Don't Touch Me.

I don't know why I am in such a bad mood today, but I am. I have never been so lonely before in my life. And it's not as if nobody invited me to go out or whatever, it's just I am not in the mood. My body aches like fuck shit, the weather is a thousand Degree Celcius, the internet is boring as fuck, and I can't even figure out what is this feeling that's been haunting me this whole day.
All I did the whole day today was eat, sleep, eat and then sleep back, with a few minutes of reading in between. I am so sick and tired of this routine and when I decided to walk around looking for something fun to do, I couldn't because my back hurts, my legs hurt, my thighs hurt and calfs hurt, my arms hurt, my whole body practically hurts.
I know there is no one to blame for all this stupid aches I'm having and maybe that is why I am in a fucking bad mood. I don't even look forward to celebrating Chinese New Year anymore.
This is the first day of the CNY holidays and I already feel like shit. WHY? Because all my family members have either been robbed by someone else, or are leaving me alone. I am so pissed right now. I hate the weather, I hate my aches, I hate this feeling I have, I hate everything.
I feel so childish but I am so depressed and angry. And I don't even know why. Maybe it's PMS.
I don't even KNOW what I want to do right now. I feel so soaked in sweat and I want to take a bath. But when I stand up, immediately ALL my aches in every part of my body hit me, and I wince in pain. Even as I am typing this, my upper arms hurt like hell. Maybe I will go to sleep, since that is the only time I will not be moving, and thus my aches will be felt at the most minimal.
But I CAN'T sleep. I spent three whole quarters of today sleeping already. And even when I try to go to sleep, I can't. I have alot of things to worry about. And I hate thinking about my problems as much as I hate feeling the aches. I can't even play my guitar, because that means I will have to move and that hurts.
I feel like dying. I miss all my friends and I miss seeing people smile. I miss my own smile. The house is so empty right now, it is so quiet and even though I am safe in the comfort of my own room, I do not feel comfortable at all.
I do not know what has gotten into me. I am very confused right now. I don't believe half the things people tell me anymore. I am feeling very paranoid. I hate it when I can't find the truth in something. I really hate it.
I make mistakes sometimes by saying things I don't even mean. Or maybe I did mean whatever things I said, but only at that moment. I am not even sure. Gosh. I hate this feeling.
I want to go to sleep. I want to sleep until this fucking aches and fucking doubts I have disappear.
Ciao.

Merentas Desa 2009! :D

I am sad. Yes I am. Today we had our annual Merentas Desa, and seeing as how I am Captain of my Sports House this year, I decided to try extra hard so that I could at least land on the top 100 spot and score some points for my Sports House.
Well, no such luck. Given my totally over-sized figure and lack of routinal exercise, I have awesomely bad stamina. Just about one minute of running and I already felt like dying. I am serious. I really tried you know. :( I really did try to run as fast as I could, and breathe out through my mouth as often as I could (to maintain good stamina; tip by Gin, who never fails to get on the top 100 list EVERY YEAR) but I still didn't make it!
I am so pathetic. :(
I ran so hard that at some point my chest really hurt! And also my stomach and especially at the sides. God, they hurt so bad! So I thought at least I was doing a good job, running, you know. :( But turned out I'm just this really low-stamina-ed, weak and defeated girl.
Sigh... Never mind. I made up for it by leading my Sports House with our House Cheer very well! :D At least I think so. Because not trying to brag or whatever, I think when we had the Battle of Cheers between houses, My Sports House was kind of the top among the rest! :D :D :D All the members sang out loud in awesome unison, and they were all smiling and laughing and pumping their fists in the air! I was so proud of them! :D :D :D
Hey, Merah, you're so fine, You're so fine you blow my mind,Hey Merah!Hey Merah!
TITI! (shouted by upper committee of Sports House)WANGSA! (replied by members of Sports House)
I had a lot of fun today actually. Because alot of my juniors have gotten to know me after I thought them how to cheer and everything, and those Form One and Form Two girls were just so adorable! :D They weren't shy at all, they just came up to me, and talked to me and started smiling and all that. Soooooo adorable! :D :D :D I swear, kids these days are getting smaller and smaller.
Sheeeeesh. Also, did I mention that most of my close friends did get on the top 100 list? I feel so embarrassed. Hahaha. Mae Vin got No. 47, followed by May Shuen, No. 48 and Cherrie got freaking No. 49! Eeeeeeeeeeeeee! And I started the race with Cherrie! Okay, about 3 minutes through the race I completely lost her, I repeat, completely lost her, because I just slowed down for like 5 seconds, and when I looked up, she was gone. And I couldn't find her anywhere anymore throughout the whole race. Haha.
Well, maybe some people are just not meant for Sports. Like me. :P
Okay, fine. I shall try to enhance my stamina, because I really really want to be able to get at least on the top 100 list next year for - huh? Did I just say next year? But this is my LAST year of High School! :'( Unless of course I take Form Six or whatever, but that is unlikely! :(
Shit. I totally screwed my one last chance of making my Sports House proud, because trust me, I have never gotten on the top 100 list MY WHOLE LIFE. And so now it's official. I will never be able to do my Sports House proud or even myself proud.
Sigh. It's okay. I shall try harder for Hari Sukan. I shall do my very best to lead my babies in the March, (because I fail in Sports, you see, so I have to resort to the March to redeem myself. Kekekeke) and try very very hard to score as Champion! As motivation, my sis, a total sports-failure, like me, led HER Sports House to victory in the March last year! So I'm gonna try to do the same! :D :D :D
So, that's all for now honeys!
Ciao! :D

