Love ya all. ;)
Thursday, July 29, 2010
I considered whether to write this post or not for, like, days loh.
So respect my views ok.
I went to PPD today and my approval letters are all signed! =D I'm going to go to Beekay on Monday! Hee hee hee
Honestly I'm quite excited lah, because I can't wait to see Puan Ding and all my other teachers again, and I also can't wait to eat the guay beng in the school cafeteria!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But then the other day I got to know that my class teacher asked Hui Kee if the reason I decided to leave ACS is due to the little misunderstanding I have with the Upper6s.
==
I know right. First of all, of course it is NOT. I mean, I've already cleared things out with them, and I really think if given more time, I would have been able to build a better relationship with the people I previously offended through my blog post.
I've already explained like a MILLION times about the blog post, and only small people will still hold a grudge against me based on that stupid post.
And since I do not associate closely with small people, I don't give a damn what they are going to think of me, as long as they do not do anything bad to me again.
But for the rest of the Upper6s, those whom I have made peace with, and also those who I guess on the surface appear to not hold a grudge against me anymore, everything between us is fine already right?
I thought?
Whatever. I just want to declare that the reasons I am changing back to Beekay include:
1) It's closer to my home
2) The subjects package there is more suitable
3) My sister was a former Form6 student there, and she recommends it
4) I already promised my Dad
5) It is unreasonable to be in an Accounts class but DROP Accounts in STPM ==
And many other reasons lah, but these are the main ones.
And no, the many reasons do NOT include the little slide I have with the Form6! I didn't even THINK about that part when I decided to change back to Beekay ok. ==
At first I thought that everything would be fine in ACS, like, I could take extra tuition outside for another subject to replace Accounts, I could just cast a blind eye on the long distance to school for an exchange for a new environment in a BOY school, and I even convinced myself that if I worked hard enough, I'd do well no matter what school I went to...
Look even IF I did consider leaving ACS because of the Upper6 (which I did not), I wouldn't have done it based on that reason anyway, because I would not want to LEAVE my friends in 6 Bawah Setia just because of some Upper6 seniors...
Nothing against the Upper6 lah, I'm just using that as an example.
So guys and girls please don't don't don't think that the reason I am leaving ACS for Beekay is because of the blog post.
I feel so sia sui that you all think of me like that ok. ==
I'm not the type of 'runaway' from a problem person, I'm those 'confront and solve' the problem type of person. So I will not escape from a problem one. I FACE it.
Please don't misunderstand my decision loh, cos it is so disgraceful to my memory in ACS! ):
Consider this:
1) If I have posted the post AFTER I leave ACS for Beekay: You guys will say that I am a coward for only daring to post that when I am already away from ACS, and thus safe from attack.
2) If I have posted the post BEFORE I leave ACS for Beekay: You guys will think that the reason I am leaving is because I'm scared and afraid for having offended the Upper6s. == (which is what that is happening now)
3) If I have posted the post but STAYED in ACS anyway (which I also hope can be the case, but cannot lah, I have to go to Beekay ==): You guys will STILL continue to torment me about having written the post.
So, I cannot win in ANY WAY and the best I can do is just to explain myself, and hope sensible people will be able to understand my REAL reason for leaving.
Damn embarrassing loh if I am leaving ACS JUST because of that measly blog post. If I am leaving because of that, I will be so damn sia sui I also dunno where to put my face. ==
So don't misunderstand me and make me sia sui can? ==
Chuz.
I went to PPD today and my approval letters are all signed! =D I'm going to go to Beekay on Monday! Hee hee hee
Honestly I'm quite excited lah, because I can't wait to see Puan Ding and all my other teachers again, and I also can't wait to eat the guay beng in the school cafeteria!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But then the other day I got to know that my class teacher asked Hui Kee if the reason I decided to leave ACS is due to the little misunderstanding I have with the Upper6s.
==
I know right. First of all, of course it is NOT. I mean, I've already cleared things out with them, and I really think if given more time, I would have been able to build a better relationship with the people I previously offended through my blog post.
I've already explained like a MILLION times about the blog post, and only small people will still hold a grudge against me based on that stupid post.
And since I do not associate closely with small people, I don't give a damn what they are going to think of me, as long as they do not do anything bad to me again.
But for the rest of the Upper6s, those whom I have made peace with, and also those who I guess on the surface appear to not hold a grudge against me anymore, everything between us is fine already right?
I thought?
Whatever. I just want to declare that the reasons I am changing back to Beekay include:
1) It's closer to my home
2) The subjects package there is more suitable
3) My sister was a former Form6 student there, and she recommends it
4) I already promised my Dad
5) It is unreasonable to be in an Accounts class but DROP Accounts in STPM ==
And many other reasons lah, but these are the main ones.
And no, the many reasons do NOT include the little slide I have with the Form6! I didn't even THINK about that part when I decided to change back to Beekay ok. ==
At first I thought that everything would be fine in ACS, like, I could take extra tuition outside for another subject to replace Accounts, I could just cast a blind eye on the long distance to school for an exchange for a new environment in a BOY school, and I even convinced myself that if I worked hard enough, I'd do well no matter what school I went to...
Look even IF I did consider leaving ACS because of the Upper6 (which I did not), I wouldn't have done it based on that reason anyway, because I would not want to LEAVE my friends in 6 Bawah Setia just because of some Upper6 seniors...
Nothing against the Upper6 lah, I'm just using that as an example.
So guys and girls please don't don't don't think that the reason I am leaving ACS for Beekay is because of the blog post.
I feel so sia sui that you all think of me like that ok. ==
I'm not the type of 'runaway' from a problem person, I'm those 'confront and solve' the problem type of person. So I will not escape from a problem one. I FACE it.
Please don't misunderstand my decision loh, cos it is so disgraceful to my memory in ACS! ):
Consider this:
1) If I have posted the post AFTER I leave ACS for Beekay: You guys will say that I am a coward for only daring to post that when I am already away from ACS, and thus safe from attack.
2) If I have posted the post BEFORE I leave ACS for Beekay: You guys will think that the reason I am leaving is because I'm scared and afraid for having offended the Upper6s. == (which is what that is happening now)
3) If I have posted the post but STAYED in ACS anyway (which I also hope can be the case, but cannot lah, I have to go to Beekay ==): You guys will STILL continue to torment me about having written the post.
So, I cannot win in ANY WAY and the best I can do is just to explain myself, and hope sensible people will be able to understand my REAL reason for leaving.
Damn embarrassing loh if I am leaving ACS JUST because of that measly blog post. If I am leaving because of that, I will be so damn sia sui I also dunno where to put my face. ==
So don't misunderstand me and make me sia sui can? ==
Chuz.
Monday, July 26, 2010
I went to school today...
...to get my transfer letter to go to Beekay.
When I was discussing this transfer thing with my dad, I made the decision in a swift. I don't know if he had this special way of convincing me or what, but what he said really made sense.
I should not be hesitant to go back to my old school based on measly reasons (like wanting a new environment, not wanting to deal with extra curricular stuff, friends are all at ACS) because what matters most in the end is what I get from the school.
I didn't imagine that all of my friends would be upset over a classmate moving away to another school, but I guess I underestimated the strong bond we kind of built throughout this 3 months together. :)
Never in my life have I ever been so attached and so warm and so happy with a bunch of classmates. Never in SK 1 Jalan Meru. Never in Beekay.
I'm very surprised to realise that I would find friends such as these in ACS OF ALL SCHOOLS (one which I NEVER thought I'd end up in in the first place) and I'm really happy to be part of 6 Bawah Setia.
When I got to know that alot of my friends would feel damn upset if any classmate left the class, it suddenly hit me that I also love this class so much. This class in which we shared so many jokes, these people with whom I've spent so much valuable times...
I almost cried in the canteen today when I had lunch with my classmates. It felt so surreal that I would be leaving the school soon, and I kind of choked up all my tears. This doesn't happen often ok. I don't usually cry one.
BUT YOU GUYS LAH. Make me cry. T_____T Don't love me so much can or not!!!! (very beh hiao bah but whatever lah I love you guys tooooo! sobs sobs)
I tried and tried to think of other solutions to solve this problem, without having to leave ACS, but there just isn't any other way!
I already promised my dad and sis that I'd go there, and deep down I also know that Beekay is the better choice for me.
But better doesn't mean it won't hurt when I leave ACS can! )=
If I could, I really really don't want to leave ACS. I don't want to leave 6 Bawah Setia. I don't care if the girls toilet is always flooded, I don't care if I cannot even find a full-length mirror in the whole school, I don't care if the Upper6s hate me, I don't care if some teachers look at me menacingly (no doubt because of my measly blog post - WHATEVER ==) but I have to go to Beekay! )=
I went to taekwando class today too, which I guess would be my last. )= We learnt how to defend ourselves when someone tries to catch us while pulling our wrists and as usual I had SO MUCH FUN.
But all this fun ironically made me feel even MORE sad because I'd be leaving this school already and I don't think I will ever have the chance to feel so much fun with my classmates anymore!!! fml
Why do we have to sacrifice at least SOMETHING in order to get another thing? Why can't everything be smooth-sailing and easy and without problems?
Why do we have to be forced to make so many decisions? WHY DO I FEEL SO EMO??!?!? Y____Y
Vendrick might have left a bruise on my wrist today while taekwando-ing.
When I was discussing this transfer thing with my dad, I made the decision in a swift. I don't know if he had this special way of convincing me or what, but what he said really made sense.
I should not be hesitant to go back to my old school based on measly reasons (like wanting a new environment, not wanting to deal with extra curricular stuff, friends are all at ACS) because what matters most in the end is what I get from the school.
I didn't imagine that all of my friends would be upset over a classmate moving away to another school, but I guess I underestimated the strong bond we kind of built throughout this 3 months together. :)
Never in my life have I ever been so attached and so warm and so happy with a bunch of classmates. Never in SK 1 Jalan Meru. Never in Beekay.
I'm very surprised to realise that I would find friends such as these in ACS OF ALL SCHOOLS (one which I NEVER thought I'd end up in in the first place) and I'm really happy to be part of 6 Bawah Setia.
