Omg.

Today we went to school in a strangely cold weather. I mean, we were so used to the scorching heat of the recent days that the cold and windy morning came as quite a surprise to us.

So in BM class, everyone was like practically restraining hard from falling asleep.

But there was this person in class who just like, popped her head on the table top and slept.

I mean, how disrespectful can you get?

The teacher was just standing there in front of her, teaching as usual and she had the courtesy to just sleep with her head resting on her arm.

And then while the class went on, I am pretty sure she kind of started snoring too, RIGHT IN CLASS.

And as if that isn’t bad enough, she started DROOLING.

OMG.

She drooled on and on, but apparently, she did not notice that Niagara Falls was coming out of her slightly agape mouth.

It was horrible!!! The saliva came down like not drop by drop, but it was kind of in a flow!!!

YUCK!!!

As she was sleeping so soundly, the teacher, being the kind and thoughtful teacher she is always known to be, just let her sleep peacefully until class ended.

But about 5 mins before the bell rang, that lazy pig woke up with a jolt and looked around blurrily as if angry because someone had disrupted her sleep.

She took a few seconds to regain her composure and that was when she realised that her arm was kind of drenched in her own saliva.

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

I mean, it was wet and you could clearly see the stains and patches of the water on her sleeve wtf?!

Fuck disgusting can!!!

And then she quickly wiped off the saliva on her arm with her skirt and pretended that everything was normal!

Gosh and it was saliva goddammit. It must have emanated some stinky smell too.

So when the bell finally rang, she gathered her things and walked out of class as if nothing was out of the blue.

I’m quite sure many people saw her drooling while she slept and noticed the saliva flood that came down her arm too.

And I swear this whole account is 100% true and I did not make anything up.

How embarrassing!

And you know what’s even more embarrassing?

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That person was me.

FML.

I really miss Fifi.

And I can't tell this to him, or even post this in Facebook because then he'd see it.

And so I can only post this in my blog.

It is so hard to have to refrain from writing or expressing what I really feel inside.

It is even harder when I have to hide that every night when I am in bed, my mind flashes back to all the memories we've ever had together and I can't help but to cry myself to sleep.

And it is the hardest when I have to pretend to be okay and pretend as if everything is alright when I'm around people.

I wonder if he misses me too, and if he even thinks about me sometimes?

What is on his mind?

What is he thinking?

Where is this going to end?

Where are we taking this?

I guess these are things that I will never find out...

Tidak ke mana,
Akan kucari,
Rasa cinta yang pernah kumiliki...
Janji setia, sehidup semati,
Hanya waktu yang memisahkan kita...
Namun semua,
Telah berakhir...untukku...

Harus kuakui, sampai detik ini,
Tak akan kulupa,
Kisah cinta kita,
Abadi untukmu,
Yang kuukir indah...namamu...

:'(

COLOURS!

I actually have something very interesting to post but I promised Wani that we will both do a twin post today in our blogs about colours to make-up for that fact that we haven’t updated our blogs in such a long time lol.

So this is Wani’s blog.

Today in PP (Business) class Cik Chew told us about how there are actually colours which represent certain personalities of people and so she kind of evaluated each of our personalities and guessed our favourite colours.

She got some of the girls’ favourite colours right and she guessed mine very correctly too! (PINK) lol

So I went online to search for the colour personality thing, and this is what I found! :

From : http://www.shvoong.com/social-sciences/psychology/1593795-colour-personality/

BLACK : Demand a calm environment, free of conflict and disagreement. Prefer natural to artificial. Capable of being comfortable in conditions that would bother others. Not easily disconcerted. Enjoy attention, but are unsure of how to handle it.

At one point of my life, I used to like black alot, and I guess I still do, but only in certain things, but I don’t really find this explanation correct. I mean, first of all, when I was a fan of black colour, I was kind of in the punk rock phase (don’t judge!!! It happens to everyone!!! Don’t deny!!!) and I kind of liked drama and chaos and everything. So I don’t really get the free of conflict and disagreements part. But the last sentence is quite accurate because I did like attention (still do actually lol) and was more often than not quite unsure of how to handle it (unfortunately, still am too fml)

BLUE : Enjoy a peaceful environment in which to relax and appreciate life. Have a refined sense of beauty. Capable of persisting against all odds when determined to reach a goal. Intent on establishing a personal attitudinal framework within goal accomplishment.