Mummy's birthday! :D :D :D

Haha. Mum's birthday this year has got to be the most exciting one yet! :D All the sneaking around me and my sister, not to mention our COUSINS did. Hahaha. I so love my family! :D

Okay so, Mummy's birthday falls on the 20th of January. :) So...... this year me and my sister planned to surprise her by making her breakfast early in the morning before we left for school and work and so the day before (the 19th) we had to go grocery shopping!
Haha. Thankfully I had an excuse as to why me and my sister had to go out at night (my sister only reaches home after work at night) and so Mummy did not suspect anything. :P We told Mum I needed to go photostat some papers for Physics (this wasn't a lie, I did have papers to photocopy) and so she let us go without having thousands of questions to ask. Hehe.
So we bought sausages, baked beans, tuna, bread, orange juice, crabsticks, cheese and cooked her an amazing western breakfast! We woke up at freaking 5.30am to prepare everything, okay? Haha. We were just on time, actually, and then we woke her up. :P
So after wishing her Happy Birthday and giving her the GBK, (Great Big Kiss if you can't decipher it) I covered her eyes as I maneuvered her to the dining table, and my sister was there, making sure everything was placed to be the as presentable as possible. :P
Hehe... So and then when I let Mummy open her eyes....................................................................She burst out laughing. -_- Seriously, she burst out laughing.
She did not inhale in surprise or jump in joy or return us GBKs, no, she laughed. Like it was the funniest thing she had ever seen.
I seriously cannot comprehend what she was laughing about. But it's okay, later she made up for it by expressing how happy she was, how thankful she was to have children like me and my sister (hahahaha! :P) and then she sat down and had her breakfast, without having brushed her teeth, or opened her eyes completely. Hahaha.
And then right now, as I am typing this, we have another surprise going on! :P Krystal che, and her awesome awesome family, planned this dinner at this restaurant Mum really likes and then me and my sis are supposed to get my Mum to go there and then Krystal and family will surprise Mum by being there too!
Hahaha... :D :D :D And also, we called up Angeline and ordered jelly cake, as is Mum's favourite and told her under NO circumstances was she to mention anything about this secret transaction to Mum, and if Mum were to call her up to order the cake herself as she is PRONED to do, cos she doesn't want us to spend more money on her, we told Angeline to tell Mum that she wasn't making jelly cake on that particular day! Hahahahaha.
I swear, Angeline must be thinking how weird we people are. Haha. :D :D :D
So right now I am so excited I can barely contain myself, and also I am feeling super hungry and can't wait to go eat! :D I am waiting for a phone call by Krystal che, to make sure they arrive before us, and then Mum and I can leave the house. :D :D :D :D :D
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I am so excited! Seeing how awesome Mum's birthday this year turned out to be, I cannot help thinking how mine this year would turn out! :D :D If I were lucky enough anyway la. (hint, hint XD XD XD) Hehehehe.... :D
Sooooo ciao! :D

Oh my Saturday!