When I got to know that alot of my friends would feel damn upset if any classmate left the class, it suddenly hit me that I also love this class so much. This class in which we shared so many jokes, these people with whom I've spent so much valuable times...
I almost cried in the canteen today when I had lunch with my classmates. It felt so surreal that I would be leaving the school soon, and I kind of choked up all my tears. This doesn't happen often ok. I don't usually cry one.
BUT YOU GUYS LAH. Make me cry. T_____T Don't love me so much can or not!!!! (very beh hiao bah but whatever lah I love you guys tooooo! sobs sobs)
I tried and tried to think of other solutions to solve this problem, without having to leave ACS, but there just isn't any other way!
I already promised my dad and sis that I'd go there, and deep down I also know that Beekay is the better choice for me.
But better doesn't mean it won't hurt when I leave ACS can! )=
If I could, I really really don't want to leave ACS. I don't want to leave 6 Bawah Setia. I don't care if the girls toilet is always flooded, I don't care if I cannot even find a full-length mirror in the whole school, I don't care if the Upper6s hate me, I don't care if some teachers look at me menacingly (no doubt because of my measly blog post - WHATEVER ==) but I have to go to Beekay! )=
I went to taekwando class today too, which I guess would be my last. )= We learnt how to defend ourselves when someone tries to catch us while pulling our wrists and as usual I had SO MUCH FUN.
But all this fun ironically made me feel even MORE sad because I'd be leaving this school already and I don't think I will ever have the chance to feel so much fun with my classmates anymore!!! fml
Why do we have to sacrifice at least SOMETHING in order to get another thing? Why can't everything be smooth-sailing and easy and without problems?
Why do we have to be forced to make so many decisions? WHY DO I FEEL SO EMO??!?!? Y____Y
Vendrick might have left a bruise on my wrist today while taekwando-ing.
But nothing hurts more than the bruise I have in my heart for having to leave the wonderful bunch of people in 6 Bawah Setia 2010.
:(
I love you guys.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Wa wa wheeeeeee~!
First thing's first. I can't believe people are still giving me shit about the blog post. ==
That happened like AGES ago (ok fine few days only but it feels like ages ago because I don't even think about it anymore == ).. Come on lah people... Let it go lah... ==
Didn't I already say? I'M SORRY I OFFENDED YOU GUYS THROUGH THE MEASLY BLOG POST. I'M SORRY I SAID THE GAME SUCKED. I'M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING...
EXCEPT the part where I bashed the anonymous commentors/bashers. That one I'm not SORRY about.
I don't care who you are, under an anonymous, you are NOBODY to me. So I don't see why I should respect someone whom I have no interest to make peace with, much less someone who posts mean and untrue stuff about me on my blog... zzz.
Don't you guys get it? If you have posted stuff using your real identities, I would have given you the mutual respect that we automatically have for another person. But since you came here bearing nothing but a stupid anonymous nickname, sprouting bitter false accusations at me, I had no choice but to be so rude to you.
Because YOU offended me first, so I don't care if I'm being offensive to you after that. Hmpf!
You should have played the game more properly: By using a real name, (provided you are an Upper6) because then you can say that you're only saying those mean things because I offended you through the blog post. By doing that, I would be considered the one who's wrong FIRST.
But you didn't use that tactic, so it is a common norm that I'm going to defend myself when an anonymous spammer attacks me (RIGHT???!?!?!): So in that twist, you end up being the one at fault FIRST, for posting mean things about me in my blog without ME doing anything to you FIRST. Who asked you to spark my anger?
So DON'T say I'm rude to the Upper6 people. I'm rude ONLY to the anonymous spammers. That's all. You can say that I was rude during the GAME (bla bla bla ok ok), but I already explained my situation, and I already apologised for offending the Upper6 through the blog post.
So I'm not going to explain AGAIN because it is damn exhausting.
***
Everybody thinks that I am having so much fun replying these spammers, that I'm not in any way affected, that I can still go on with my life happily.
I can, but don't you see it isn't easy? You think I am very excited that I offended a bunch of Form6 people? It wasn't my intention to even offend them in the first place, I was only blogging CASUALLY, but since they declared that they were offended, so I apologised.
So what's the deal now? Why are the Upper6 people still holding a grudge against me? So far no one has requested that I remove the post, and if anyone wants me to, I WOULD. But what differences does it make right?
In your mind, I'm already this big fat lying bitch (although I NEVER lied), who disrespects seniors (YAH, I disrespect them. That's why I smile to them when I walk pass them. That's why I tell my friends that they seem like good people to mix with. That's why I made the effort to talk to the president to calm things over. All those show I disrespect seniors, yups), who is childish (yes, I'm so childish. I'm so childish that I walked over to the Form6 president to make peace with her) and has a bad attitude (that is so true. Because I keep defending myself! Why did I defend myself??? That is so wrong!! People who defend themselves CLEARLY have a bad case of attitude problem. Hmm...)
Don't you think everything is very unfair to ME? Alot of the Lower6 people were also not happy with the game, but only I got attacked simply because I OWN A BLOG.
But what more can I do right? Oh yes yes, it is all my fault for having written the blog post in the first place. Have you ever considered that if I'd known that that stupid post would cause such a BIG DRAMA between the Upper6 and Lower6 people, I would NEVER have posted it at all?
Have you guys ever seen things this/my way before? NO! Because all you guys cared about was being MEASLY offended. And then make a big deal outta this.
I cannot stand you all lah.
Sigh. Whatever lah. You guys think however you want lah. I've already made myself clear. If you are still too deluded to get my point, then why do I even bother explaining to you again? Nothing is going to make you change your mind about me.
Fact is, I offended people. I apologised. How about you? Have you apologised to me for offending ME?
So tired.
***
ANYWAY!!!! Did you guys hear about the news that I got accepted into a local Uni called UTeM? =DDDDDDDDDD
For Diploma in ICT!!!!
I know right!!!! SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....until Cherrie told me that Diploma is not better than Form6. ==
I actually seriously thought that I was going to go to Melaka to UTeM to do Diploma in ICT already one loh! I was already imagining how fun it would be to stay in that Uni because everything there is so new and polished!! (I checked!)
But then after very long talks with Daddy, April and Cherrie, I've finally decided that ICT is not my pathway anyway. I guess I'm not interested enough in it to pursue it and make it my lifetime career (because it's a very specific field) and besides, they only offer Diploma, and only that takes 3 years already.
Twice the time it would take for me to finish my Form6.
So.... Form6 is the better path for me!!! =DDD
So 6BawahSetia people, don't be sad lah, I'm not going to Melaka d. Ehehehehe. (Further proof to people who don't know me that I'm not actually that BAD in person, because I still have friends who'd be upset if I left the class! Seriously, get to know me before judging me. Plus, if you want to say that I also judged the Upper6 people without getting to know them first then: Pfft. == I didn't judge them AT ALL. READ THE POST CAREFULLY. And the apology part was a MISUNDERSTANDING. So can you guys pleaseeee get off my back now?)
But then hor, 6BSetia friends, I got another news to tell you all. Even though I'm not going to Melaka, but I'm still going to have to leave 6BSetia because................
I'M GOING BACK TO BEEKAY!!!!!
I know right. == Wasted so much time in Accounts class in ACS d now only decide to change back to Beekay.
But what my dad says is true lah: "You don't want to go to Sejarah class, but you go to Accounts class to drop Accounts. == Might as well you go to Beekay to take their business class right??? No Sejarah, and no accounts. EASY PEASY."
I considered this already one, before I entered ACS. But then I thought, never mind because I could just take up another subject from outside and take the examination. Because I SERIOUSLY didn't want to go back to Beekay. I DREADDDDDDDDD all the co-curricular stuff that I would have to do if I were there...
But then.
Since by the time I go in to Beekay, which is like, TOMORROW, alot of the committees will have already been formed and preparation for Canteen Day would have all been done already so I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT EXTRA ACTIVITIES ANYMORE!!! Muahahahahahahahaha
So that's that lah. I'm leaving ACS and going to Beekay! ><
(I know the Upper6 very happy now because they don't have to see my stupid face in ACS again HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH but never mind lah, I seriously have no more energy to make peace with every single one of you lah. Just know that I have done my best to fix things can already. You all still want to hate me, BEFORE even knowing me, then your problem lah. It just shows how close-minded and judgmental and unforgiving you are. But I won't blame you lah, that's who you are, just like how YOU shouldn't blame me, for being who I am)
(I still don't think I did anything wrong by writing the post, it just ended up offending you guys. Which I already apologised, and that already cleared up my name. If you think about it, there is nothing that you can convict me for anymore, except the part about being rude to anonymous spammers. Unless if you ARE the anonymous spammer lah, so then I'm NOT APOLOGISING TO YOU. Because you offended me FIRST, so I wrote those stuff to defend myself and they turned out to offend YOU. Which makes the battle equal. So in short: you can't convict me for anything without pulling yourself into fault as well.. So... I guess anymore posts from you just shows how WEIRD you are for fighting a losing battle lah ==)
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PHOTOS OF ME!!!
I've already done my part apologising to the Upper6 people, and I won't apologise to the anonymous spammers. If you still don't want to get over this, then it's your choice to waste your life hating someone innocent. (Innocent because I already cleared my mistake by apologising, dumbass)
I'm not saying I feel remorseful because I wrote the post out of anger and I actually don't mean the things I said. I'm feeling remorseful ONLY because it caused this big drama. I still stand by my opinions EXCEPT THE PRESIDENT'S APOLOGY PART, and I'm sorry my opinions offended the Upper6. Just request, and I'll remove the post if it's still sooo offensive. zzz
And I feel so upset when the teacher clearly directed her lecture at me, when she spoke in front of the big crowd. She said that if I had problems with the Form6 staying back thing, I should complain to the Ministry Of Education, and not write about it in my blog without doing anything about it. ==
First of all, I wrote that because I was RANTING. WHO TAKES RANTS SERIOUSLY I ASK YOU??!??!? Plus do you think I'm the ONLY one who complains in her own blog? SO MANY OTHER people also complain what. Just don't take it so seriously. I was just RANTING.