Never liked blue. Bleargh.

BROWN : Natural and easy-going, prefer a calm environment. Attracted to the outdoors. Have a refined sense of beauty. Rather conservative with well-ordered mind, not attracted to the bizarre. Not entertained by fads or styles, comfortable with current value system.

Cherrie really likes brown currently but really??? Prefer a calm environment??? I don’t think so lol but she IS attracted to the outdoors, has a refined sense of beauty and the following following statements. So I guess this is quite right.

GRAY : Enjoy a calm environment. Easy-going and original, will try anything once. Gentle, relaxed, and self-assured; capable of being everyone’s friend. Have an eye for the aesthetic a good team player. Constantly reappraising own situation though might appear as self-possessed.

GREEN : Very strong-willed and determined, can accomplish much when left alone and undisturbed. Easy-going and original, capable of relaxing and enjoying the finer things in life. Have an eye for art. Diligent and persevere in life.

PURPLE : Very spontaneous; have a quick and original mind that knows no boundaries. Comparatively conservative and appreciate beautiful surroundings, especially in nature. Relaxed and self-assured. A good team player. Have unique, unusual tastes, but quite comfortable among more conservative peers.

RED : Possess incredible will-power, capable of overcoming obstacles that would stop others. Enjoy a pleasant and colourful environment. Capable of bursts of high energy spontaneity, though generally more "laid back". Energetic and interested in many areas of life. Capable of accomplishment when consciously focused and persistent.

YELLOW : An original and powerful thinker, capable of overcoming great obstacles. Easy-going and enjoy the finer things in life, with an eye for art. Calm and relaxed, often the one who try not to "rock the boat". Love to search for new ideas, methods and styles; can be very productive when focused on a course of action.

(kenot use yellow font la later you kenot read)

Very interesting right??? So did you choose your colour and read about your matching personality?

Was it correct?

But I only have one question for this thing though : WHERE’S THE PINK COLOUR PERSONALITY???

I texted him about a million I love yous.

And he’s written back saying the same thing, but with the additional message that he still thinks it might be better for us to take a break, as he needs the liberty to sort out his life before he makes another commitment again.

I said I would support him no matter what decisions he makes, but what he doesn’t know is how much I am actually hurting.

Or maybe he does know this, and he isn’t backing down from his decision because he has already made up his mind.

Maybe I am not as important to him as he is to me.

But that’s fine… Not everyone puts their boyfriend above herself like I do.

I cannot believe the amount of tears that I have produced these few days.

It is as if I have never cried before in my entire life. I have been crying every single day since Saturday, and each crying session lasts for about 20 minutes and each day I cry about 7 times.

I know right? How weak the human race is.

Or maybe it’s just me.

The fact is, I love him very much. And I never thought that a day would come when we would have to split up.

I have envisioned our relationship past many anniversaries; that’s how confident I was about this relationship, even with all the arguments and disagreements.

The thing is, even though he isn’t very attached to me, he’d always been very possessive and firm about this relationship.

That’s why when the topic of splitting up came up, I broke down.

I know he needs time, and I am willing to give him that.

But I just want him to realise how much I really do love him, and how much he actually loves me too.

And that we could work out if we would just try again.

Very eventful and photo-worthy days…

…but sadly I DID NOT TAKE ANY PHOTOS! Sorry! :X

But I am still going to tell you about them so don’t worry ok! I swear they’ll be about 20% as interesting as if I had taken photos.

20% also enough la right??? Right???

1) COULD NOT SLEEP LAST NIGHT

I don’t know what is wrong with me. I mean, my average sleeping time this whole 2 weeks of holidays is what, 430am? and so yesterday I tried to go to bed early (by early I mean like 4am lol) but I just couldn’t fall asleep!!! fml

My eyes were very tired and like, hurting, especially the bottom part of my eyes, so I dismissed that as finally feeling sleepy before 430am.

So I went to bed, turned off the lights and everything, but my brain just would not shut off. ==

As opposed to if I usually like went to bed at 430am, even without my eyes feeling all sleepy, I would still be conked out in 5 mins flat.

So then I tried to figure what I did and what I drank and then I remembered I had woken up at 230pm that day and continued a short nap from 4-630pm lol

No wonder my brain would not shut off. But what did it have to do with my eyes getting all tired and painful?

