Just another post!

Not much to say today. Well, actually I have alot to say. But I'm feeling so I don't know, flushed right now, I don't think I wanna talk about it.

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Anyways, I went shopping yesterday at Mid Valley! :D I actually went to KL to collect my log books, so I figured, since I was at KL, might as well make full use of my visit there. So I decided to go shopping in Mid Valley! :D

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At first I planned to go alone, and I was really excited cos it would be the first time I ever went bus/train-hopping and shopping alone, without parental guidance or friends accompanying me, it kind of made me feel mature and independent! :D But in the end, I figured it would be mean to not call my friends to go shopping with me and also, I knew having my friends with me would be totally fun, so I asked them if they wanted to come with! :D

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And surprisingly, all of them wanted to come! Even Seow Wei who was actually supposed to rush back to Klang for tuition, skipped her tuition just to come with us! I was so happy! :D Somehow in the end, over some reason, Cherrie decided that she didn't want to come anymore, and just left without even explaining the reason. Whatever. She told me her reason later afterwards but it was kind of lame, but I didn't pursue, so I just dismissed it. :P So, Seow Wei, Mae Vin, Xin Yi and I went shopping! :D :D :D

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And I tell you, Seow Wei was so fun to hang out with for shopping! She is so funny and cute! We usually hung out in school and for Guide stuff and we seldom asked her to join us for shopping, cos before BAKP, we were kind of in different cliques, but now we're so close, I really, really like her! :D After shopping she told us to invite her whenever we went shopping and funny cos that was what I was about to tell her too! :D

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I really loved this Mid Valley trip, I had lots of fun. :)

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Okay, so just now I had a little SMS confrontation or, erm, discussion with Cherrie regarding her well, very insensitive behaviour recently. I told her she was being very rigid with our friendship lately and all that and so it progressed and became this sort of heart-to-heart talk. We told each other honestly what we were facing, the reason behind the hurtful stuff we had been doing to each other and all that. It was a very intense conversation.

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I repeat, very intense.

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So well, I guessed it is all over now. I mean, there wasn't really a deal in the first place, just small sensitive matters, not like it would tear our friendship apart or whatever. But I think we needed the talk. I think Cherrie needed it more than I did though. :)

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But, I would also like to know the culprit who read my blog posts and asked Cherrie if we were fighting. It made Cherrie cry because she was so confused an she thought that many people hated her! I mean, I don't hate Cherrie! I've said it very clear! I don't hate anyone! In fact, I love Cherrie!

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But I guess there might be people who dislike Cherrie out there, cos I think Cherrie is sometimes very insensitive about the things that she says. Sometimes they are hurtful, but Cherrie made clear that she wasn't trying to hurt anyone, and she promised to be careful when talking in future.

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But also, I think most people who hate her are just jealous of her. Cos she's really good in studying, holds high posts in her clubs and stuff, bla bla bla...... all that crap, so it isn't really any wonder people would talk bad stuff behind her back in envy.

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But she's a nice person, really. If you think she's a bad person, you just don't know her enough. And whatever those people say about Cherrie having changed to become really arrogant are just a bunch of sensitive liars. Cherrie has not changed. She's still the Cherrie I've known almost half my life and loved.

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Okay. And you know what? I feel really pathetic. I feel like a loser, an asshole and a defeated bitch. Cos you know what?

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I have never wanted to hear someone's voice so badly before. Never.

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But right now, I want so badly to hear................

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Maybe it's true what Mae Vin says. About socially retarded girls and boys.

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But I'm trying really hard to come to my senses and stop thinking so much about it.

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I'm really trying.

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I'm just upset that it doesn't seem to be working.

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Ciao.

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