Lastly, to all those who STILL feel offended, I'm SORRY. SINCERELY SORRY. Offending you was never my intention. And I sincerely think I am NOT a BAD person, so don't simply HATE me just because you think I LOOK like someone very hateable ok. It's unfair to my mum.
I don't hate anyone on impulse, unless she does something BAD personally to me. You all can say all you want about how you still think I'm an evil bitch and you want to hate me anyway, so... Whatever lah.
If I'm such a bad person, I wouldn't have survived thus far in life ok. My school records are all very clean btw, I have good relationships with teachers and students: so please don't judge me anyhow you like. I'm still human and I don't deserve your spiteful presumptions and bitter judgment.
Chuz.
That happened like AGES ago (ok fine few days only but it feels like ages ago because I don't even think about it anymore == ).. Come on lah people... Let it go lah... ==
Didn't I already say? I'M SORRY I OFFENDED YOU GUYS THROUGH THE MEASLY BLOG POST. I'M SORRY I SAID THE GAME SUCKED. I'M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING...
EXCEPT the part where I bashed the anonymous commentors/bashers. That one I'm not SORRY about.
I don't care who you are, under an anonymous, you are NOBODY to me. So I don't see why I should respect someone whom I have no interest to make peace with, much less someone who posts mean and untrue stuff about me on my blog... zzz.
Don't you guys get it? If you have posted stuff using your real identities, I would have given you the mutual respect that we automatically have for another person. But since you came here bearing nothing but a stupid anonymous nickname, sprouting bitter false accusations at me, I had no choice but to be so rude to you.
Because YOU offended me first, so I don't care if I'm being offensive to you after that. Hmpf!
You should have played the game more properly: By using a real name, (provided you are an Upper6) because then you can say that you're only saying those mean things because I offended you through the blog post. By doing that, I would be considered the one who's wrong FIRST.
But you didn't use that tactic, so it is a common norm that I'm going to defend myself when an anonymous spammer attacks me (RIGHT???!?!?!): So in that twist, you end up being the one at fault FIRST, for posting mean things about me in my blog without ME doing anything to you FIRST. Who asked you to spark my anger?
So DON'T say I'm rude to the Upper6 people. I'm rude ONLY to the anonymous spammers. That's all. You can say that I was rude during the GAME (bla bla bla ok ok), but I already explained my situation, and I already apologised for offending the Upper6 through the blog post.
So I'm not going to explain AGAIN because it is damn exhausting.
***
Everybody thinks that I am having so much fun replying these spammers, that I'm not in any way affected, that I can still go on with my life happily.
I can, but don't you see it isn't easy? You think I am very excited that I offended a bunch of Form6 people? It wasn't my intention to even offend them in the first place, I was only blogging CASUALLY, but since they declared that they were offended, so I apologised.
So what's the deal now? Why are the Upper6 people still holding a grudge against me? So far no one has requested that I remove the post, and if anyone wants me to, I WOULD. But what differences does it make right?
In your mind, I'm already this big fat lying bitch (although I NEVER lied), who disrespects seniors (YAH, I disrespect them. That's why I smile to them when I walk pass them. That's why I tell my friends that they seem like good people to mix with. That's why I made the effort to talk to the president to calm things over. All those show I disrespect seniors, yups), who is childish (yes, I'm so childish. I'm so childish that I walked over to the Form6 president to make peace with her) and has a bad attitude (that is so true. Because I keep defending myself! Why did I defend myself??? That is so wrong!! People who defend themselves CLEARLY have a bad case of attitude problem. Hmm...)
Don't you think everything is very unfair to ME? Alot of the Lower6 people were also not happy with the game, but only I got attacked simply because I OWN A BLOG.
But what more can I do right? Oh yes yes, it is all my fault for having written the blog post in the first place. Have you ever considered that if I'd known that that stupid post would cause such a BIG DRAMA between the Upper6 and Lower6 people, I would NEVER have posted it at all?
Have you guys ever seen things this/my way before? NO! Because all you guys cared about was being MEASLY offended. And then make a big deal outta this.
I cannot stand you all lah.
Sigh. Whatever lah. You guys think however you want lah. I've already made myself clear. If you are still too deluded to get my point, then why do I even bother explaining to you again? Nothing is going to make you change your mind about me.
Fact is, I offended people. I apologised. How about you? Have you apologised to me for offending ME?
So tired.
***
ANYWAY!!!! Did you guys hear about the news that I got accepted into a local Uni called UTeM? =DDDDDDDDDD
For Diploma in ICT!!!!
I know right!!!! SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....until Cherrie told me that Diploma is not better than Form6. ==
I actually seriously thought that I was going to go to Melaka to UTeM to do Diploma in ICT already one loh! I was already imagining how fun it would be to stay in that Uni because everything there is so new and polished!! (I checked!)
But then after very long talks with Daddy, April and Cherrie, I've finally decided that ICT is not my pathway anyway. I guess I'm not interested enough in it to pursue it and make it my lifetime career (because it's a very specific field) and besides, they only offer Diploma, and only that takes 3 years already.
Twice the time it would take for me to finish my Form6.
So.... Form6 is the better path for me!!! =DDD
So 6BawahSetia people, don't be sad lah, I'm not going to Melaka d. Ehehehehe. (Further proof to people who don't know me that I'm not actually that BAD in person, because I still have friends who'd be upset if I left the class! Seriously, get to know me before judging me. Plus, if you want to say that I also judged the Upper6 people without getting to know them first then: Pfft. == I didn't judge them AT ALL. READ THE POST CAREFULLY. And the apology part was a MISUNDERSTANDING. So can you guys pleaseeee get off my back now?)
But then hor, 6BSetia friends, I got another news to tell you all. Even though I'm not going to Melaka, but I'm still going to have to leave 6BSetia because................
I'M GOING BACK TO BEEKAY!!!!!
I know right. == Wasted so much time in Accounts class in ACS d now only decide to change back to Beekay.
But what my dad says is true lah: "You don't want to go to Sejarah class, but you go to Accounts class to drop Accounts. == Might as well you go to Beekay to take their business class right??? No Sejarah, and no accounts. EASY PEASY."
I considered this already one, before I entered ACS. But then I thought, never mind because I could just take up another subject from outside and take the examination. Because I SERIOUSLY didn't want to go back to Beekay. I DREADDDDDDDDD all the co-curricular stuff that I would have to do if I were there...
But then.
Since by the time I go in to Beekay, which is like, TOMORROW, alot of the committees will have already been formed and preparation for Canteen Day would have all been done already so I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT EXTRA ACTIVITIES ANYMORE!!! Muahahahahahahahaha
So that's that lah. I'm leaving ACS and going to Beekay! ><
(I know the Upper6 very happy now because they don't have to see my stupid face in ACS again HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH but never mind lah, I seriously have no more energy to make peace with every single one of you lah. Just know that I have done my best to fix things can already. You all still want to hate me, BEFORE even knowing me, then your problem lah. It just shows how close-minded and judgmental and unforgiving you are. But I won't blame you lah, that's who you are, just like how YOU shouldn't blame me, for being who I am)
(I still don't think I did anything wrong by writing the post, it just ended up offending you guys. Which I already apologised, and that already cleared up my name. If you think about it, there is nothing that you can convict me for anymore, except the part about being rude to anonymous spammers. Unless if you ARE the anonymous spammer lah, so then I'm NOT APOLOGISING TO YOU. Because you offended me FIRST, so I wrote those stuff to defend myself and they turned out to offend YOU. Which makes the battle equal. So in short: you can't convict me for anything without pulling yourself into fault as well.. So... I guess anymore posts from you just shows how WEIRD you are for fighting a losing battle lah ==)
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PHOTOS OF ME!!!
I've already done my part apologising to the Upper6 people, and I won't apologise to the anonymous spammers. If you still don't want to get over this, then it's your choice to waste your life hating someone innocent. (Innocent because I already cleared my mistake by apologising, dumbass)
I'm not saying I feel remorseful because I wrote the post out of anger and I actually don't mean the things I said. I'm feeling remorseful ONLY because it caused this big drama. I still stand by my opinions EXCEPT THE PRESIDENT'S APOLOGY PART, and I'm sorry my opinions offended the Upper6. Just request, and I'll remove the post if it's still sooo offensive. zzz
And I feel so upset when the teacher clearly directed her lecture at me, when she spoke in front of the big crowd. She said that if I had problems with the Form6 staying back thing, I should complain to the Ministry Of Education, and not write about it in my blog without doing anything about it. ==
First of all, I wrote that because I was RANTING. WHO TAKES RANTS SERIOUSLY I ASK YOU??!??!? Plus do you think I'm the ONLY one who complains in her own blog? SO MANY OTHER people also complain what. Just don't take it so seriously. I was just RANTING.
Plus, I said I don't like to stay back, which is the truth, doesn't mean I'm SOOOO against it that I'm going to start a protest to have it permanently cancelled right??? ==
I WAS JUST RANTING. Don't take my rants so seriously lah aiyohhh.... ==
Oops! Caption too long d!!! Next photo next photo!!!
Lastly, to all those who STILL feel offended, I'm SORRY. SINCERELY SORRY. Offending you was never my intention. And I sincerely think I am NOT a BAD person, so don't simply HATE me just because you think I LOOK like someone very hateable ok. It's unfair to my mum.
I don't hate anyone on impulse, unless she does something BAD personally to me. You all can say all you want about how you still think I'm an evil bitch and you want to hate me anyway, so... Whatever lah.
If I'm such a bad person, I wouldn't have survived thus far in life ok. My school records are all very clean btw, I have good relationships with teachers and students: so please don't judge me anyhow you like. I'm still human and I don't deserve your spiteful presumptions and bitter judgment.
Chuz.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
You know hor...
I am a very spoilt girl.
Spoilt as in, if I can afford something, I will always whine about it so that I will eventually get it.
I mean, this sounds very irritating and bratty of me, but really what! If you want something, you FIGHT for it.
Unless of course it is something that you are NOT supposed to have lah, like: Other people's boyfriend, money from bribes etc etc
Ok lah when I said whine, I don't really mean whine like those annoying chao babies and young little girls.