Hmm…

2) I MISS MY BOYFRIEND

We had a fight prior to his going back to the stupid Hutan (UiTM Jengka) which was the biggest fight we’ve ever had.

And it was also one of the most terrible and crazy experiences of my life which included me sitting out at the balcony at like 2am because I just needed to breathe (because I couldn’t stop crying), staying out by the playground all alone till 430am and my mum had to come and try to get me to go home because she was fuck worried both for my safety and mental state and also me encountering a homeless stranger sleeping on one of the benches in the playground O.O

But then the thing with me and Fifi is, we don’t like to argue, so sometimes we’d just look past what that has happened and things would go back to normal.

And so that was what happened and now things are as good as they can be.

But I really, really miss him and how come it feels like I haven’t seen him for so long? It feels like I haven’t had his hand in mine for a very long time already. And I know he misses me too, so PLEASEEEE hurry up and come homeeee T____T

3) PLUMBER FIXED BROKEN PIPE

He came and started drilling all noisily at like 2pm and disturbed my peaceful sleep. Zzz

But thank God he came! I swear if I had to stand around worrying if water would splash out from the pipe again, I would die.

And at one point my Mum knocked on the door and told me she was going to leave the house for a moment to go to the ATM to get money to pay the plumber and said if I heard any weird commotion outside I should go and check out and made sure the plumber did not leave with our stuff. (you never know)

So I grumpily said ok and went back to bed.

But amidst the drilling and everything, the noisiness suddenly stopped for about 5 mins and then after that continued as normal. I figured maybe the plumber went for a pee or something and so I just comfortably went back to sleep.

And when I woke up, my Mum was just back and the plumber was gone.

And I suddenly looked to the sofa and discovered that my LAPTOP WAS GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I clearly remembered that I had left it on the sofa last night but WHERE WAS IT NOW??!??!

I looked around like a crazy person and a million things were running through my mine like the plumber took it!!! Omg do I have like personal stuff in them like photos of me and my boyfriend???? What am I going to do??? Where am I going to get the money to get a new laptop??? WHO IS THAT GUY I AM GOING TO TRACK HIM DOWN! and then I turned to my Mum to ask her if she had seen my laptop and then suddenly it hit me :

To go check in my sister’s room and true enough I found my laptop lying prettily on my sis’s bed. And that is because apparently my Mum was even more paranoid than me and had hidden my laptop in my sis’s room even before the plumber came. LOL

And then I felt bad in the end because we are not supposed to think the worst of everyone and just because even though sometimes we might want some things which are expensive which are lying around which are so easily to be taken, that does not automatically make us thieves right?

I mean, everyone might want expensive things, but not everyone is a thief.

4) MUMMY TAPAO-ED CRAB!

Because she was to go for a seafood dinner with her friends and I didn’t want to tag along because what WOULD I have to talk to them about and it would be super awkward and I couldn’t be assed to get up and do my make-up so when she asked me if I would like anything, I said CRABS because fml I’ve been watching CRABS on AFC so many times and never got to eat it.

So Mum tapao-ed 1kg of crab home which was the minimum amount she had to order and I FINISHED THAT 1KG OF CRAB ALL ON MY OWN. O.O

I know I am siao and crazy and whatever lah I also kenot believe I ate so much CRAB! O.O

But they were so good!!! KAM HEONG AND FRESH AND JUICY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA would eat them again now if there were more crabs!!!

5) HANG OUT WITH CHERRIE AND SALLY TOMORROW!

I am so excited! We are going to 88 for BBQ steamboat at Bukit Tinggi then after that we will go to Aeon to check out if Cotton On is open yet and if it isn’t we can berpiket around lol and then after that we will meet up with Mae Vin and Xin Yi who unfortunately can’t join us for the dinner because they have a wedding dinner to attend!

Of their old school mate! Who is our age! O.O

And I am 19.

Isn’t that so scary? I mean, I’ve heard these stories from when my sis was 19 but now I’m at that age where these things are happening to people of my age!

It’s so scary to have to shoulder the burden of having a baby when I still feel like a baby at my current age wtf

Imagine how she must feel. I mean, considering she is smart enough to have used a condom and this pregnancy is just an accident lah.

