Tang Jo-Yee. Inside and Out. :)

I am very upset. I realise something really wrong with me.

I don't think I look ugly. I think I look nice. Because I like to dress up. And eventhough I am HUGE for my age, I don't think I look extra mean or whatever. No maybe I do, but I refuse to acknowledge that. I don't want to look mean or ugly. I don't want to intimidate anyone with my looks. I am a nice person. I am also a person who looks nice. At least what I think la.

But the thing is, I realise I look very ugly in school. In school, I pull back my hair in this low pony tail (because high pony tails require very tight and strong rubberbands which can damage my hair), I have my glasses on, my school uniform is freaking hideous, I can't wear no accessories, all that. So you can totally get my point. And oh yea, also the huge white blocks we call school shoes.

I seriously think people who have only met me in school all got the shock of their lives when they saw me outside of school, with my normal clothes and all that. :D

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Because I look very different in my school outfit and my normal outfit. I don't think they believed that both are the same person. Haha.

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Not that I am saying I look very hot in normal clothes, but I do look better in them. Because, I wear my contacts instead of my glasses, I put down my hair (though dry, but you know, still straight and looks nice), normal tee and shorts, sometimes shoe or sandals, an oversized handbag (I love! :D) and I strut around acting like I am God. HAHAHAHA. No I don't.

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So I am really upset that I can't look the way I look in normal clothes in school. And I have to look ugly for all of my schooling years. And sadly, school is where I spend most of my time. So this image of me looking really bad is instilled in all of my friends' and teachers' minds. Which is sad. Very sad.

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Well, just to justify what I say here, here are some pictures of how different I look in school and out of school.

I am the second from the right top. See how weird I look?

Am the one in the sky blue tee. Eeeeeeee.

I look like a huge balloon that's about to explode.

The middle one: Total retard.
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BUT

I am not always like that, okay? I do not have a self-esteem problem. I know I look just fine. But sometimes it's sad to see yourself in pictures where you look really weird or ugly, or like the picture above: Total retard.

And THEN, it's really nice to see yourself in pictures where you actually look good! :D

Me with my shades! I miss them! I accidentally broke them. I think. Cos when I wanted to wear them last Saturday, I found out there were cracks. :(

Camwhoring! :D :D :D

Look how soft I look in this picture? I am not the mean, angry and scary girl, okay? I am nice. :D :D :D

Camwhoring in this really nice stripe Balen sweater/sommat I mentioned in the last post! :D

Camwhoring again. Hahahaha. I think this is my favourite outfit in my whole closet. :D

At closer inspection, I look kinda weird in this shot. But whatever. Loooove my straight hair! :D
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I know it's really vain and self-absorbed of me to be posting this, but it's fun! Hahaha. I am not self-centered, but I like to talk about myself! :D :D :D But of course not to the extent that it annoys people la. :D

And also to those people who thinks that I am ugly, don't la. :( I look kinda nice, kan??? :D :D :D
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So girls and boys out there! Don't feel upset and think that you are ugly or you don't look nice. Just tell yourself, you haven't found the right clothes or the right hair that suits you. :) Because that is totally the truth!

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Nobody is born ugly or gorgeous, you just need the right pair of outfit to make yourself look awesome and then you need the right pair of eyes to see your hotness! :D And starting with your own!

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Cos really, nothing is hotter than someone who is confident with how she/he looks. :)

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So, good luck dressing up, people! :D

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Ciao!

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