It's Sunday, so I'm allowed to come online! :D
I don't want to talk about my Saturday because it although was very fruitful, it wasn't entirely enjoyable. We had school. Replacement for the Chinese New Year holidays. And we used Saturday to hold our annual Gotong-Royong Perdana. As I am member of FOUR clubs this year (because I am greedy for the co-curricular marks :P) I had a hefty price to pay when we were divided into our clubs to clean up a certain spot in the school.
Do the mental math, people, and yes, having four clubs means that I had to clean up FOUR places. Never mind. I had fun actually, because most clubs I'm in, Cherrie's there too. :)
So I guess that is all I have to say about my Saturday. Except the part where my cousins had been so totally nice to my family, which I do not intend to elaborate because I am trying to figure out a logical explanation to how such kind-hearted people can exist in this world.
Anyways...
I have got something to say. It is very painful to think and digest the fact that this thing did actually happen and so I just have to say this. Or I won't be able to sleep tonight.
So, the story goes like this. My Aunt wanted to bring her parents who came from abroad for a holiday in a state in Malaysia. So, she went there with her parents and her youngest daughter, only that she left her eldest daughter at a relative's home, using the excuse that there wasn't enough seats in the cab to accommodate her eldest daughter.
She has only two daughters, my Aunt. And she brought one for holiday, and left the other at home. If her eldest daughter was a teenager, I would understand. No. Her eldest daughter is only 9 years old this year! Any woman in her right mind would have just called off the trip, or think up some smart way to bring her NINE-YEAR-OLD daughter along and NOT leave her in some relative's house in the morning and only come pick her up at night.
Did I mention that my Aunt did not buy breakfast, lunch or dinner whatsoever for the kid and expected her relatives to take care of her daughter's welfare for that whole day? How IRRESPONSIBLE is that??? She did not even ask if said relatives were free on that particular day, or whether or not they were willing to look after her nine-year-old daughter. She merely just dropped her there in her relative's house in the morning without advanced information and left.
I am very pissed. How would the little girl feel? Poor thing. Imagine if your mum left with your grandparents and your sibling for a holiday and didn't bring you along. How would you feel? I am 17 this year but I would feel hurt too, if my Mum goes shopping, even in Klang Parade with my sister without bringing me along.
I cannot comprehend how irresponsible some parents can be. And if you're asking about the girl's father, he was working and he did not bring her daughter along with him to the office, though I am sure he could have, seeing as how he is boss of his office. But no, he just left her at the relative's house the whole day.
Sheeesh. Next time when I have children, I will make sure that I do not treat them the way my Aunt treats her daughter.
I am feeling very sleepy right now. I want to go take a nap.
I thought of posting some new pictures of me with my spanking new Vincci shades :P :P :P but I am too exhausted to upload them. That is because I woke up super early today. After a phone call. Cos everytime after that, I cannot go back to sleep. :P
Soooooo, ciao! :D :D :D

Baby Ryan! :D

There is something I need to understand. I have been trying to figure this out for a very long time, but I can never seem to find the answer. Today, the same thing happened to me. Determined as I was, I tried to seek for the truth in all this, but I once again failed.

I am a pathetic human being.

Oh sorry, you all know this already.

What I'm saying is, I CANNOT UNDERSTAND WHY BABY RYAN DOESN'T LIKE ME. :'( I seriously do not understand. I love him very very much, because I love babies and kids, and Baby Ryan is the cutest thing in the whole wide world, so yes. I really really really love him! He is an Angel. :)

Everytime I see him; I hug him, smell him, kiss him, ruffle his hair (though short but still cute! :D), play with him, try to make him laugh, or at least smile, feed him food, sing to him, everything I can ever do to him, but he still DOESN'T like me!

This is very saddening. When I pick him up, he just looks at my face and furrows his brows and stares at me all irritated. :'( I DO NOT understand why. Am I really that ugly? Do I smell bad?

I don't think so. I do not think that I am ugly. And also, I smell very good. :P Because I love to shower. I like to turn my head all purposefully so that I can smell my Dove shampoo when my hair slaps my face. (no, it is not a very appealing sight so I try doing that silently and/or subtly :P) Okay la, I smell very good only after I shower okay? Takkan you expect me to smell like shampoo even after I have run ten rounds around the school field kan? :P

So the question is, why doesn't Baby Ryan like me???? :'(

Most kids like me, cos they know I love them. Eventhough I get very exhausted whenever I play with them, I still like it! :D

So, Baby Ryan, if you ever come across this blog, please think about my feelings and how much I actually love you, and try to make my presence feel appreciated okay? :D :D :D

I would also prefer it if you, you know, cut it out with the screaming and frowning whenever you look at me or see me. Cos, you may not know this, but tiny as you are, you intimidate me. :P :P :P

Anyways, that's all for now people!

Ciao! :D

Okay, okay, I will not come online during the weekdays. Sheeeesh.

This week alone I will have to forsake my precious sleeping time to attend FOUR extra school activities. Tuesday, which is tomorrow, I will have to stay back in school until about 4pm, and then my transport back home has not even been confirmed yet, seeing as how I can neither drive nor fly. And to walk back home is hell, so I'll probably have to settle for the public bus.
Okay, before you all go, "Ceh, this Jo-Yee. Must be some spoilt brat, can't even take public transport." let me just explain how actually cumbersome it is just to take a bus ride home. Firstly I will have to walk out of school compound, and then head to the bus station which is super far away, and then I will have to get into the bus. And mind you, buses do not drive into housing areas, so I will have to get down at Klang Parade, and walk all the way back home.
Yesh. And with my school bag and books and the stinking hot weather and that is if I'm lucky enough that it doesn't rain tomorrow.
So, repeat the whole thing for Thursday and Friday. Thankfully Mummy doesn't work on Saturday, so she can pick me up after my extra activity on Saturday.
I actually don't mind having to walk far and all that, the only thing I mind is that I will have to do all that alone. :( I am a very pathetic person, as I have mentioned so many times before. And I get very upset when I feel lonely. I wish I had a twin sister, you know. Cos that way, we can do everything together. :( :( :(
Also, I am very paranoid actually about having to walk out in the streets alone, totally vulnerable and weaponless (unless you count my 5kg books as weapons; which is a good idea actually) because you know, there are alot of bad people out there nowadays. What if I get kidnapped or robbed or whatever?
I will cry and die. And become super upset, primarily because I haven't sat through my SPM, haven't been on a date with a guy and haven't earned my first salary.
So I don't want to die. Yet.
Or ever for that matter. I wish I can live forever. :P :P :P
Okay fine. To tell the truth, the point of this post is actually not to talk about anything, but because I want to showcase my new signature, which I think looks awesome and I can't wait to show it off to every single person who might come across this blog.
I wonder why I have never thought of doing this before, you know, instead of using some cursive writing to print your signature, actually take a picture of your own signature and then upload it and all that. It's so original.
Plus, what defines you more than your own writing? Love it. :)
Ciao.