If she isn’t (smart enough to use a condom) then erm I don’t feel as much respect or sympathy for you hor, because CONDOMS! Use them if you want to have sex with your boyfriend lah zzz

If don’t want to use condom or can’t get access to condoms then just have foreplay or like make out lah, why go all the way??? Well, now you have to suffer the consequences. :/

Okay back to the topic at hand, after we meet Xin Yi and Mae Vin, depending on the time, we will either go to Tutti Frutti or mamak!

And then at night after sending Sally home, Cherrie, Xin Yi and Mae Vin will stay overnight at my house and the next morning we will go swimming!

Oh, wait, I just remembered, Cherrie changed the plan and said, mamak first then the next day after swimming only go for Tutti Frutti!

GOOD THINKING! I kenot wait!

Sorry I wasted your time reading all this nonsense lol but thank you anyway!

BYE!

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

Hello guys! I know have been updating very frequently these days *applause applause*

But today does not count as an update but just a very self-centred post which consists of………………….

A DISGUSTING ARRAY OF PHOTOS OF ME!

Okay so my photos are not disgusting, but the fact that I am posting this whole streak of them kind of is.

But I don’t care.

I work very hard to put on the right clothes and right make-up everyday  and so I deserve to have an entire blog post with my photos!

Now I picked out the photos that I think I look best in and since they are arranged according to the time they were taken, I can see how much I have changed over time!

This is the latest one of course, as you can see from the very pretentious way I sweep all my hair to one side of my face to depict sexiness or something lol

I realise that my photos with Tutti Fruitti always turn out pretty cute!

Or in shades.

Before clubbing.

Told you!

Or when my face is like half missing from the photo lol

This looks cute even with minimal make-up

Tutti Fruitti makes me cute!

Ghost.

Super duper act cute with practice-clubbing make-up lol

Now, I used to think that this photo is very nice but now that I look at it I feel like wtf it’s fuck ugly but I’m putting it up anyway because for some reason Fifi seems to like this photo very much and always has it as his phone’s wallpaper O.o

But of course if he is infatuated with me (even when I’m looking my worst) that makes me feel very loved!

This is also another photo which looked much better months ago and to me looks super horrible now but Fifi seems to also like it O.o

Does this mean he likes the way I look before (ugly) better? T_____T

Act cool and I love my red nails.

And I’m putting this photo up because it is the photo in Fifi’s wallet and everytime he opens it to take out his IC or money or whatever this is the face he sees so this face has to be immortalised in a blog post to preserve it’s importance lololllolololol

Why am I so nonsense lol

Anyway I hope you enjoy

1) lusting/complimenting/fapping (KIDDING!) over my photos if you think I am kind of cute *act humble

2) complaining/bitching about me if you think I am very ugly and self-centred lol

BYE!

 

PS : The photos resolution in this post is relatively smaller than usual because I think seeing my face so big so many times also will make anyone puke so I’m saving you from that lollolollol

Have you guys seen this?

I saw this on E! just now but I didn't manage to wait till I heard the guy sing, but then I saw that someone posted this on Facebook so I watched it!

What blew me away was not Sung Bong's incredible singing talent, and he IS incredibly talented, but the fact that - get this guys - he started living ALONE since he was five!

HELLO! FIVE YEARS OLD GUYS! Can you believe it?

He was left at the orphanage when he was 3, and because he suffered abuse there, he ran away from the orphanage when he was 5. O.O

He survived by selling gums or energy drinks on the street and slept in public toilets and stairs for about 10 years!

Can you process that? Can you believe this incredible kid?

Can you even remember how you were when you were 5? Did you even know how to shower on your own? Let alone live and work to earn money for food?

And besides everything, can you believe he did all the without having any parental or adult guidance?

He lived like that for about 10 years, he suffered and learned everything on his own.

And he even managed to go to school, I don't know how he did that, but he did.

And imagine living outside for so long, and there's no one there to teach you anything, or even how to speak, and he is still able to speak so coherently and have manners?

And you think YOUR life is hard?

And he even sings so well!

He really showed me a new light on what suffering really means. Seriously!

He makes me cower in shame because I keep complaining about the pettiest things. *embarrassed

I hope he wins Korea's Got Talent and be the great singer he so aspires to be!

Way to go Sung Bong! I SUPPORT YOU! Caiyok caiyok!!!

MY HOUSE IS FLOODED!

