I'm upset. And I feel betrayed.

I just finished watching Faceoff on AXN and can I just say that it is, in my honest opinion, the best damn movie of the millennium? John Trovolta is awesome in that movie and of course, Nicholas Cage too. GOSH. He is so awesome. The wicked expressions he makes in the character he plays, is just, out of this world. It is SO GOOD.

I am not in a very good mood right now, actually. Because everyone's going to Puan Shri's house tomorrow for Deepavali. And...

I'm not.

Because I've got no transport. (so, what's new?)

I've really been looking forward to this you know. I mean, it's been a long time since I've wanted to go to something so badly, and it turns out, I'm not gonna be there anyway...

And what's upsetting is, I've actually asked Cherrie if I could follow her car, but I didn't give her any confirmation because I know her Mum isn't really keen in fetching people. So I totally didn't want to affect anybody's mood by persisting to have them fetch me.

But then a few days later when I asked Cherrie again, I found out that she had already promised three other friends that they could her hitch her ride.

To be completely honest, when I heard that, my face went blank. And to the outside world, it might have seemed that I looked calm.

But seriously, inside of me, I practically was all "What the FUCK?"

I mean, if this was to occur to me, I would sooooooo have left a seat for Cherrie. I mean, she is my BEST FRIEND. Besides, I asked her first. So I was pretty upset that before my confirmation, she went behind my back to confirm to fetch three other people, making her mum's car full. And now I've got no more ride to hitch.

I am seriously, seriously hurt. If it were me, and it was Cherrie who hadn't made any confirmation if she were hitching my ride, I would TOTALLY have called her first hand to ask if she really needs my ride before I go promising to fetch other people.

I mean, that's me. I guess I can't blame Cherrie for not thinking like me.

But it is really hurtful, you know. I didn't dare to ask her because I thought she wasn't fetching anyone. But then I found out she was fetching THREE other people. I feel so...betrayed.....

Am I not good enough at being a friend? Did I do something wrong or whatever? That she feels I'm not worthy enough to be her best friend or something?

Oh gosh. This is becoming so dramatic. I guess I'll just have to, you know, suck it all in and pretend to be fine while everyone goes to have fun in Puan Shri's house.

But the truth is, I don't think I'll ever be fine again.