Last post of the week! :)

Today I told my sister the truth about something that I have been trying to hide for a very long time. I told her because I wanted to share this feeling I had with her, and I felt bad to be hiding the truth.
I expected her to laugh all excitedly with me, and jump around feeling happy for me, but no. She did not. She started patronising me and telling me whatever I did was stupid and I was a fool for even thinking about it in the first place.
It was very hurtful. When you're looking for someone to listen to you, but then it backfires, and instead you get lectures and assumptions for your apparent foolish behaviour?
It made me realise all the more complicated the people who live in this world are. You can never predict what you are going to get, or what someone is going to tell you. You may think you know someone very well, but it all can change in even only one second.
The truth is, it's very difficult to figure humans out. It is even more difficult to figure out the people whom you actually care about.
Because when you find out you are actually wrong about this certain someone you care about, the magnitude of hurt you feel in unbelievable. Because you've invested so much time and love into that person, and to find out that it is all actually a scam?
I am sorry but, harsh.
And also, ouch!
That is when apologies no longer matter.
Ciao.

Why?

Life is very confusing. Or rather, the people who live in it are confusing. I bet most of us don't even understand half the things we do. Or even what we think about. Or how our emotions work.
I feel like I'm not intact enough with my emotions and feelings. Because half the time, I cannot figure out why I feel this way, or why I feel that way. It's strange. And sometimes it scares me. I have a very weird and wild imagination, and I think too much. It is difficult for me to shut my mind off, because I'm always worrying.
I'm very paranoid about alot of things, I realise.
When someone doesn't return my call, instead of thinking up logic explanations, like maybe that person's phone is out of credit, or maybe he/she is busy with work, or he/she didn't happen to hear the phone ring, I usually assume that that person has got into an accident, or he/she dropped his/her phone and worse, I always get really uneasy when I think of the possibility that he/she is trying to avoid me.
I am so pathetic.
Even simple messages, that don't necessarily involve me, can affect my mood and make me feel uneasy the whole day. Even messages that don't carry specific meaning or whatever, in my mind, they always turn out to be spiky remarks meant for me.
But of course, those messages have to be written by people whom I really care about, and also the unreturned calls will have to be from people I actually give a damn about.
But still. It's scary. It's scary when you don't have the answer to something. It's scary when you cannot figure why a certain person acts this way. It's scary when you cannot decipher your own feelings.
It's especially scary when someone you really care about tells you something, but you cannot determine whether or not it's the truth. Even if you try really really hard.
Ciao.

Awesome tag! :D :D :D

Bold the statements that are true for you.Italicise the statements that you wish are true.Leave the fibs alone.
I miss somebody right now.I do not watch tv these days. I wear glasses or contact lenses.I love to play video games.I have tried marijuana.I have been in a threesome.I believe honesty is usually the best policy.I have changed mentally over the last year.I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.I curse.I’m totally smart.I’ve broken someone’s bones. I’m paranoid sometimes.I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.I need money right now.I love sushi.I talk really, really fast.I have long hair.I have lost money in Las Vegas.I have at least one sibling.I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.I like the way I look.I am usually pessimistic.I have a lot of mood swings.I have a hidden talent.I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.I have a lot of friends.I am currently single.I have pecked someone of the same sex.I enjoy talking on the phone.I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.I love to shop.I enjoy window shopping.I would rather shop than eat.I don't hate anyone.I am a pretty good dancer.I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.I have a cell phone.I believe in God.I watch MTV on a daily basis.I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.I’ve rejected someone before.I want to have children in the future.I have changed a diaper before.I’ve called the cops on a friend before. I am not allergic to anything.I have a lot to learn.I’m shy around members of the opposite sex.I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.I have tried alcohol before.I own the South Park movie. I would die for my best friend.I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.I have used my sexuality to advance my career.I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. (I love Michael Jackson, but not because of the scandals.)Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.I am happy at this moment.I’m obsessed with girls.I’m obsessed with boys. (I loooove boys, but I'm not obsessed with them la. :P)I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.I study for tests most of the time.I am comfortable with who I am right now.I have more than just my ears pierced.I walk barefoot wherever I can.I have jumped off a bridge. (Hahaha. I want excitement! :P :P :P)I love sea turtles.I spend ridiculous money on makeup.I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.I’m proficient in a musical instrument. (Not really, but I do play the guitar. :D :D :D)I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.I hate office jobs.I love sci-fi movies.I think water rules.I went college out of state.I like sausages.I love kisses.I fall for the worst people.I adore bright colours.I can’t live without black eyeliner.I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.I usually like covers better than originals. (Simple Plan do the best covers! :D :D :D And I'm not saying just because I'm their fan! :D)I can pick up things with my toes.I can whistle.I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.I have ridden/owned a horse.I still have every journal I’ve written in.I can’t stick to a diet.I talk in my sleep. (I think. :D :D :D Haha. It's so funny!)I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.I have jazz in my blood.Climbing trees is a brilliant pastime.I wear a toe ring.I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.I am a caffeine junkie.I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.I have been to over 15 conventions. I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.I’m an artist.I only clean my room when necessary.I like a person of the same sex. (I like lotttssss of people of the same sex. :D :D :D)I am an adrenaline junkie.I love being happy.
Anyone who wants to do this tag, you are very welcome. :D :D :D
Ciao! :D