Throughout my life, when I want something: I find all logical reasons to prove that I am worthy of getting that particular thing that I want, and I will continue to fight and fight until I finally get my hands on it.
For example, let's list down the few things I absolutely care about in my life, which I got purely from fighting through with all the reasons and explanations on why I should be allowed to get them:
1) My awesome W580i
*Ok lah, NOW it seems like it is a damn cheapo phone but during the time that I got it (like, 2 and a half years ago), it was something that was deemed quite glamorous and so I treasured it damn much.
Of cos mah, if that thing not glamorous I want/treasure it for what?
I got it because I scored good results for my PMR and my old phone was battered to the core already, so I sincerely thought that I deserved the phone.
Even though my family is not rich, but since my mummy was willing to get it for me, so I thought, why not? Some more what we look for in life is happiness what. If I cannot even be happy by getting a simple reward for my exam results, then what is the use of living in this world anymore?!?
- Digressing, let me talk about something that continues to irk me even though I always try not to think about it.
We always hear people say that in this life, we should always help other people. We should always do charity, we should always allow the other person to get what we initially wanted, if that makes him happy bla bla bla...
But then one day I thought, WHY? Why should we do that? I mean, it is a different case if you sincerely feel inclined to put others before yourself, but the question right now is: If someone is not willing to do that, then why will he be deemed as the lower race of the society?
I personally think, in helping others, it all depends on individual choices. If you want to help, you can, not should.
If you think I'm being selfish, look at this situation: Giving up seats to the older/pregnant people vs Not giving up seats to older/pregnant people.
Why is the latter considered an act of total immorality? I mean, personally, I would give up my seat also lah, and I will also hate people who do not give up their seats for them, but if you severely think about it: those who do not give up their seats are actually not doing anything wrong!
It's only based on YOUR choice, whether or not you want to help someone. It is a moral obligation, not a lawful one. So I guess that doesn't make the person WRONG, but you know, hated by the society or something...
But think again, when was the last time you actually donated to a dying cancer patient, or even responded to a newspaper article which urged you to donate to this innocent victim of whatever shit?
NEVER right? If got also, very rarely right?
So doesn't that make you the same as those who do not give up their seats? I'm sure you can still afford to live after donating that RM100 or something, so why aren't you doing it?
Because of the hassle of having to transfer cash/writing cheques and everything? So doesn't that also make you quite immoral?
Aya I dunno lah, but I think that in this society, the most vicious conviction is not by laws or judges, but by society itself. We are usually MOST afraid to do something NOT because we'd be slapped with a lawsuit, but because we'd be sneered/rejected by the society.
So the best way is: just help when you want to, not because you think it's a damn obligation and also stop trying to teach people to HELP if they do not want to. I mean, I know in this society we are supposed to help each other.
But disagreeing to help another person is also not a crime, and as long as you are not causing trouble/jeopardising another person's life, then it should be fine.
- End of digression.
2) My Lumix
*I already have a camera before I bought my Lumix, but that camera kept causing problems. Like, I can have the battery charged the WHOLE NIGHT, and when I turn it on the next day, snap two photos, it'd be completely conked out. ==
Also, during that time, I was very actively pursuing my Queen's Guide badge, so camera was an essential tool in my life! No photos = No log books = No QG badge.
So I pestered my dad to get me a camera, a good one, but I also got chastised by people around me. They told me it was not appropriate for me to get a new camera because my family is not that well off and I should just put up with the shitty one bla bla bla... But, but, I really needed the camera!
SERIOUSLY NEEDED IT. Not, wanted it. And when I got it, it did a FAT LOT GOOD for me!
So it did not go to waste and is now a friendly household item for everyone to use. See. What a good investment.
3) My LAPTOP
*Which is the most important thing in my life right now! Okay lah, not really lah, but you know what I mean.
I'd been wanting a latop for SUCH A LONG TIME already, and I'd been promised that I'd be getting one if my results for SPM were good enough and so when I got my results slip, I WAS DARN EXCITED TO GET MY OWN LAPPIE!!!
My family is not rich, so it is not really practical for me to get a laptop, because it is not a necessity (IT IS IT IS!!!). But then getting it doesn't render my family into starvation or anything like that, so why can't I????
We look for happiness in this life right? Whether temporary or long-lasting, it doesn't matter. If I can afford to be happy through materialistic purchases, I don't see why I'm not allowed to do so...
I told my dad that I've learnt alot of things through PCs and that it was a good investment but he says that unless I'm EARNING money from it, he doesn't see the good side of me getting my laptop. ==
Dad you just wait and see, ONE DAY, I will earn my money and show you that this laptop is worth every cent I paid for it!!!
So..... what I'm trying to say is, when I want something, I will fight for it.
And I've been wanting something for a really long time now to no avail... And I still keep fighting for it but I guess the rationale to NOT getting one is over-empowering so I should really just drop my hope. )=
What I've always wanted is...............
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A PET CAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know right they are so cute!! I mean, just imagine, you coming home after a long day of work, and then when you walk through the door, this fluffly thing comes to your legs and starts purring at your feet to get your attention......
AWWWWWWWWWWW
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The kitty I want is this one. Grey fur with blue eyes. :3
Ok lah I don't actually mind too much about the looks, but if given a choice, I'd choose the grey fluff ball with sparkly blue eyes lah! ><
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I am not allowed to have one yet because I'm at the point of transition in my life.
Taking up a responsibility to take care of a LIFE is not something you can just pick up and let go anyhow you like.
Keeping a pet is a lifetime responsibility and if you do not have the skills/capacity/time for it, then it is suggested that you do not keep one at all.
For now, I'm having my Pre-U for a year and a half, and after this, I will (hopefully) have to go to a university to pursue my education. Which might require me to stay in their hostels, where pets are not allowed!!!
So if I get my cat now, what am I going to do about it after I move into the hostel???
Right? It is so saddening that I have to consider all these, but that is the fact. I have to keep in mind that keeping a kitty (so furry! So cute! So manja! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee) is not like keeping a camera or a phone or a lappie.
Great deals of responsibilities come along with it, and so, since now I am not in position to handle them, I should just drop my idea of having a cat until I am finally at a stable stage of my life.
Sighhhh.....
So I guess I'll only be able to get my own pet cat when I am finally working 5 hours a day and living alone in my dingy apartment with no lover loh... Because then only I need a cat to accompany me mah HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Okay chuz.
ps: I choose cats over dogs because they do not make annoying sounds like BARKING which I cannot stand, and also they do not grow to disproportionate sizes. I want my pet to live indoor and sleep in my bed, which I can't do if my pet happens to be this BIG bulldog right???
pps: I WANT GREY FUR FLUFF WITH SPARKLY BLUE EYES Y____Y
Spoilt as in, if I can afford something, I will always whine about it so that I will eventually get it.
I mean, this sounds very irritating and bratty of me, but really what! If you want something, you FIGHT for it.
Unless of course it is something that you are NOT supposed to have lah, like: Other people's boyfriend, money from bribes etc etc
Ok lah when I said whine, I don't really mean whine like those annoying chao babies and young little girls.
Throughout my life, when I want something: I find all logical reasons to prove that I am worthy of getting that particular thing that I want, and I will continue to fight and fight until I finally get my hands on it.
For example, let's list down the few things I absolutely care about in my life, which I got purely from fighting through with all the reasons and explanations on why I should be allowed to get them:
1) My awesome W580i
*Ok lah, NOW it seems like it is a damn cheapo phone but during the time that I got it (like, 2 and a half years ago), it was something that was deemed quite glamorous and so I treasured it damn much.
Of cos mah, if that thing not glamorous I want/treasure it for what?
I got it because I scored good results for my PMR and my old phone was battered to the core already, so I sincerely thought that I deserved the phone.
Even though my family is not rich, but since my mummy was willing to get it for me, so I thought, why not? Some more what we look for in life is happiness what. If I cannot even be happy by getting a simple reward for my exam results, then what is the use of living in this world anymore?!?
- Digressing, let me talk about something that continues to irk me even though I always try not to think about it.
We always hear people say that in this life, we should always help other people. We should always do charity, we should always allow the other person to get what we initially wanted, if that makes him happy bla bla bla...
But then one day I thought, WHY? Why should we do that? I mean, it is a different case if you sincerely feel inclined to put others before yourself, but the question right now is: If someone is not willing to do that, then why will he be deemed as the lower race of the society?
I personally think, in helping others, it all depends on individual choices. If you want to help, you can, not should.
If you think I'm being selfish, look at this situation: Giving up seats to the older/pregnant people vs Not giving up seats to older/pregnant people.
Why is the latter considered an act of total immorality? I mean, personally, I would give up my seat also lah, and I will also hate people who do not give up their seats for them, but if you severely think about it: those who do not give up their seats are actually not doing anything wrong!
It's only based on YOUR choice, whether or not you want to help someone. It is a moral obligation, not a lawful one. So I guess that doesn't make the person WRONG, but you know, hated by the society or something...
But think again, when was the last time you actually donated to a dying cancer patient, or even responded to a newspaper article which urged you to donate to this innocent victim of whatever shit?
NEVER right? If got also, very rarely right?
So doesn't that make you the same as those who do not give up their seats? I'm sure you can still afford to live after donating that RM100 or something, so why aren't you doing it?
Because of the hassle of having to transfer cash/writing cheques and everything? So doesn't that also make you quite immoral?
Aya I dunno lah, but I think that in this society, the most vicious conviction is not by laws or judges, but by society itself. We are usually MOST afraid to do something NOT because we'd be slapped with a lawsuit, but because we'd be sneered/rejected by the society.
So the best way is: just help when you want to, not because you think it's a damn obligation and also stop trying to teach people to HELP if they do not want to. I mean, I know in this society we are supposed to help each other.
But disagreeing to help another person is also not a crime, and as long as you are not causing trouble/jeopardising another person's life, then it should be fine.
- End of digression.
2) My Lumix
*I already have a camera before I bought my Lumix, but that camera kept causing problems. Like, I can have the battery charged the WHOLE NIGHT, and when I turn it on the next day, snap two photos, it'd be completely conked out. ==
Also, during that time, I was very actively pursuing my Queen's Guide badge, so camera was an essential tool in my life! No photos = No log books = No QG badge.