Okay I know I keep saying that and I keep erm exaggerating lol

But my house did get flooded!!!

Okay let me tell you guys the story.

We were just home from Ahyi’s (my aunt) house after having super yummy mi hun ge dinner, and so I was just lounging around watching TV.

And while I was watching Masterchef Australia and they were about to announce the winning team for the team challenge, suddenly I heard some super loud splashing sound coming from the kitchen??? (The kitchen in my house, not the Masterchef kitchen lol)

It was drizzling outside just now, and I thought the splashing was because it suddenly changed into heavy rain.

But it was weird because the sound only came from THAT part of the kitchen and not anywhere else???

So I went into the kitchen to find out what was wrong and to my horror WATER WAS SPLASHING DOWN FROM A HOLE IN THE PIPE!!!

THE HOLE!

Obviously in this photo the water had stopped splashing down but I swear before that it was TERRIBLE!

It was splashing like freaking Niagra Falls and I panicked and so I just removed everything in the laundry part and got pails to kind of collect the water to prevent the place from being flooded!

TOO LATE!

THE LAUNDRY PART OF MY HOUSE WAS ALREADY FLOODED ANYWAY. O.O

So I looked for the little hole where water goes down, and to my horror (again) I discovered that the hole was situated right UNDER where the water was splashing down which meant if I wanted to open the cover of the hole I HAD TO BE UNDER THE SPLASHING WATER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Which explains this :

FML x400000 (put star because my face very ugly lol)

I WAS DRENCHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What’s worse :

LOOK AT THE WATER THAT SPLASHED ONTO MY HAIR!!!!!!!

ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Murky, brownish, dirty horrible water which I didn’t (still don’t) even know originated from where!!!!!!

FML x5000000

Can you believe that water on your hair???

And I just washed my hair before going out to my aunt’s for crying out loud!

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And because she discovered that the water was so disgusting, my sister stood around not wanting to near the water!

And so I had to be the one to get in contact with the EW water and to prevent it from flooding the whole house!!!

Which means :

MORE WATER ON MY HAIR AND CLOTHES AND BODY FML x6000

The only three useful things she did was :

1) Call Mum to come home right away

2) Keep laughing at me because I was so wet

3) Point out that I had a friend who suffered the same fate as me too :

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH

Poor feather duster was drenched too HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

So cute!!! Like a dog or cat or some furry pet just after bath…

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA omg I can’t stop laughing LOLLOLLOLOLL

Not cute meh? lol

Okay, so luckily the water kind of became less strong after that and stopped entirely for the night or imagine the suffering we would have had to endure to keep the house from being flooded. ==

Phew! What a day.

I was so scared when the water started pouring that right after I put all the pails and opened the hole on the floor for water to flow out that I immediately called Fifi for comfort.

BUT HE DIDN’T ANSWER HIS PHONE! t______t

Cos he was at gym!!!

Eeeeeessshhhhhh. But thankfully when I tried to call my friend Pojie to complain, he was there to answer and make fun of me. ==

He asked if I was the one who bit the pipe broken all seriously because he said I am a dinosaur!!! RAWRRRRR

Can’t wait for the plumber to quickly come and fix the pipe! (he couldn’t come today because according to my sis he balik kampung lol)

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BABY RYAN!

Super awesome Big Apple donut!

TIP : Heat up your donut in the microwave oven for like 15 sec if it has been in the fridge and about 10 sec if it’s in room temperature and enjoy the most awesome gooey and soft and delicious donut you have ever tasted in your life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good supper! Fuji apple and green apple!

Got a sad story to tell.

I was like in the bathroom, showering and erm shaving and I accidentally shaved my nail!!!

And there was this huge scratch on my pretty painted nails and it kept snagging on my hair when I was trying to wash my hair!!!

So I got super angry and like peeled the whole thing off my finger!!! O.O

Okay, so only the top part came off but I still had to wash off the nail colour to save it.

See the white thing on my ring finger?

My pretty nail became so ugly.

Luckily now I painted it a very pretty pale pink and it looks fine!

Though the tip of it is still like chipped and ugly.

(see the part where it’s chipped and uneven? )

Last photo before I sign off!

Okay cheat one got another photo :

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LET YOU VOMIT BEFORE YOU GO! HAHAHAHAHHAAAAHAHAHAH