Good thing, Bad thing?

Today in school we had our Titiwangsa meeting. I was appointed as the Captain of Red (my Sports House la). I don't know if that's a good idea. But I'll do my best anyway.
It pisses me off how some people seem surprised that I got elected as Captain. They claim that I am not usually the active one in Titiwangsa. Hello. How do they even know that, considering they are not even from Titiwangsa?
Last year, I was present at every single Sports Practice, except only a day or two, during which period I was diagnosed with Dengue fever. I was Treasurer (funny how money always seems to connect with me) for Titiwangsa and I did do my job properly. I collected the money, and counted them (it was not easy, okay? There were about a hundred students!) and passed them to the teacher with complete responsibility. My name might not have appeared in any sports announcements but that doesn't mean I didn't join any competitions representing my Sports House. I just lost to the other houses before I even got to the Finals.
I know it's embarrassing, but please don't say that I only got the votes because of my alleged popularity. I am not even popular for God's sake. Even if I am, maybe I'm popular with my leadership, (have you ever thought about that?) and not for social reasons.
You don't even know what I have done for my Sports House, so don't assume anything. Maybe you're just jealous, but you know what? TOO BAD.
MOVING ON.
I'm very easily distracted nowadays. No, I mean, by my own thoughts. This certain someone seems to always appear in my daydreams, and I mean always, I don't know why. I daydream especially frequently in school. I'm never like this. I don't usually daydream in school, or anywhere for that matter, but when Puan Badariah was droning on and on about Arithmetic Progression these few days, my mind kept wandering off about that person la. And Puan Badariah has a very resounding voice, mind you.
I always manage to snap back to reality, after about 15 seconds of total daydream, but in about a minute I'm off in my fantasy land again. I feel so stupid. If I continue being like this, I will fail my SPM I tell you.
Anyways. I'm feeling very hungry. But there is no food to eat. I mean, there is food, but they are uncooked. Which means I will have to cook them myself. And I am not in the mood. Today is not a very good day for me. I feel lonely.
Never mind.
I have tonnes of homework to keep me company. Speaking of which, I am supposed to be doing. But here I am blogging yet again on a weekday, shirking my academic responsibilities, despite it being SPM year.
Whatever. Like I don't have bigger things to worry about. Like Neutralisation (as Puan Chong was teaching us about the difference between Titration and Neutralisation, my mind wandered off, and then she asked me what colour was Potassium Manganate (VII) purposefully to jolt me out of reverie and THANK GOD I knew that it was purple in colour. Or I would have had to write Potassium Manganate (VII) is purple in colour. 100 times, as is Puan Chong's usual punishment when someone answers her question wrongly.) or Arithmetic Progression (it's fun, but the solutions are sometimes too lengthy, making it abit boring.).
I want to thank Amanda, and her friends for warmly welcoming me to join them for recess because I have been isolated by my Prefect friends, who need to perform their duties during recess, leaving me wandering the cafeteria alone every single day, figuring out where to sit. THANK GOD there are still sweet people in Beekay, like Amanda and friends :) who would take such a social reject like me to join them.
Okay la, I'm exagerrating. I am not a social reject. :D :D :D It's just, there are people with whom I can sit during recess, but I choose not to, because of some reasons la.
Sigh, sometimes I just wish that Cherrie and Mae Vin aren't Prefects, and are normal students, like me. Eversince they became Prefects, I feel like I have been missing alot of time with them. It gets really painful sometimes, when I'm all alone. I usually blend in well with the other cliques, but they are no Cherrie or Mae Vin, you know?
Anyways.
I have somehow gotten very attached to the word "D'ling" because it sounds so cute when you pronounce it! :D :D :D It's actually short for the word "Darling". You see, if say, you want to say something sweet and flirty to someone, and you want to start it with "Darling", it would sound so formal and not cute anymore.
For example:
"Hi, d'ling, how are you today? :)""Hi, darling, how are you today? :)"
The first one sounds sooooo much cuter kan? Imagine, "D'ling, ahhh..." and "Darrrlinggg ahhh...", the second one sounds so dorky. Haha.
Random.
Anyways. I am off now. I got homework. And I need to bathe. And I'm hungry.
So, ciao, d'lings! :D :D :D