So I pestered my dad to get me a camera, a good one, but I also got chastised by people around me. They told me it was not appropriate for me to get a new camera because my family is not that well off and I should just put up with the shitty one bla bla bla... But, but, I really needed the camera!
SERIOUSLY NEEDED IT. Not, wanted it. And when I got it, it did a FAT LOT GOOD for me!
So it did not go to waste and is now a friendly household item for everyone to use. See. What a good investment.
3) My LAPTOP
*Which is the most important thing in my life right now! Okay lah, not really lah, but you know what I mean.
I'd been wanting a latop for SUCH A LONG TIME already, and I'd been promised that I'd be getting one if my results for SPM were good enough and so when I got my results slip, I WAS DARN EXCITED TO GET MY OWN LAPPIE!!!
My family is not rich, so it is not really practical for me to get a laptop, because it is not a necessity (IT IS IT IS!!!). But then getting it doesn't render my family into starvation or anything like that, so why can't I????
We look for happiness in this life right? Whether temporary or long-lasting, it doesn't matter. If I can afford to be happy through materialistic purchases, I don't see why I'm not allowed to do so...
I told my dad that I've learnt alot of things through PCs and that it was a good investment but he says that unless I'm EARNING money from it, he doesn't see the good side of me getting my laptop. ==
Dad you just wait and see, ONE DAY, I will earn my money and show you that this laptop is worth every cent I paid for it!!!
So..... what I'm trying to say is, when I want something, I will fight for it.
And I've been wanting something for a really long time now to no avail... And I still keep fighting for it but I guess the rationale to NOT getting one is over-empowering so I should really just drop my hope. )=
What I've always wanted is...............
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
-picture credit owner-
A PET CAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know right they are so cute!! I mean, just imagine, you coming home after a long day of work, and then when you walk through the door, this fluffly thing comes to your legs and starts purring at your feet to get your attention......
AWWWWWWWWWWW
-picture credit owner-
The kitty I want is this one. Grey fur with blue eyes. :3
Ok lah I don't actually mind too much about the looks, but if given a choice, I'd choose the grey fluff ball with sparkly blue eyes lah! ><
-picture credit owner-
I am not allowed to have one yet because I'm at the point of transition in my life.
Taking up a responsibility to take care of a LIFE is not something you can just pick up and let go anyhow you like.
Keeping a pet is a lifetime responsibility and if you do not have the skills/capacity/time for it, then it is suggested that you do not keep one at all.
For now, I'm having my Pre-U for a year and a half, and after this, I will (hopefully) have to go to a university to pursue my education. Which might require me to stay in their hostels, where pets are not allowed!!!
So if I get my cat now, what am I going to do about it after I move into the hostel???
Right? It is so saddening that I have to consider all these, but that is the fact. I have to keep in mind that keeping a kitty (so furry! So cute! So manja! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee) is not like keeping a camera or a phone or a lappie.
Great deals of responsibilities come along with it, and so, since now I am not in position to handle them, I should just drop my idea of having a cat until I am finally at a stable stage of my life.
Sighhhh.....
So I guess I'll only be able to get my own pet cat when I am finally working 5 hours a day and living alone in my dingy apartment with no lover loh... Because then only I need a cat to accompany me mah HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Okay chuz.
ps: I choose cats over dogs because they do not make annoying sounds like BARKING which I cannot stand, and also they do not grow to disproportionate sizes. I want my pet to live indoor and sleep in my bed, which I can't do if my pet happens to be this BIG bulldog right???
pps: I WANT GREY FUR FLUFF WITH SPARKLY BLUE EYES Y____Y
So fucking hate this type of people.
Have you guys ever felt used by another person before?
A person that you actually love no less?
I seriously hate people like this.
You take advantage of his affection for you, and make him do things you are either too busy to do, or too stupid to do.
And that person, thinking that since you love him, then he is obligated to do whatever you might want him to do, regardless of whether it is practical or not, or if he actually enjoys doing such thing.
Maybe you can say that since he loves you, then doing anything for you is a joy to him, but doesn't that just make you a selfish idiot?
Arghhhh I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore but I seriously hate people who make use of another person for the benefit of oneself!
And worse, why are these people falling for the tricks by these idiots??!?!?
I hope they all burn in hell and stop tarnishing this world.
What I learnt this year: When you do something for someone you love, it is impossible to say that you do not expect something back.
But it is NOT love, if you EXPECT that person to do something for you without having done ANYTHING for him first.
It may sound like a vicious way of loving, expecting each other for something, but that is the fact.
If you think you can expect SOMETHING from the person you CLAIM to love, just because you both are in a relationship, WITHOUT doing anything for him first, then that just makes you a fucking selfish person.
Do something first before you expect from others. What's more if it's from someone you CLAIM to love, and who actually really loves you back.
Hate these selfish idiots who are in fact too IMMATURE to be in a relationship, but want to have the glamour of being someone's boyfriend/girlfriend.
URGHH. GO DIE LAHHHH.
A person that you actually love no less?
I seriously hate people like this.
You take advantage of his affection for you, and make him do things you are either too busy to do, or too stupid to do.
And that person, thinking that since you love him, then he is obligated to do whatever you might want him to do, regardless of whether it is practical or not, or if he actually enjoys doing such thing.
Maybe you can say that since he loves you, then doing anything for you is a joy to him, but doesn't that just make you a selfish idiot?
Arghhhh I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore but I seriously hate people who make use of another person for the benefit of oneself!
And worse, why are these people falling for the tricks by these idiots??!?!?
I hope they all burn in hell and stop tarnishing this world.
What I learnt this year: When you do something for someone you love, it is impossible to say that you do not expect something back.
But it is NOT love, if you EXPECT that person to do something for you without having done ANYTHING for him first.
It may sound like a vicious way of loving, expecting each other for something, but that is the fact.
If you think you can expect SOMETHING from the person you CLAIM to love, just because you both are in a relationship, WITHOUT doing anything for him first, then that just makes you a fucking selfish person.
Do something first before you expect from others. What's more if it's from someone you CLAIM to love, and who actually really loves you back.
Hate these selfish idiots who are in fact too IMMATURE to be in a relationship, but want to have the glamour of being someone's boyfriend/girlfriend.
URGHH. GO DIE LAHHHH.
Wahh...whole body aching... Y___Y
Thanks to like three matches of badminton yesterday with only 10-15 minutes of break in between, now my arms feel like they are going to fall off with the slightest movements.
But I had alot of fun playing badminton though! =D
I think alot of people know that my favourite sport is badminton and my favourite athlete is Lee Chong Wei, so I'm really glad that I am able to, you know, play the sport that my favourite athlete is famous for. =D
What an unnecessary paragraph. Anwayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
Today I just came to blog because I want to write about coincidences.
You know, those type of really scary and freaky coincidences that make you feel like there's a supernatural force behind it?
For example, just the other day I don't know what prompted me into thinking about this old schoolmate I used to have, named Lutfi in my primary school. (SK 1 Jalan Meru)
I hadn't thought about him for like AGES and I think on that particular day, he suddenly appeared in my mind because I'd been looking at Fauzi's pictures, and that somehow reminded me of a Malay friend I used to think was damn cute in my school last time.
So I was smiling to myself about how we would talk to each other during shared periods (we weren't in the same class) and how I missed those old times where we needn't worry about ANYTHING but to play and play and play.
So I sort of wondered what he was doing right now, and like, you know, wouldn't it be weird? That someone you used to be friends with last time, with whom you have currently lost contact with, suddenly reappears and you guys can continue the friendship last time and be close to each other again?
But then the next day, I was online and checking my Facebook as usual, and guess I got a friend request from whom!
It was Lutfi of course!!!
I mean, isn't it just so scary?
I was just thinking about him, after having not thought about him for like SO LONG, and then all of a sudden I got a friend request from him!!!
Why do these coincidences happen ha? Like so freaky right? It's as if there is this force around us that we know nothing of, that is helping us navigate all these occurrences to happen at almost the same time!
It's so awesome. =D
Abrupt end of blog post. Zzzz
Chuz.
But I had alot of fun playing badminton though! =D
I think alot of people know that my favourite sport is badminton and my favourite athlete is Lee Chong Wei, so I'm really glad that I am able to, you know, play the sport that my favourite athlete is famous for. =D
What an unnecessary paragraph. Anwayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
Today I just came to blog because I want to write about coincidences.
You know, those type of really scary and freaky coincidences that make you feel like there's a supernatural force behind it?
For example, just the other day I don't know what prompted me into thinking about this old schoolmate I used to have, named Lutfi in my primary school. (SK 1 Jalan Meru)
I hadn't thought about him for like AGES and I think on that particular day, he suddenly appeared in my mind because I'd been looking at Fauzi's pictures, and that somehow reminded me of a Malay friend I used to think was damn cute in my school last time.
So I was smiling to myself about how we would talk to each other during shared periods (we weren't in the same class) and how I missed those old times where we needn't worry about ANYTHING but to play and play and play.
So I sort of wondered what he was doing right now, and like, you know, wouldn't it be weird? That someone you used to be friends with last time, with whom you have currently lost contact with, suddenly reappears and you guys can continue the friendship last time and be close to each other again?
But then the next day, I was online and checking my Facebook as usual, and guess I got a friend request from whom!
It was Lutfi of course!!!
I mean, isn't it just so scary?
I was just thinking about him, after having not thought about him for like SO LONG, and then all of a sudden I got a friend request from him!!!
Why do these coincidences happen ha? Like so freaky right? It's as if there is this force around us that we know nothing of, that is helping us navigate all these occurrences to happen at almost the same time!
It's so awesome. =D
Abrupt end of blog post. Zzzz
Chuz.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Do you guys think I'm very happy about this?
Tell me. Just because I reported about the game, and now everywhere in school I go, I get furtive glares from some random seniors.
WITH WHOM I HAVE NO GRUDGE.
WITH WHOM I HAVE NO GRUDGE.
Do you think that makes me very happy?
If I HATED all of you, I would have just ignored you guys when I walked past you guys. But I smile, and try to make friends.
So are you telling me I cannot complain about the game you handled at all?
