Tuesday, June 30, 2009
VIEW IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't want any of you to miss it so here's the link: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZEE YENG!!!!!!!!!!!
Also also,
I AM NOT SELECTED FOR NATIONAL SERVICE!!!!!!!!!!!
I have yet to determine my feelings about this so I am not going to put any emoticons there.
Those 1992 who want to check can send
PLKN SEMAK *your IC number*
to 15888
or check at the website http://www.khidmatnegara.gov.my/interaktif.asp
UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh my God I think this is only for first batch le! If you all remember, about a few months ago, there was also a date released for those who wanted to check if they were selected for the Siri7/2008 batch! That means every three months we will have to check!
If you are not selected now, there is a possibility that you might be selected for the remaining two batches!
I'm always the one who's wrong, aren't I?
And it’s difficult right now for me to go to school, because so much has happened. Especially between me and my friends. It’s a very difficult situation for me to deal with, even though I may seem to be able to take everything in my stride. But that is not true. They don’t know the hurt and pain I feel. They don’t know how this has affected me.
Every night I lie in bed, thinking of what might have been. Could things have been better if I decided upon A instead of B? Could things have been better if I had not taken the wrong route of sending that fateful SMS?
But uptil now, I still do not think that I have done anything wrong. I am sorry.
Misunderstanding me is one thing. Assuming you are right is another.
I don’t usually write these types of posts anymore, if you realise, but right now, I don’t know. I just feel like I have to write this. I’ve never felt so upset in my life before. Why couldn’t have things been NORMAL instead of all these drama?
I miss going to church, smiling to every single person, planning on shopping trips to Sunway Pyramid. I hate it the way it is now, where I have to keep considering my actions, afraid that I might spark anger in my friends. Going to Church? It makes me paranoid because I’m afraid of being judged. Afraid of being perceived as what I am not.
W50 are nice people. But nice people make mistakes sometimes. And apart from my school friends, friends who I trust completely, W50 are my next closest friends. I don’t want them to judge me based on consequences or situations. They need to know me for who I am. Not what have been said about me.
Cherrie trusts me. And right now, that is more than enough for me. But as time passes, would I be able to stay as calm as I am now? Would I be able to take it if the world stops trusting me?
No. I would not.
Maybe there are hidden things which occurred that I know nothing of, during the argument which fuelled such hatred towards me. Maybe there are things which have been unclearly stated, tilting me to the side of the one who is at fault.
But who would listen to me? Who would trust me?
I hate this feeling. I HATE THIS FEELING.
Someone please save me.
*Yes, you may assume that I am begging for sympathy. Assume me anyway you want, I do not care. That’s what all people do anyway, when an argument involves me.
I’m the one at wrong. I‘m the one who should be punished. Even if I had done nothing wrong, I should still be punished anyway because when juxtaposed to my peers, I am the more menacing and mean looking one. The rest are nice, innocent people who even if they make mistakes are forgivable because they look so angelic as compared to me, looking like a beast.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Just a short take...
But I am feeling damn tired and exhausted. I'm actually feeling quite nauseated. You know, the feeling you get when you are just about to fall sick? So I'm gonna blog later la.
Gosh, I hope it is not H1N1 because I've heard rumours saying there's one H1N1 case in KLANG PARADE!!!!!!!!!!!
So near me!
Gosh, so ciao!
Friday, June 26, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZEE YENG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (sorry for the late post la) :D
Sally.
HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay la, Heng Sue May (HSM).
My Ahmad!!!!!!!!!! Hahahahaha. Vee Thin la. ;)
Ashley!
Only because she didn't realise what we had in mind!!!! Okay she did know what we planned to do - which is the tradition in EVERY SINGLE birthday party we have - CAKE-FACE RITUAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahahahahaha, but I guess she didn't think we were actually SERIOUS to get her face all smeared in CAKE! :D Hahahahahahahahaha!
Is it just me or does Zee Yeng look EXTRA cute with cake on her face??? Haha! :D
Mae Vin and I. I chose this photo because
You can vaguely see my grey contacts! :D Which is the reason I even posted these photos in the first place HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
The self-claimed Princess and Mae Vin!
Ashley and Michelle. (:
Sally and Cherrie! :D
LUCKILY Zee Yeng bought extra cake or not we wouldn't have cake to eat because of the Cake-face ritual! :D :D :D Unless you want to eat Zee Yeng's face-germs la. :D
A photo dedicated to the Princess of the day. Ahem.