Another tag! :D :D :D

Rules:
*this tag is open for both sex**be honest*it must be true*must tag 5 people*no tagging back
What is your favourite colour?I like Black, White, Gold and Urban Grey. I just don't know which is my favourite. But probably black. :D :D :D
What is your favourite food?Erm... I eat anything. :D :D :D As long as it's edible and of course, tastes good. :D :D :D
What is your favourite drink?Iced cham. Iced anything! :D :D :D
What kind of girl/guy do you prefer? *more than 1 answerErm... Someone who is understanding, manja :P :P :P, loves me, LIKES to manja me (because trust me, I loooove to be manja :P), listens to me, cares about me, loves me, respects me, doesn't lie to me, always misses me, loves me, has self-respect (meaning, has a great self-esteem), not too egoistic, loves me. :) :) :) Sounds so like the typical impossible guy. :D :D :D
How do you want your crush to confess that he likes you? *more than 1 answerErm. I don't know. I haven't thought about it before. Well, it doesn't matter how he does it, what kind of gifts he brings along or whatever, WHETHER or not he brings a gift, I just want him to confess when he really means it, and not just for the spur of the moment. That'd be the sexiest confession ever. :P :P :P
What do you want your boyfriend/girlfriend to give during Valentine's day?I want him to get me something I like and really want, and not some random gift just because it's Valentine-themed. It can be tickets to a rock concert to all I care, as long as he knows that's what I want. :) :) :)
What a short tag??? So random.
Anyways, I tag.....

• Mae Vin!
• ItoMaki!
• Miss-Hanz!
• Abel!
• Atika!

Ciao! :D (I know I'm not supposed to be online, but, spare me la. I'm dying.)

What....?

Okay. So I said I would only blog and/or come online during the weekends. But I'm doing my Biology Assignment okay? And it requires Internet Access. So I took the advantage, not excuse, to come online and blog about the very first two days of my Form 5 year. :D :D :D
So, the good thing is, this year, probably cos my Form teacher has begun to trust us, she let us choose our own sitting positions, as long as everyone is happy about it. :D So I got the perfect seat (in my opinion la) right under the fan, in the middle of the classroom, at the last row. Which just means that I have perfect view of the white board from all angles, and I get to watch everyone in complete silence while studying their secret movements and/or embarrassing acts without being caught! Haha. :D :D :D
I dunno. For some reason I just hate being watched by people, but I love to watch people. :D So usually when I choose seats, I find those which are situated at the back. Like in buses or halls or whatever. Unless of course, it is a rock concert or a seminar on a totally interesting subject, then I would choose the seats which are at the most front. (Though I don't usually get to stay there for long, because you know,my height and all that. :()
Anyways. So in class I get to sit with Cherrie in front of me and Mae Vin beside me. :) :) :) Isn't it great? :D :D :D My two awesome friends beside me and then we can gossip all we want about anything in the whole entire world, usually about Encik Hazaari's plastic orange comb which is always sticking out of his back pocket. :D :D :D
Talking about Encik Hazaari, oh God, he is SO hot. I am serious. He is the hottest teacher I have ever had and he is also the MOST polite person I have ever met in my life. I have never seen a more demure, nice and funny man EVER in my life. :) :) :) I think I have a crush on him. :P I missed him so much since last year. I remember, at the end of the year, Encik H kind of shaved his head, I mean, not to bald, but really short hair and he looked okay, but of course not as hot as when he had longer hair. But now, after two months, his hair has obviously grown and it looks perfect on him. :D :D :D
I hope his hair doesn't grow out anymore, or not he will have to go and cut his hair again. :( :( :( I like him with his current hairstyle. So hot. You know, even though he is Malay, he's got really fair skin, one of the fairest in the whole school, including the Chinese students and Chinese teachers, I dare say. :D :D :D
He's just awesome. :P
What else happened? Oh. I am very glad that I am still Treasurer of my class, because I've been handling its account since last year and there are notes and stuff that only I understand. So, if the Treasurer's post were to change hands, it'd be an awful problem, trying to explain to the new Treasurer about the money and the accounts and stuff. So I'm really glad I got to keep the post, well, frankly, also for extra-curricular points and all that. :D :D :D
Oh! I just glanced past the clock! It's 12.30am and I have school tomorrow! I need to go to bed. I remember my new Year's resolutions, okay? Eight hours of sleep! :D :D :D
So, ciao people! Call or text me if you need me, okay? :D :D :D Have a nice day! :D