So I'm not allowed to complain about ANYTHING at all? Seriously. Do you understand what I'm trying to say?
Have you never complained about anyone/anything before? Why are you attacking me just because I voiced out my opinions? I did not fabricate anything, I did not defame anyone, I did not accuse anyone (except the F6 president's apology part - which I've already resolved with her).
Why are you guys attacking me? Why only ME? Simply because I blogged this out?
Is that fair? If you guys have such a problem with us during the game, why don't we ALL sit down and talk about this. Why attack only ME when there is this whole big GROUP who were also dissatisfied with the game?
I'm not holding a GRUDGE against ANYONE by writing that post, I WAS ONLY REPORTING. Get it?
So why are you guys holding a grudge against me NOW? Just because I wrote stuff which were true but offended you guys?
Then you guys should have mentioned that instead of all those other nonsense. (by stupid anonymous spammers)
Look what I got from a senior today:
20 Jul 10, 12:02kamaruddinzulkifli: what goes around comes aroung
Thanks for leaving your name. So then I can personally feel that I am talking to YOU and not some words in the chatbox.
Yes, you can say that what goes around comes around. But what exactly went around, and what exactly came back around?
Are you also trying to say that I cannot voice out my opinions about the game? I was only commenting about the GAME, NOT the seniors, so why is everybody getting so sensitive?
Plus, I'm not lying or anything, so why ATTACK me?
20 Jul 10, 12:04kamaruddinzulkifli: if u scared people commentin on ur post ,betta dun hav blog,blog is not private...if its private it should be hangin in ur cupboard not in da net...
Excuse me, but I'm not afraid of people coming to comment on my post. When was I ever scared? I am not afraid.
I'm just pissed that those anonymous spammers are worsening the situation between me and the F6 seniors.
I never said my blog was private. It is public.
20 Jul 10, 12:04kamaruddinzulkifli: im kamaruddin,from upper 6 ,acs
I sincerely respect you as my senior. You are the prefect right? I honestly thought you should be a nice person to get to know.
If you do not believe me, you can ask my friends. I don't want you to misunderstand me as well. Because I never wanted to make enemies with ANYONE in the first place.
20 Jul 10, 12:05kamaruddinzulkifli: come and see me if u think my comment is harsh
20 Jul 10, 12:05kamaruddinzulkifli: on the other hand,i can giv u one o two good advices
If those anonymous spammers had spoken to me THIS WAY, I would have listened. But they ATTACKED, PATRONISED and CHASTISED me.
That was why I got so angry. Nothing personal to F6 seniors. ONLY TO THOSE ANONYMOUS SPAMMERS.
20 Jul 10, 12:05kamaruddinzulkifli: i juz wanna stop all diz drama between u (lower six) and us
20 Jul 10, 12:06kamaruddinzulkifli: im trying to understand u
I never caused any drama, if you realise. Those spammers caused the drama. Don't you see? They come here, attack under a pseudonym, and throw accusations at me.
I only reported. That's all. I never meant for any DRAMA to happen.
20 Jul 10, 12:08kamaruddinzulkifli: we hav oni 4 months wit u all
20 Jul 10, 12:08kamaruddinzulkifli: so
20 Jul 10, 12:08kamaruddinzulkifli: we oni try to do our best for u al
I know how tough it is to handle a game like that. I DID NOT BLAME you guys for having handled the game like that. I was only REPORTING, without any connotations or grudge.
The only thing I was angry about was mainly about the apology part: which has been resolved already. And besides, it was only between me and the president. Who are these other anonymous spammers?
What rights have they to interfere upon my misunderstanding with the president?
If they happen to be F6 seniors, I would have talked to them properly also. But they were ANONYMOUS. And I do not respect anonymous people, or try to make peace with people I have no intention in making peace with.
Please understand me.
I never wanted any DRAMA.
20 Jul 10, 12:09kamaruddinzulkifli: truly,ur senior....kama....
I hope you understand what I'm trying to say. Instead of constantly coming here to check up on me, why don't you find out who those spammers are?
Why were they causing a big drama? I apologised to the president when I misunderstood her.
But those idiots? Firing accusations at me, and even after I've explained to them, they NEVER apologised.
So why am I wrong and not them?
kamaruddinzulkifli: and if u wan me shut my mouth,shut urs first,....if u think its ur blog,then no need c-box.....
I don't mind comments if they are not here to accuse/attack me. So I wouldn't want you to shut your mouth.
I leave the chatbox here to hear OPINIONS, not accusations.
And senior, I really respect you as a leader in school. I may not know you personally, but I know I've got no grudge against you.
I don't want anymore misunderstandings here.
The only thing I am angry and will not BACK DOWN FROM, are those anonymous spammers. Other stuff which involves the F6 seniors, I will not explain again.
Unless I get ACCUSED again, then I won't sit back. I'll defend myself.
And you anonymous spammers, learn a lesson lah. I'm not going to listen to you if you keep sprouting false accusations at me. And learn to get a life. Or some guts.
I won't apologise to you. So don't expect me to. And if you get me into trouble, then I'll make sure you get what you deserve too.
Chuz.
I am NOT having fun with this.
I will not back down until you guys see things from MY point of view.
Let's analyse this situation all over again okay?
So my blog post offended the Form6 seniors.
I apologise if that is the case. But you HAVE to know that that wasn't my intention. I was merely REPORTING what happened during the game. I've said this a MILLION times, but I'm still saying it, because you guys just DON'T UNDERSTAND.
Secondly, what were they offended by?
I went and talked to the F6 president today and we discussed about this.
She said:
Let's analyse this situation all over again okay?
So my blog post offended the Form6 seniors.
I apologise if that is the case. But you HAVE to know that that wasn't my intention. I was merely REPORTING what happened during the game. I've said this a MILLION times, but I'm still saying it, because you guys just DON'T UNDERSTAND.
Secondly, what were they offended by?
I went and talked to the F6 president today and we discussed about this.
She said:
1) She was offended I claimed her apology wasn't sincere when she really felt guilty and therefore decided to apologise.
I didn't think she was sincere because of ONE SIMPLE THING: When we made a fuss about the game when we'd been ignored, the committee didn't do anything to solve the problem. I'm only mad because of THIS.
Why ignore us in the first place? And then only apologise later? = This was what I felt.
But president said she apologised not because she had planned to apologise, but because in the end she did feel guilty about having done things like that.
Okay. That I can understand.
I apologised and said I'm sorry I misunderstood her, it was just during that time, I was really pissed and didn't think she was sincere.
Conclusion: SIMPLE MISUNDERSTANDING.
So those anonymous spammers? = Idiots who try to cause troubles.
2) President claimed that she does not know who these anonymous spammers are and she's also trying to find out.
So can you imagine how totally annoying and idiotic those spammers are? What are they making a big fuss for? Did I step on their tail?
Just because I reported the truth and I'm wrong all of a sudden?
3) Some idiot went and informed a teacher and I should be prepared to be called out of class to be asked about this.
First thing's first: I AM NOT AFRAID. I may be slightly nervous, but I AM NOT AFRAID.
- The teacher can scold me for being disrespectful to seniors by reporting how they mishandled the game. *I will tell her the same thing that I'm merely reporting the TRUTH, and if they had felt uncomfortable in the first place, they should have mentioned and not attack me.
- The teacher can scold me for using vulgarities and whatnot in my blog. *I will tell her that my vulgarities were only PROVOKED into usage. I was not directing them at the seniors, I was only speaking that way to those anonymous spammers. And if the teacher still wants to think that I am WRONG for using vulgarities, then FINE. BUT THAT IS ANOTHER CASE ALTOGETHER.
NOTHING TO DO WITH MY BLOG POST. So what about the anonymous spammers who simply come and accuse me? I will bring them up and MAKE SURE the teacher takes action against them as well.
- The teacher can scold me for being rude during the game. - *I will tell her that we only flashed those messages because we were angry at being treated unfairly. And if that was rude, they should have DONE SOMETHING about it, and not IGNORE us.
Also, it wasn't my idea. I only supported the idea. Then why am I the only one attacked? Many other people were also pissed by how the game was run, but only I get attacked because I'm courageous and honest enough to actually blog it out?
And it's only my OPINION. So now I'm attacked for expressing my opinion? If they were uncomfortable, they should have said it RIGHT AT THE START. NOT shoot accusations at me to make the situation WORSE.
- The teacher can scold me for whatever she wants to scold me lah. *I will tell her the same thing. State the part where I went wrong. If I've got an attitude problem, what about those anonymous spammers?
If I've got bad attitude, what about the rest of the people who felt pissed during the game?
If I've such a delinquent for voicing out my displeasure at being treated unfairly, then where is the justice in this world anymore?
***
I've never meant for this blog post to be read by ANYONE except Vendrick. If those seniors chance upon this blog anyhow, it is NOT MY FAULT.
Once again, why can't I speak my mind about how I felt during the game?
WHY NOT? Just tell me WHY NOT? I did NOT insult anyone. I did NOT talk bad about anyone. I just stated that the game was badly run. Which ALL of you admitted.
So what are you guys going on about now? How am I going to respect you if this is the way you react to a measly blog post that reports the TRUTH?
I never wanted, never intended, never WISHED for that post to turn out to be such a BIG FUSS. I was only casually, randomly blogging, like USUAL.
It is YOU GUYS, YOU ANONYMOUS SPAMMERS who are worsening the situation. If you guys had been a little bit respectful to me, this wouldn't have happened.
You guys are saying that I'm disrespecting the seniors, HOW SO? I said the game didn't run well, WHICH WAS THE TRUTH. So how am I disrespecting anyone?????????????
Once again, I've made peace with the F6 President, because I'm SINCERE in trying to make things right.
This whole thing is just a misunderstanding between me and the F6 President.
And why are the other F6 seniors offended? Did I say anything WRONG? Seriously?
Look. I'm not afraid if the teacher comes to me one day. YOU ANONYMOUS SPAMMERS BETTER BE CAREFUL because if I get shit over writing these opinions here, you guys WON'T come out safe as well.
It is only fair.
Monday, July 19, 2010
I'm not even done yet.
