same type of voices talking to me, only I didn’t understand what they were trying to say to me.

All of a sudden, I woke up and found myself in bed! Not in reality, but in my dream! I dreamt that I awoke from a dream! lol so complicated like Inception only wtf

And in my dream, I got down from my bed, and walked out to the hallway, and crossed it to check on my sis. Strangely, I didn’t immediately realise I was dreaming and didn’t actually die. What I thought was some force decided I shouldn’t die yet and sent me back to Earth, and made it seem as if I was dreaming. And so I went to check if my sis and mum were in their rooms, because if the force decided to let me reincarnate, probably my mum and sis would have been still dead.

Unless they also got a second chance from the force, but I thought that unlikely. Thinking smile

But I went into my sis’s room, and found that she was in bed sleeping soundly! And my mum too, in her own room! And then I knew that in my dream, I was only dreaming and I hadn’t really died. Somehow I felt a little bit disappointed, because I would really love to know what death felt like. Eye rolling smile

And then my dream suddenly ended. lol

I woke up after that to send a text to someone, and then I fell back asleep.

Then, I had ANOTHER weirder dream. I dreamt that Cherrie and I were at Jusco, and we were supposed to go shopping for junk food, because she was going to stay overnight at my house. After paying for all the junk we bought, we gathered everything and went to my car.

While I was driving out from Jusco’s parking lot, many, many cars suddenly appeared in the lot and the people in the car were driving their cars recklessly out of control and kept speeding in all directions!

I was freaked out! I hit a few cars and when I finally exited the parking lot, I realised my brakes weren’t working anymore! All the way back home, whenever I needed to stop the car, I had to pull the handbrake. Kinda weird now that I think about it lol

Halfway through the journey, there was a roadblock. We were stopped and had to get out of the car, because the police had got news that Malaysia was recently high with HIV cases and anyone who was tested positive had to be quarantined.

I hastily joined the line because I knew I was surely going to be tested negative and I just wanted to get things done with. When it was my turn, and Cherrie was behind me, the man opposite the counter showed us a video of me and Cherrie trying on clothes in a fitting room. The whole world saw my bra hor!!! wtf

I got very angry because there SHOULDN’T be a CCTV in any fitting room, but in my dream, Cherrie told me that it was customary and I was dumb for only finding out about it now.

I couldn’t say anything to the man opposite the counter, but he was sort of teasing me. Walaowei I wanted to claw his face off because dah lah he saw my bra, now he was teasing me about it some more! CCB

Suddenly out of nowhere, Eric appeared and he shook hands with the man opposite the counter. He seemed to be really good friends with the man, and I got a good look at his face.

It was Lup Tuck’s face wtf LOLLOLLOLLOLL but his name was dunno what Au Yin Hei or something HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH funny shit

So I told Eric that he looked shockingly like Lup Tuck but Eric ignored me and walked away. == Then later Au Yin Hei said it was time for me to get tested for HIV.

So I told him loudly, “Test mah test lah! I am not scared.”

But Cherrie quickly pulled me aside and told me she had something very important that she should have told me a long time ago. She told me I was HIV positive!!! Disappointed smile

I asked her how she could make such an accusation and she said, “Remember the clip of us in the fitting room just now?” I said yes and she said that was how I contracted HIV.

And then comprehension dawned upon me. Apparently, in my dream, HIV could be spread through the share of fitting rooms and Cherrie had been HIV positive for many years already!!!

Omg dunno what kind of stupid dream LOLLOLLOLLLLL

And then suddenly the dream stopped before I went for the test and I woke up. And I never found out if I had HIV or not, in my dream. lol

Nowadays, my head is so filled up with nonsense that even my dreams start to turn out so nonsensical. lol

And I feel like I dream all the time, and most of them are stupid, but I never remember them.

This is the most vivid one that I remember I guess. lol

Hope you enjoyed the story of my dumb dream HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Bye bye. Open-mouthed smile

Friday, December 17, 2010

Movie with my PA colleagues!

Last Wednesday, because it so happened to be Itisssss’s off day, and TGV movie night, me, Itisssssss, Fauzi, Ellynaaaaa and Syafiqqqqq were supposed to go watch movie together! Open-mouthed smile

But in the end, Ellynaaaa and Syafiqqqq backed out, and said they would join us another time and so only me, Fauzi and Itis went!

At first we almost cancelled the whole thing, because Itisssss was afraid that she wouldn’t be able to make it on time, but after that we managed to work things out and we went for Hantu Mak Limah Balik Kampung! Open-mouthed smile

That movie was not bad, super funny but in the cinema I was so cold!!! Lol Itis and I cuddled up like a ball together throughout certain parts of the movie and it felt abit warm but I was still shivering lightly from time to time. Hehe

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After the movie, we went to Andalas Cafe to chill out abit before heading home! Open-mouthed smile

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Hee hee I love her so much! Everytime I hang out with her, we laugh allll the time, we have heart to heart talks when we’re alone allllll the time and we just always have such a good time! Open-mouthed smile

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OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Red heart lol

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My limau ais, Fauzi’s teh O ais, and greedy Itis’s Milo Dinosaur!!! lol nobody believes me when I say that drink is called Milo Dinosaur leh. But it is!!!!! Eeeeeeeeeesh I am mamak queen ok. Takkan I dunno???? Hehehehe

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Because I love this photo so much, it will be featured in its maximised size!!!! LOL Red heartRed heartRed heartRed heartRed heart

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You see. Laugh again. Laugh laugh laugh laugh laugh oni!! Hee hee

After that Itis sent me back home!!! I aimed a very thorough lecture at her about driving safely because she reported that she had more than once fell asleep while driving before!!! Omg!!! That girl hor… Like that also can meh!!!

So I scolded her and told her to be more careful when she drives and please take care of herself!!!

Then I told her after she sent me back, when she reached home already please let me know but she told me her phone no credit. ==

So I had to wait about 15 minutes after she sent me back to call her and see if she was ok!

And when I called her she was safe and sound and so I went to bed feeling very happy. Hehe

Can’t wait to go out with my colleagues again, especially Itis! Red heart

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I BOUGHT NEW SHADES FROM COTTON ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hehehehehee RM5 oni!! Power or notttt lolllllllllllllllll

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Bye bye! Winking smile