The New School Year. :)

So. This is officially the last post of my holidays. I don't know why I am making such a big deal out of this, especially since I start school in a new form EVERY SINGLE YEAR, but maybe I'm just trying to make 2009 as dramatic as possible so that I can boast to people about how awesome my last high school year has been when I grow old next time.
Sigh. Maybe it's just nerves you know? Because so many things await me in the new schooling year. I know for a fact that I won't even have a rest day anyday in 2009, considering:

• My 3-month community service (aka Khidmat Masyarakat 3 Bulan) for Queen's Guide, commences on the first day of school itself, where I will have to conduct meetings, send approval letters, recruit assistants, bla bla bla. God, how boring.
• I have like, I don't know, almost TEN more Log Books to complete before I can officially be awarded my Queen's Guide title.
• I am going to be a member of the class of 2009, which in other words, means, that this is fucking SPM year, and also, this is my LAST chance of proving to people that I can do it.
• Just, random stressful stuff every year, you know, homework, extra-curricular activities, transportation problem, bla bla bla.

So, you see. WHEN am I going to be able to actually sit down and shut my mind off without having to worry about something in my life? I know when: 10 December 2009. And that is only if my SPM has already ended by that time.
God. I so so so so wish time would fly as fast as it did in 2008, and then just boom! and it's 10 December 2009. And then I would have already got my Driver's License and then I will go pick Cherrie and/or Mae Vin up or whatever and then we can go hang out at malls and mamaks and everything. :D :D :D

I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D

You know what? I am going to clean up my bookshelf right now. And also my wardrobe and then clear up all my pencils and pens and shove them all into the new pencil case my cousin bought me. And then I am going to pack up all my notebooks, put them all nicely into my new bag (also given to me by the same cousin. :) God, I love her! :D) and then pick out my underwear and socks and place them all nicely onto my table.
They say if you get everything ready and prepared, you will actually look forward to doing that particular thing, and you wouldn't feel so bad about it happening anymore.
That is just what I need.I want to love shcool, and I am sure if I start the new semester with a good day, the rest of the days would fall into place as well.
Sigh. What's happened to me? I used to love shcool so much. I mean I still love school, but when I think of everything I will need to do this year, I don't know, I just feel like barfing. :( :( :(
Whatever. I'm not going to think of all that. I'm going to be a positive me! :D :D :D
I am a positive person! If you can't change the situation, you change how you feel about it! :D :D :D
Funny how I always tell people that but when something finally happens to me, it feels like it's not such an easy thing to do anymore. Never mind! :D :D :D This is life! And life is full of adversities and that's what makes us human. :)
I can do this. I can. :) :) :)
So, I'm gonna go pack everything right now, and then I won't be posting anything anymore after this post, until the next weekend, when I have (hopefully) gotten accustomed to the new school year and all.
So if you miss me or anything ;) just call me or text me okay? I may be dead to the online world but my cellphone will forever be alive okay? Unless maybe I died or something.
So, wish me luck people, ciao! :D :D :D :D :D

PS. You know, actually, I think even after I die, my phone would still be alive, considering, you know, I use DiGi. I will follow you~~~! :D :D :D