19 Jul 10, 21:02passerby2: it is easy to say but hard to do. how would u know that the pres is actually IGNORING u?? if he/she reli were, he wouldnt try his best to make the situation beta alr. and well. we were here to express
How do I know if the president was really ignoring me? Seriously, you asking me?
That is because I FELT IGNORED. And in fact, you guys certainly did not try to come and talk to us to ask what was wrong. So how can you expect us to not feel angry?
I know it's not easy to handle a game like that. And I'm not BLAMING the committee. I am just STATING what happened during the game.
If you want to attack me and say I shouldn't have reported it like that, then I would accept your opinion. But the first thing you said was to CHASTISE me.
And that is WHY I'm angry.
19 Jul 10, 21:02passerby: simple! You wanna know what's my problem? I just feel very uncomfortable when u say bout the pres n committee.You dont know how tough is to handle a function and yet you say like you know things well
How do I know if the president was really ignoring me? Seriously, you asking me?
That is because I FELT IGNORED. And in fact, you guys certainly did not try to come and talk to us to ask what was wrong. So how can you expect us to not feel angry?
I know it's not easy to handle a game like that. And I'm not BLAMING the committee. I am just STATING what happened during the game.
If you want to attack me and say I shouldn't have reported it like that, then I would accept your opinion. But the first thing you said was to CHASTISE me.
And that is WHY I'm angry.
19 Jul 10, 21:02passerby: simple! You wanna know what's my problem? I just feel very uncomfortable when u say bout the pres n committee.You dont know how tough is to handle a function and yet you say like you know things well
Okay you feel uncomfortable. YOU COULD HAVE SAID THAT RIGHT AT THE START BEFORE THROWING ACCUSATIONS AT ME.
Before patronising me. Before chastising me.
Did you? You didn't. YOU MADE THE SITUATION WORSE.
I KNOW it is tough. And I DON'T BLAME THEM FOR BEING UNORGANISED DON'T YOU GET IT?!
I'm just saying, I will NOT ignore any players who have complained about the game being unfair. There is the part that I canNOT tolerate.
19 Jul 10, 21:02passerby2: our opinions and thoughts as well. if u get offended, then just ignore it lah. like wat u said earlier.
I won't ignore this because I'm being accused. And I'm offended because you misunderstand my words. Like what I said earlier, if I'm provoked, I will not sit down and take shit.
19 Jul 10, 21:04passerby2: the purpose of u having a cbox here, is to let the readers to express their own thoughts right? so we are not wrong as well.
You are WRONG for flaming me when it has nothing to do with you. (provided you are not the crew member/president)
If you really ARE the president/crew member, then it is not my fault that you use an anonymous. Under an anonymous, I will just automatically assume you are NO ONE and thus have NOTHING to do with this, HENCE, I won't allow you to simply shoot fire around my personal space without doing something to defend myself and my dignity.
19 Jul 10, 21:05passerby: and watever we said is the facts too..dont you think? We are not here to make you angry but to make u understand
But the way you guys started was WRONG.
"19 Jul 10, 14:44 passerby: come on girl..it's just a game why are u taking up things so seriously? Is just a sake of fun. Next time pls volunteer to handle d situation. See yourself can make it better than them or not."
Your two last sentences make me boil. I'm not saying that I am better or in any way more superior than anyone. I'm just REPORTING.
And I don't like to be PATRONISED.
Yes, some things you said are facts. But does that include the statement that you made that 'everyone hates me because I have a bad attitude'? Is that a fact?
Do I have a bad attitude? I'm just EXPRESSIVE. Doesn't mean I have an attitude problem!
You're also expressing your opinions about me. So then: YOU ALSO HAVE A BAD ATTITUDE. RIGHT?!
19 Jul 10, 21:05passerby2: whatever it is. i find it is pointless to talk to ppl like you. what i can say is, change ur att! im not teaching u to how to live ur life but it is a fact that u must face n learn..
I also find it hard to talk to you. Because you will never understand. And you keep adding irrelevant things into this to make things more complicated.
And what attitude should I change? You mean I should stop voicing out my opinions? Is that what you are trying to say?
YOU should also learn to face that, when you do something WRONG, people are going to talk about it.
You mishandled the situation. I talk about it. Case closed.
But nooooo, you have to come and write bad stuff about me.
I wouldn't have minded if you defended yourself, but why are you writing (UNTRUE) bad things about me?!
19 Jul 10, 21:35passerby: you are comparing a simple char kuey tiao with your seniors? Wow! I am really impressed with you! For your info i'm just one of the crowds who feel terrible for d seniors. This stuff nvr happen in f6
== I'm not comparing the seniors to Char Kuey Teow (even if I am, what's wrong? Char Kuey Teow very disgraceful meh?). I'm comparing BOTH SITUATIONS. Alamak...like that also you cannot understand.
Whatever lah I have no interest to know who you are or what you do or what you feel lah. Just go away and stop bothering me.
19 Jul 10, 21:36passerby: we used to be united but with the ppl existed like you, i dont think this will happen. You have bond a huge gap bet us
What do you mean by 'people like me'? You mean people who voice out their opinions? Because that's how all this started right?
It started because I VOICED OUT MY OPINIONS.
So since you are voicing out YOUR opinions as well, so that includes you into 'my type of people' right? So you are wrong as well.
And there is NO gap in Form6. You CREATED that gap by posting demeaning stuff about me here.
19 Jul 10, 21:39passerby: but whatever i said wont go in your mind n make you think over it coz basically u think that you're always right. What's the point then?
I think I'm right because you haven't said anything logic enough to convince me that I'm wrong. So is that my fault? So now thinking I'm RIGHT is also a CRIME?
True though. What is the point? It is none of your business.
Tomorrow I am going to talk things out with the President. Because I won't take shit and I won't let misunderstandings happen and just IGNORE it.
Chuz.
Since I am so free, I am going to reply your nonsense BLOW BY BLOW.
Warning: SUPER LONG BLOG POST.
Let's begin!
19 Jul 10, 19:46passerby: my point is..if you are so unsatisfied with so many stuff.why don't u stand up n voice out in a proper manner rather than complaining at ppl's back? N pls comment properly. What's with **** all?Behave
Let's begin!
19 Jul 10, 19:46passerby: my point is..if you are so unsatisfied with so many stuff.why don't u stand up n voice out in a proper manner rather than complaining at ppl's back? N pls comment properly. What's with **** all?Behave
Why is voicing my opinion out in my blog NOT a proper manner? If I'd wanted something to be done about this, I'd definitely go straight to the committee and tell them I'm not happy with the game.
But the fact is: I ONLY WANT TO COMPLAIN. I ONLY WANT TO REPORT ABOUT THE GAME.
So why can't I do it in my blog???? It is NOT behind the committee's back also. My blog is NOT private. It's public, so the committee is FREE to read it, so how can it be BEHIND THEIR BACK?
Also, remember the Char Kuey Teow incident? Do you go up to the auntie and tell her to her face? NO! Because it is NOT A BIG DEAL. That is why I was only writing it in my blog.
YOU are the one making a big fuss out of this.
19 Jul 10, 20:06passerby2: oh wow. i finally understand why so many ppl starting to hate u alr. ur attitude explains it well. well. u're the one who chose to sit at the back. so dun blame the others for wat u got (lost in
19 Jul 10, 20:07passerby2: the game). and u think u can win that Audrey issit? so what if u are sitting in front? wat ppl have is TEAMWORK and cooperation. with a team member like YOU, i doubt ur group can win. NOT AT ALL.
They hate me, fuck them lah. I don't care. If they hate me just because I say all these, then you're syaing I should delete all these just that these morons will start to LIKE me instead? I don't need them to like me.
My friends LIKE me. And that's enough. I'm not doing anything wrong. I'M JUST STATING MY OPINIONS. == (for the 10000000th time)
So it's my fault that I lost the game because I sat at the back. Doesn't that just SHOW how unfair the game was? Oh! Want to win? Sit at the front! All at the back are losers! ==
You see. I'm only reporting about the game. I'M NOT INSULTING ANYONE. And I'm SORRY you feel insulted, but if the truth insults you, should I CHANGE the truth then? Just so you WON'T feel insulted? Is that what you want me to do?????
Ho ho ho. You want to talk about ME bringing my team down. Why don't you personally ask all my team members if I helped during the game? HUH? I DARE YOU TO ASK THEM. Please do not assume things, you anonymous coward. You don't know SHIT.
And you CANNOT deny that Audrey's group won because they sat at the front. So stop saying irrelevant things like I'm stupid or not cooperative or have attitude problem that's why we didn't win.
The crew did not pay attention to our group, THAT WAS WHY WE COULD NOT WIN. UNDERSTAND??!?!?!?
19 Jul 10, 20:09passerby2: yes.. i do admit that ur eng is good. and i noe mine is not as good as urs.. but pls mind ur words. ur post did offend many ppl here. and i as a outsider here, can feel how rude and bad attitude u hav
19 Jul 10, 20:10passerby2: here. u like to complain so much huh? be a good leader next year then. which I DOUBT. i think the whole form will just go against u due to ur bad attitude. wan others to respect n listen to u?? learn
19 Jul 10, 20:10passerby2: to respect the others first!!!
*ignore comment about good English/bad English because TOTALLY IRRELEVANT*
Look. I'm SORRY I offended people through my post. But it's the truth what. If you want me to remove the post, you can just tell me nicely and I will do it.
NOT COME HERE AND START SCOLDING ME.
I'm reporting about what happened during the game, how am I wrong??!?!? That does NOT show that I have a bad attitude.
In fact, YOU coming here and flame me when this is NONE of your business, that's even MORE indicative that YOU have a BAD ATTITUDE.
And so what if I'm complaining? Cannot complain one meh? Then what are you doing complaining about ME???? Huh???
Plus I'm not saying the President is not a good leader. I'm just saying the way the crew handled the game was not FAIR. WHICH PART OF THAT DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND???
Why are you talking about leadership here??? The whole form will go against me??? SO??? How is that relevant??? You don't even know that for sure, so why are you barking like a mad dog here?