Zee Yeng got something on her wishlist!!!!! FULL-LENGTH MIRROR!!!!! Hahahahahahaha.
HAPPY SEVENTEENTH ZEE YENG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
So that wraps up this very long post because this very irresponsible and big-time procrastinator 2009 SPM candidate needs to go and complete her homework which was supposed to be done since decades ago! :D
Selangor Darul Ehsan, Malaysia
Contact No.: 019-2135807 (no prank calls please)
NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I refuse to believe this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please leave me alone now while I try to comprehend this.
And also to wallow in my grief.
:'(
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
2009 Mid Terms results
So here are my results!
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I got STRAIGHT As!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yays!!! I want to thank my teachers for all their guidance, my Mum for constantly nagging me to stop blogging and go study, my friends, particularly Cherrie who has taught me so many things I have never heard before in class because she heard them all from tuition. Without all of you I wouldn't have achieved such pretty results for my Mid Terms!
Okay fine I lied. That picture is not my results slip for Mid Terms. I did abysmally bad for my Mid Terms because well, I didn't do much studying. Period. The picture above is actually my First Standardised test results.
So my real results are, as BAD as they can get:
BM - 84% A1
ENG - 82% A1
MATH - 73% A2 (yes, you may kill me)
+MATH - 60% B4 (thank God for Puan Badariah, 5 Science 1 girls will understand what I mean)
BIO - 45% Gosh I don't even know what grade this is! I swear I have never gotten this low for ANY exam before! (so embarrassing but serves me right for not studying properly!)
CHEM - 62% B4 (you may also kill me over this)
PHY - 62% B4 (DO IT NOW. KILL ME!!!!)
EST - 70% A2 (PHEW!)
SEJ - 75% A2 (I did moderately well for my Paper 2, but I FAILED my Paper 1)
MORAL - 80% A1 (PHEWWWW!!!!!!!!!)
PJK - 82% A1
SIVIK - 98% A1 (hahahahahahahahahahahahaha)
Please don't laugh at me. I am feeling very inadequate and depressed now. My ego is bruised and all I want to do is hang myself upside down on the ceiling fan. I am actually serious.
So I guess I really deserve what I got this time round, for not studying. Except for maybe Biology. Because remember that Biology Quiz scandal the other day - OMG I JUST REALISED I HAVE NOT BLOGGED ABOUT THAT! I will do that one of these days - I think she really hates me now. And then in my Paper 2, it seems that all she did was 'X' my answers, it's as if she didn't even read them. Because I SWEAR there were answers where I deserved at least some points. But I didn't dare to go claim the points from her because she's freaking popular with making up excuses and not admitting her mistakes (ask any of her students). So I just told myself that I would work hard for my SPM and since she wouldn't be the one MARKING my papers, it wouldn't be too much of a problem for me to score. Hopefully.
Amen.
Sigh. I need to study man, I really do. I need to catch up with my academic responsibilities! Or not I will surely DIE! I am the one of the school's Pelajar Harapan (or so I've been told) for God's sake! If this is how (one of) SMK (P) Bukit Kuda's Pelajar Harapan is going to perform, then I think I SERIOUSLY do not deserve that title.
I am such a roller-coaster don't you think? At one point I am at a high position and then just within moments I could plunge to the deepest lowest possible state.
I really need to buck up.
Ciao.
PS> Andrew made us write out our results in a little paper and pass it to him. I wonder what he's gonna do about them?
Sunway Pyramid!!!!!!!!!!!
Ahem. Camwhoring in the car. :D :D :D
Oh! Sister also want to camwhore! :D
And then we went to Asian Avenue (not on purpose but everytime you walk around SP somehow you JUST end up in AA don't you think) and we could not resist TAKOYAKI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've got like a THOUSAND of her shots in this pose in my phone because she kept saying she wasn't satisfied with the picture. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh. And I thought I was the Queen of camwhores.
I only needed one shot. :P Probably cos
CANWHORE ON THE WAY BACK HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I did end up getting some things. One bottle cover for my bottle which cover is broken (ahem. Ugly sentence) which DID not even FIT the bottle. Eeeeeeeesh. Waste my Rm3.90 only. And then and then and then and then the other thing that I got is...................................................
CLOSE UP! :D :D :D Jor don't pay attention to my pimple and bad skin la okay. Look at my EYES! :D :D :D So pretty right! DON'T LOOK AT MY BAD SKIN!!!!! DON'T. LOOK. AT. MY. BAD. SKIN!!!!!!! (eventhough it is quite in your face) PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE