You know hor...

I am a very spoilt girl.

Spoilt as in, if I can afford something, I will always whine about it so that I will eventually get it.

I mean, this sounds very irritating and bratty of me, but really what! If you want something, you FIGHT for it.

Unless of course it is something that you are NOT supposed to have lah, like: Other people's boyfriend, money from bribes etc etc

Ok lah when I said whine, I don't really mean whine like those annoying chao babies and young little girls.

Throughout my life, when I want something: I find all logical reasons to prove that I am worthy of getting that particular thing that I want, and I will continue to fight and fight until I finally get my hands on it.

For example, let's list down the few things I absolutely care about in my life, which I got purely from fighting through with all the reasons and explanations on why I should be allowed to get them:

1) My awesome W580i

*Ok lah, NOW it seems like it is a damn cheapo phone but during the time that I got it (like, 2 and a half years ago), it was something that was deemed quite glamorous and so I treasured it damn much.

Of cos mah, if that thing not glamorous I want/treasure it for what?

I got it because I scored good results for my PMR and my old phone was battered to the core already, so I sincerely thought that I deserved the phone.

Even though my family is not rich, but since my mummy was willing to get it for me, so I thought, why not? Some more what we look for in life is happiness what. If I cannot even be happy by getting a simple reward for my exam results, then what is the use of living in this world anymore?!?

- Digressing, let me talk about something that continues to irk me even though I always try not to think about it.

We always hear people say that in this life, we should always help other people. We should always do charity, we should always allow the other person to get what we initially wanted, if that makes him happy bla bla bla...

But then one day I thought, WHY? Why should we do that? I mean, it is a different case if you sincerely feel inclined to put others before yourself, but the question right now is: If someone is not willing to do that, then why will he be deemed as the lower race of the society?

I personally think, in helping others, it all depends on individual choices. If you want to help, you can, not should.

If you think I'm being selfish, look at this situation: Giving up seats to the older/pregnant people vs Not giving up seats to older/pregnant people.

Why is the latter considered an act of total immorality? I mean, personally, I would give up my seat also lah, and I will also hate people who do not give up their seats for them, but if you severely think about it: those who do not give up their seats are actually not doing anything wrong!

It's only based on YOUR choice, whether or not you want to help someone. It is a moral obligation, not a lawful one. So I guess that doesn't make the person WRONG, but you know, hated by the society or something...

But think again, when was the last time you actually donated to a dying cancer patient, or even responded to a newspaper article which urged you to donate to this innocent victim of whatever shit?

NEVER right? If got also, very rarely right?

So doesn't that make you the same as those who do not give up their seats? I'm sure you can still afford to live after donating that RM100 or something, so why aren't you doing it?

Because of the hassle of having to transfer cash/writing cheques and everything? So doesn't that also make you quite immoral?

Aya I dunno lah, but I think that in this society, the most vicious conviction is not by laws or judges, but by society itself. We are usually MOST afraid to do something NOT because we'd be slapped with a lawsuit, but because we'd be sneered/rejected by the society.

So the best way is: just help when you want to, not because you think it's a damn obligation and also stop trying to teach people to HELP if they do not want to. I mean, I know in this society we are supposed to help each other.

But disagreeing to help another person is also not a crime, and as long as you are not causing trouble/jeopardising another person's life, then it should be fine.

- End of digression.

2) My Lumix

*I already have a camera before I bought my Lumix, but that camera kept causing problems. Like, I can have the battery charged the WHOLE NIGHT, and when I turn it on the next day, snap two photos, it'd be completely conked out. ==

Also, during that time, I was very actively pursuing my Queen's Guide badge, so camera was an essential tool in my life! No photos = No log books = No QG badge.

So I pestered my dad to get me a camera, a good one, but I also got chastised by people around me. They told me it was not appropriate for me to get a new camera because my family is not that well off and I should just put up with the shitty one bla bla bla... But, but, I really needed the camera!

SERIOUSLY NEEDED IT. Not, wanted it. And when I got it, it did a FAT LOT GOOD for me!

So it did not go to waste and is now a friendly household item for everyone to use. See. What a good investment.

3) My LAPTOP

*Which is the most important thing in my life right now! Okay lah, not really lah, but you know what I mean.

I'd been wanting a latop for SUCH A LONG TIME already, and I'd been promised that I'd be getting one if my results for SPM were good enough and so when I got my results slip, I WAS DARN EXCITED TO GET MY OWN LAPPIE!!!

My family is not rich, so it is not really practical for me to get a laptop, because it is not a necessity (IT IS IT IS!!!). But then getting it doesn't render my family into starvation or anything like that, so why can't I????

We look for happiness in this life right? Whether temporary or long-lasting, it doesn't matter. If I can afford to be happy through materialistic purchases, I don't see why I'm not allowed to do so...

I told my dad that I've learnt alot of things through PCs and that it was a good investment but he says that unless I'm EARNING money from it, he doesn't see the good side of me getting my laptop. ==

Dad you just wait and see, ONE DAY, I will earn my money and show you that this laptop is worth every cent I paid for it!!!

So..... what I'm trying to say is, when I want something, I will fight for it.

And I've been wanting something for a really long time now to no avail... And I still keep fighting for it but I guess the rationale to NOT getting one is over-empowering so I should really just drop my hope. )=

What I've always wanted is...............
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A PET CAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know right they are so cute!! I mean, just imagine, you coming home after a long day of work, and then when you walk through the door, this fluffly thing comes to your legs and starts purring at your feet to get your attention......

AWWWWWWWWWWW


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The kitty I want is this one. Grey fur with blue eyes. :3

Ok lah I don't actually mind too much about the looks, but if given a choice, I'd choose the grey fluff ball with sparkly blue eyes lah! ><


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I am not allowed to have one yet because I'm at the point of transition in my life.

Taking up a responsibility to take care of a LIFE is not something you can just pick up and let go anyhow you like.

Keeping a pet is a lifetime responsibility and if you do not have the skills/capacity/time for it, then it is suggested that you do not keep one at all.

For now, I'm having my Pre-U for a year and a half, and after this, I will (hopefully) have to go to a university to pursue my education. Which might require me to stay in their hostels, where pets are not allowed!!!

So if I get my cat now, what am I going to do about it after I move into the hostel???

Right? It is so saddening that I have to consider all these, but that is the fact. I have to keep in mind that keeping a kitty (so furry! So cute! So manja! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee) is not like keeping a camera or a phone or a lappie.

Great deals of responsibilities come along with it, and so, since now I am not in position to handle them, I should just drop my idea of having a cat until I am finally at a stable stage of my life.

Sighhhh.....

So I guess I'll only be able to get my own pet cat when I am finally working 5 hours a day and living alone in my dingy apartment with no lover loh... Because then only I need a cat to accompany me mah HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Okay chuz.

ps: I choose cats over dogs because they do not make annoying sounds like BARKING which I cannot stand, and also they do not grow to disproportionate sizes. I want my pet to live indoor and sleep in my bed, which I can't do if my pet happens to be this BIG bulldog right???

pps: I WANT GREY FUR FLUFF WITH SPARKLY BLUE EYES Y____Y