19 Jul 10, 20:13passerby2: oh well. at least the President u mentioned in ur blog did feel guilty and apologize to u guys when he/she knew that he is not dng a good job. but you???? worse than the worst!
Okay, she felt guilty. And she apologised. Don't I have the right to reject the apology? I'm not rejecting HER IN PERSON, I'm just rejecting THAT particular apology. And why am I worse than the worst?
Just because I don't accept her apology? Then I slap you and apologise so you must accept my apology lah ok? Or not you will be WORSE THAN THE WORST!
Am I right? Idiot.
19 Jul 10, 20:14passerby2: u nvr wat u had done wrong and u'll nvr say sorry even if u're wrong!
Excuse me, but HOW exactly am I wrong? And how do you know I won't apologise if I've done something wrong? Were you with me by my side my entire life?
NO! You are not. So stop assuming things about me! I'm not your blank paper for you to jot down nonsense anyhow you like!
19 Jul 10, 20:17passerby: exactly.. passerby2 u speak my words..learn how to respect.. at least the president done his/her best. get a life lah
YOU GET A LIFE LAH. Simply come to my blog to flame me. Nothing else better to do ah? So noble go help build a house or something lah. Stupid.
YOU learn how to respect ME. I'm not disrespecting anyone. I'm just GIVING OPINIONS.
19 Jul 10, 20:24passerby2: oh and ya.. i find u're kinda childish n stupid niway.. flashing words like THOSE make u feel happy huh?? ha! funny!!
So? I have fun doing those things. SO??? Childish. SO??? Stupid. SO???? Those are your opinions what. You want to say anything you say lah. I don't mind.
Just don't stop me from saying what I WANT to say. And don't accuse me, idiot.
19 Jul 10, 20:25passerby2: and let me tell u watt.. the game is fine actually.. it is just bcuz ppl like YOU worsen the situation.
I WORSEN THE GAME???? Are you fucking kidding me? What did I ever do to make the game unejoyable? HUH?
This is what happened during the game: Play game ---> Crew did not pay attention to groups at the back ---> We voice our opinions through THE CARDS ---> Crew IGNORED us ---> I report about this my in BLOG
Which part made the game not enjoyable? The part where the crew did not pay attention to the back groups.
Play game ---> Crew did not pay attention to groups at the back ---> We voice our opinions through THE CARDS ---> crew IGNORED us ---> I report about this my in BLOGTHAT PART. NOT ME. Stupid.
19 Jul 10, 20:28passerby: so your main point is not about the game but it's about how unorganised the committee is larh?
My main point, idiot, is the game is unorganised. The main point of this blog post is, A REPORT.
19 Jul 10, 20:28passerby: so what if they are unorganised? must you be so rude to them? it's not wrong for u to voice out your own opinion.. but must you be so disrespectful and rude?
How was I EVER RUDE???!??! I did not say any RUDE things about them in the previous post. I just stated that the way they handled things was UNORGANISED. THAT'S ALL.
19 Jul 10, 20:29passerby: no matter how also he/she is still your president. no matter how u dislike him also u still need to respect them. cant u just voice out your opinion is a proper manner?
What a stupid argument. So she's my president, she kill my mother also I must respect her lah? And how is my manner of voicing out my opinions wrong??!?!?! Or improper???? I'm just writing in my BLOG. What is wrong with that?
I'm not even chastising them. I'm just reporting!!! DON'T YOU GET IT??!?!?!?
19 Jul 10, 20:30passerby: even now also also.. we are commenting nicely to you without any harsh or rude words. but why are u keep using the idiots **** and wat so ever
Just because YOU don't use harsh/rude words doesn't mean your demeanor is less rude than MINE. The vulgar words I use are just PART of my way of saying things, not that I am RUDE! Don't you get it?
1) You are not intelligent and you deserve to be lifted of the right to live in this world.
2) You are an idiot and you should die.
BOTH SENTENCES SHARE THE SAME MEANING. Just because one sentence doesn't have the word 'idiot' in it, doesn't make it LESS RUDE. Stupid.
19 Jul 10, 20:33passerby: the part where u spelt out the words thru the alphabet and also unable to accept ppl's apology and saying they are not sincere. do you really know them onot? you dont even know the committee well
What is wrong with spelling the words through the alphabets? And it's not even MY idea in the first place. Geeez.
There is a difference between being UNABLE to accept an apology and REFUSING to accept an apology. If she apologised, I have the right to reject it. And I'm only rejecting it because I don't need the apology. And I don't think it's sincere.
Ok the question is, is she sincere? I don't know, and you don't know either, unless YOU are the President. (and I'll lose respect for you if you are, because of the type of things you post here man)
19 Jul 10, 20:34passerby2: wat a good question.. read ur post again n again then.. n put urself in their shoes. u're the one who being disrespectful and rude alright? from the beginning till now u just couldnt stop using vulgar
JUST BECAUSE I USE VULGARITIES DOESN'T MEAN THAT WHEN YOU DO NOT USE VULGARITIES, YOU ARE LESS RUDE. Understand???? The presence of vulgarities doesn't PROVE that I'm MORE RUDE.
It just means that I'm MORE angry and the way we express things is DIFFERENT. When are you going to get that????
19 Jul 10, 20:34passerby: what they had done to you? just becoz they ignore your group and that makes u angry?
YESH. I AM ANGRY ONLY BECAUSE THEY IGNORED MY GROUP.
HAVE YOU FINALLY GOT IT??!??!?!
So? What now? What do you want to say now?
19 Jul 10, 20:34passerby2: words. and fyi. i just love to SMILE. and i AM SMILING.
Who's the childish one now idiot.
19 Jul 10, 20:35passerby: aren't you been a bit too over? put urself in the pres shoes then? Btw as i know, f6's stayback stuff started last year. means they are the 1st batch to do all these stuff.. and i believe everything
19 Jul 10, 20:36passerby: will be super disorganised
Okay. So? I'm not BLAMING them for being disorganised. I'm just STATING that they WERE unorganised. So I can't even state things now?
The fact is they WERE unorganised what. Can't I even report the truth?!
19 Jul 10, 20:38passerby: how only u think it's sincere enough for u? go in front of u and kneel down asking for apology? it's that only sincere for u?
It's not the WAY you apologise that shows how sincere you are. It's the REASON you apologise that shows your sincerity.
I can't believe I even have to explain this to you. ==
19 Jul 10, 20:40passerby: how many groups were there? i believe it's a lot. they feel themselves unorganised too that is why they keep on changing the rules.. and that's why they apologize.. and it's only a super small game
OH! So they apologise because they keep changing the rules? And not because they IGNORED us when we showed that we weren't happy with the game?
GOOD. More reason for me to reject the apology.
Because I'm only angry that they IGNORED us when we made a fuss. I'm ANGRY BECAUSE OF THAT. GET IT?!?
19 Jul 10, 20:42passerby: purposely ignore your group. come on.. u'll got dendam with them that they PURPOSELY ignored your group ah? no rite? think logically
They purposely ignored my group when we flashed those messages.
I also dunno what dendam they have with me but THAT WAS WHAT THEY DID.
19 Jul 10, 20:44passerby: 1st of all, do you think it's wrong for u to flash out those words?
What's wrong with doing that? No, seriously? What's wrong with doing that??!?!?
19 Jul 10, 20:45passerby2: tell me wat can u do if u were the president then? there were so many ppl there la wei. if they mind n taking every words of urs seriously then that pres will be damn freaking bighead alright.
I don't even know what you are trying to say BUT if I were the president, I would have:
1) Stopped the game and asked us what was wrong
2) Organised the crew to scatter around the hall, so each group got equal attention
Because in a game, the players matter the most. If you can't even bother to HEAR OUR WORDS, what's the point in playing???!?!?
19 Jul 10, 20:45passerby2: if u were the organiser, u have nth but to do the same thing as well!
As above.
19 Jul 10, 20:46passerby2: and try to use ur smart brain n think,. why are they ignoring ur WORDS first? it is bcuz u guys are being rude and disrespectful tto the whole crowd.
Firstly, thanks for stating that I have a smart brain. But I don't have a smart brain. I just have a brain to help me think LOGICALLY.
WHO SAID WE WERE BEING DISRESPECTFUL TO THE CROWD? WTF did we ever do that was disrespectful to the CROWD?!
We flashed those messages BECAUSE they ignored us, NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND.
STOP FABRICATING STORIES IDIOT.
19 Jul 10, 20:48passerby2: fyi.. many teachers complaining that many of u have attitude prob also okay. it is not just our words. is MOST of us. mind you.
So? I don't think I have an attitude problem. I'm being treated unfairly. I voice out my discontentment. I get ignored. I keep quiet. And I go home and report about it.
WHERE IS THE PART THAT SHOWS I HAVE AN ATTITUDE PROBLEM? HUH?!
The teachers complain about me? What have I done? If they come up to me and tell me that I have an attitude problem, I would ask them the SAME thing: What am I doing wrong???
I did not cause havoc. I did not get up and hit people. I did not shout loud loud until people become uncomfortable.
So what's my problem?
19 Jul 10, 20:51passerby: you cant just simply express out your anger when you are angry. If you continue liddat. I am not surprised that one day you'll be hit by d crowd
Why not? I'm angry and I cannot express it? WHERE IS THE JUSTICE IN THIS WORLD?!?!
Plus I'm not spreading to the world how angry I am. I am only WRITING THIS IN MY MEASLY BLOG. And the only person I intended for that post to be read is VENDRICK.
NO ONE ELSE. So why would I get hit by a crowd? I'm not even scared. They want to hit me, can, but they better have logic first.
19 Jul 10, 20:53passerby: by right you should go to the committee personally n tell them how u feel. The way u can complain directly to them 2ndly they'll try to change themselves in d future
The problem is I AM NOT DEMANDING THEM TO CHANGE. I'm just stating my opinions!!! Which part of that is wrong??!?! HUH!??!?!
Omg... I am so tired. When will you ever get what I'm trying to say??!?! If I was as mean and bitchy as you CLAIM I am, YES, I would have gone up to the committee and told them straight.
But I have NOTHING against the committee. I'm only reporting!!! Arggghh!!!
WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO UNDERSTAND??!?!?!
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