Tag! :D

Went online. Got bored. Started to stalk Friendster profiles of complete strangers. Came across a friend's. Noticed said friend's Blogger link. Clicked. Browsed through posts. Found interesting tag.
Am gonna do it NOW! :D :D :D
3 names that your friends call you by:[1] Jo-Yee[2] Jo[3] Jou-Wee ahhh... *Hahahaha. :D
3 most important dates in your life:[1] My birthday! :D[2] Chinese Year Year![3] New Year!
3 things you've done in the last 33 minutes:[1] Watched TV.[2] Sneezed. *My room is freaking dusty I tell you.[3] IMed.
3 ways to be happy:[1] Watch a funny video. XD[2] Watch David Desrosiers do stupid stuff.[3] Tell someone who is sure to say "I love you too." back, "I love you.". :) :) :)
3 of your favourite songs as of now:[1] The Guggenheim Grotto - Philosophia[2] Simple Plan - Save You[3] Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You
3 of your favourite hobbies:[1] SHOPPIIIINGGG!!! :D :D :D :D :D[2] Reading. :)[3] Chatting with fun people. :D :D :D
3 places you want to go for vacation:[1] Switzerland. *I wanna see the alps! :D :D :D[2] Canada. *Simple Plan, Luke Macfarlane, bla bla bla...[3] Malaysia! :D :D :D
3 favourite cartoon/anime characters:[1] SpongeBob SquarePants - SpongeBob SquarePants :D :D :D [2] Jerry - Tom & Jerry[3] Courage - Courage The Cowardly Dog XD XD XD
3 malls you usually go to:[1] BBK Aeon. :)[2] Sunway Pyramid.[3] Klang Parade. *Home of Lalas and Lians.
3 favourite drinks:[1] Iced cham.[2] Iced water.[3] Iced anything, for that matter.
3 things found in your bag:[1] Cellphone. :D :D :D[2] Wallet. (With cash/ATM card and IC)[3] Comb! *I am vainnnnnnnn! :P :P :P
3 favourite colours:[1] Black. :)[2] White. :)[3] Gold. :)
Top 3 people to hang out with:[1] CHERRIE LEE SUE JING! :D :D :D[2] Cheryl Lee Pooi Teng. :D [3] CHONG MAE VIN! :D :D :D
3 foods you love:[1] Sweet stuff.[2] Sweet stuff.[3] Sweet stuff. *Hence my oversized figure. :P
3 things special to you:[1] People I care about. *I know they aren't things la. But still. :P[2] My relationship with people I care about.[3] Simple Plan. :D :D :D
3 personalities you like:[1] Humourous. :D *Of course! Nothing's sexier than someone who can make me laugh! :D[2] Respectful & considerate. :)[3] Loving and caring! *Like me! :D :D :D :D :D
3 things you will be doing tomorrow:[1] Shopping at One Utama! Yays! :D[2] Smell Baby Ryan's head. *Sorry. It's addictive. Hahahahaha. :D :D :D[3] Check my cellphone and then cry. *Because there will be no texts or miss calls. As usual. Except from maybe my Dad or Mum. I know I am pathetic. I apologise.
3 reasons why you decided to answer this survey:[1] I was bored! :D[2] It looked interesting. :D[3] For another post. :)
3 people you want to tag:[1] CHONG MAE VIN. :D :D :D[2] Raidah![3] ItoMaki. :) :) :)

The Official Farewell of 2008/The Official Welcome of 2009

I have been blogging alot since the new year. I don't know why. Probably cos I know I only have two days left to slack and stay up late before I am thrust back into the Real World. Where there is never-ending stress, pressure, homework......

Whatever. This is my third last day of being online, no, being awake, after 12am. Because when 5th January comes, it will be time for me to button up my collar, pull up my pants until the waistband rests right under my boobs, put on my thick black specs and become a nerd. Oh wait, I was describing the stereotype nerd, not the nerd I plan to become. So I guess I'll just be a Jo-2 nerd. You know, whose life's ratio of fun and unfun is 1:10000000.
Sigh. It is very sad, to come to think of the fact that I will have to leave my profligate lifestyle of year 2008, and embark on a totally new organised lifestyle in the year 2009.
God, I will become such a boring person.
Anyways.
Abel assumes that I am the type of girl who expects the guy to pay for everything when going on a date. Hello. I most certainly am not that type of girl. I may love money alot, but I am not a gold-digger. Not like there is any guy out there for me to dig gold out from. But that is not the point.
The point is, I am a very nice person, Abel. :P Yes I am. Eventhough I always beg you to buy me Starbucks, it's not like I even mean it. I am only trying to make fun of the fact that you work at Starbucks. Though I don't think that there is anything wrong about being a barrister at Starbucks, I think it's awesome! :P
Maybe I'm just jealous you get to drink free coffee all the time.
Soooooo... I don't think I will get to go online very often after school starts or even if I do go online, I won't be able to catch Abel, whose college will have started also, bla bla bla... cos I won't be online at the dead of the night anymore as is the only time he has during which to layan me. :P
No matter. We'll just talk whenever we catch each other la. :P He halaus me all the time anyway. :P :P :P
BUT
Talking about school, I am so excited at the prospect of seeing all my friends again! :D :D :D I can't wait to get my own seat, can't wait to ass-kiss teachers, can't wait to sneer at newly transformed lalas and lians, can't wait to bully my new Form 3 juniors!!! :D :D :D
Well, actually, I'm not that psyched about getting a seat, because sooner or later the teachers are gonna change our seating positions for racial integrity shit; I am actually scared to ass-kiss my teachers, in fear that they will misunderstand my constant flirts as flirts of the romantic variety, (and then subject me to juvenile court for sexual harrassment! :X); I don't usually sneer at people, I just gossip, cos you know, lalas and lians may disgust me, but I will always have to consider the fact that maybe non-lalas and non-lians digust them too. :D Also, most Form 3s are my friends! :D So I won't bully them. Or anyone for that matter. :X Bullying is bad.
But there is ONE bright thing about this otherwise stressful year though, and that is, I will be in Form 5 and so I can RULE THE SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOL!!! Hahahahaha. I am going to scare the juniors and laugh at them whenever they feel shy to talk to me! Hahahaha.
Okay, that is just the same as bullying. So it's bad.
No wait, there are Form 6s in my school! So even though I am in Form 5, I can't rule the school anymore. D: D: D: Shoot.
Anyway, this year is going to be so unpredictable, I am afraid of even trying to predict it.
Geeeesh. D: I'll just leave everything to work out by itself.
Ciao.